hasEeEenah!

2007-09-25T17:50:00.000+08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY ABANDONING THIS BLOG.
AFTER 268 POSTS, I FEEL LIKE IM SO SICK OF THIS BLOG.
ALL THE EMO POSTS.
ALL THE FUN TIMES I HAD.
ALL GONE.
HAHA WHATEVER.
I'LL MOST PROLLY MAKE ANOTHER BLOG WHEN I FEEL LIKE.

with love, seeeenah(:

promos a bitch, big time!

2007-08-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

Incompatible.
it don't matter though cause someone's bound to hear my cry.
speak out if you do. you're not easy to find.
is it possible Mr. Loveable is already in my life?
right in front of me? or maybe you're in disguise?
who doesn't long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you without being told.
somebody tell me why im on my own, if there's a soulmate for everyone
here we are again, circles never end.
how do i find the perfect fit?
there's enough for everyone.
but im still waiting in line...

2007-08-18T21:26:00.001+08:00

damn the fireworks. i freakin wanted to see it. i can only hear it now. damn him.
damn saturday nights. it feels so alone. ):
damn school. it's been sucha bitch. how can anything get so bitchy? it's so draining. i feel almost dead by the time it's friday. you just gotta enjoy it to get over the feeling.
damn him. things are so different now. he's the biggest fool of all. or am i? for wanting everything to be perfect.

squash isnt going too well for me. i was in no mood to play. but it felt okay after awhile. we need a better coach. i want anthony to come back. but anyway, i played two matches. 9-4. 9-7. not bad. i had dinner with the squashers, shuzhen. gayathree. alnishyia. alfie and natalin. thorn among the roses. haha. but it was cool. faizal came with the "gang". haha. i was tired by the time i reached home. but i just didnt feel like sleeping. i didnt want to. and i had no idea why. ): i slept only at 2.

my heart feels heavy whenever i talk to you. why is everything so weird.

2007-08-12T14:15:00.000+08:00

Toonie is HAWT!

2007-08-12T13:57:00.000+08:00

hey y'all. im feeling so sleepy. it's a sunday and im getting the blues:( theres sch tmr. damn, we're gonna run 2k again. haha im no bad influence to eugenia k. shes a born piggy. anyway instead of doing my work on friday, i met alnishyia who came super duper tuper wuper late. imagine 45mins of waiting. i got pissed but knowing me, i cant ever be angry at someone for so long. haha. damn my soft heart! ;p so we met at kallang. played at the kallang squash and tennis centre. it was fuckin fun stuff. haha. we sweat it out baby! we played for an hour and by the time we were shagged. hehe. but i likee. then there were like two guys watching us play. so nervous. haha. so we left around 6 and i met my hot girls at mp library. sandy's boy was there with his friend too. we talked for awhile and i dragged them out of that boring place and the four of us, as in glory, sandy, toon and me went to get my belgian choc ice blended with whipped cream at coffee bean parkway. heaven baby! haha. so yummy. we chilled there. talked bout our lives. oh and toon and sandy were like crazyyy. as usual! hahaha. BOTHER BOTHER BOTHER! hehe. ;) yeah anyway sandy's mom came to pick her up and glory had to leave for piano so toon and me walked around and headed home. she left me for her bus:( haha but Bestie accompanied me home on the phone. my phone died on me so the journey pretty much sucked. haha.
yesterday, i got so so pissed with my mommy. shes like blaming squash for every single thing i do wrong. she wants me to stop playing and start studying. like thats ever gonna happen. it will but not so sooon. i guess. but anyway i went to alisa's house to chill.it's been long since i last went over. we did some stuff. glory came over too. oh and like. they took my phone! and checked some stuff!:( such bitches. haha. i dont think it should be called private since people keep seeing them! grrr. heh. yeah anyway. i reach home only about 10something. was so tired. i watched the ring with mommy and munii. we sorta like kissed and made up. haha. ok not literally. but yea.
i wanna watch disturbia and alone and any other scary movies there are!

2007-08-09T12:31:00.000+08:00

sr's thanksgiving concert rocked!

boooo! happy national day people! haha. (big deal) glory actually stayed up till 12 to wish spore happy birthday. that girl's nuts! haha. so anyway, yesterday was sr's thanksgiving concert. it fuckin rocks. the teachers who performed were greaat! and to think that they only rehearsed for like two days. so anyway, i was planning to leave late since it starts only at 5something. but alicia called so i met her at around 230 at the ubi bustop and we headed to sch. i helped out at the kacang puteh stand. haha. i was like the indian man who wraps the kacang puteh! haha;) so we ended up walking around the sch. there were like other booths selling stuff like tattoos and fooooood. yum. haha. then we sorta like assembled and the whole ceremony started. suhaila marched in! she was wearing her ncc uniform. cutee! heh. oh and there was like some MALAY guy who was outside the sch. godknowswho. and he was like shouting all sorts of crap. like, "left right bapak kau!" or something like that. haha. sheesh. so like, we went to the hall. was a lil squeezy. the lights were dimmed and the concert begun.
first, the emcees were like cracking lame jokes k! haha. and then they invited the guest of honour. and he was....... darth vader! hahaha. funny k! some teacher dressed in darth vader's outfit and came from the back of the hall with his light saber. haha. then he met his princess amidala on stage. haha. and they became the emcees. some teachers performed martial art. then there was Deal or No Deal (sr version). was pretty cool cos the sounds and all were exactly like the one they have on the show. and we had eight models. all were teachers. haha. mrs chen was hott. they also had their suitcase thing. coool la. the vp was there too. she was the mother of the contestant. cute la! so aunty. heh. then the teachers from the pe department performed. ms riverra danced! haha. and the basketball girls made a banner for her. coool k. after that some teachers sang. mr philip tan is back! hes still round. haha. ms tan and some teachers danced tooo. so retro! and freakin hell, ms tan can dance! haha.

then the emcees came back and darth vader became austin power and princess amidala became the girl. haha. so funny la. cos he kept saying, "yeah baby yeaaaah" haha. the principal then sang for us. was damnn sweet cos he dedicated the first song to j1s and the second to j2s. and everyone sang along. felt good. (: there was one part where caiying CRIED! haha. the principal gave his closing speech. but we wanted encore. haha. then he sang for us again! hes freakin cool. ive never had a principal like him. dammn. haha. the concert ended around 830. then s9 went to the gallery to celebrate adeline's bday. i helped to cut the cake into 22 pieces! so anyway jabian came to pick yvonne up and the kpo ppl (surprisingly almost everyone!) sent her off and saw him. hahaha.. i'd be soo embarrassed if i were her. heh. so the 5 bobbys, weiting, linhui, tricia, eugenia and me went for dinner. had prata! haha. it was funnnn. then i left with darryl. reached home only at about 1130. thank god i didnt get screwed. i had a blastttt. woooo! haha. we managed to raise about $102,000 in total! haha and finally, sr and the teachers rockkss! mwaahhhhh!

ridzwan's not in the pic. nyaha.

2007-08-08T12:14:00.000+08:00

PICTURES!

me and my tongue obsession. i likee.

Girls just wanna have fun.
obviously camwhoring.

my two funny girls. only one's a bitch. the other's a boy. HAHAHA.

she looks like happy mouse!

she has some serious attitude problem.
seenah+beanie

i sense some bitchy vibe.

porky eating her damn tiramisu!

camwhoring alone can be fun okay!
beanie on her.

then me.
we chill.

2007-08-08T11:53:00.000+08:00

hey bitches. ;) yesterday was 'be yourself day' in sr. i thought i was gon look so weird and stuff but the other girls actually dressed up more. much much more. it was pretty amusing. i mean like, it's a school dammit. haha. but whatever. they had fun. me too! though the lessons were like sooo draggy. i ended sch at like 6. oh and i broke my freakin slippers. damn k. i was cursed. haha. karma la. but anyway, we had ct period. and there was this play that some drama company did. it was about love. haha. it pretty much rocked i guess. i mean, it's nice. the whole drama thing. so anyway, i was supposed to meet him. but things fuckin screwed up so i went out with the girlies instead. we had yet another coffee bean night. wooo! haha. i likeeeee. went paya lebar coffee bean. i think we're like addicted to the place or something. it's a damn nice place to chill. left only at 10something. my mum was like so bugging me. sheesh. and i was like soo shagged by then. haaha. took a cab home. had conference at night:)
on monday, it was the captain's ball semi finals. haha. sounds lame and childish. but it's seriously not. cos the guys were so aggressive. but anyway s9 got in the finals. i was the captain and it was damnn pressurising. but there were soo much of team spirit. i soo like! we got second place anyway. i was gonna take a cab home but ended up taking the bus with darryl. haha.
im gonna go sch later for some squash thing at 3 and the thanksgiving concert at 630. kinda coool that sch's gonna start only then for srjcians. and the teachers are performing. i heard the principal's gonna sing too. cooolness! haha. the principal is soo hip! i swear. hes really making sr into a proper sch now. and i dont care what others think, i feel that the sch's great.
much loves.

2007-08-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

With Love, 1s09.

im with a manjannnnnn! hahahaha.

yvonne seriously wants me!
emo elmo eskimo with an extra BIGMOUTH. hahaha.

JUST US. right eugenia?

can someone make me less cheeky? haha. i love ms riverra!
muscular VS flabby VS tanned legs.

she walks a LONELY road, the only one that she has ever known. (that leads her to my blk!)

Dear Lord, please save me from this mean world:(

some random pictures to bring me joy. haha.

Things to look forward to:

1. Chem bonding Lecture Test tmr

2. Be Yourself Day on tuesday (i have noo idea what to wear, dammit!)

3. Sch starts at 545PM on wentzday! wheeeeee!

4. National Day. woooo? like anyone gives a damn.

5. Dragon Boating with fellow classmates. youre SOO coming peishan! hahaha.
6. SLEEEEEPPP!!!
7. Friday Night(:

2007-08-04T09:54:00.001+08:00

ive finally decided to blog again. ive been super busy. with project work and sch stuff. ugh. it's killing me. yesterday was an emo emo day. hmph. when you feel for a person soo much, it's just hard to let go. and the truth hurts. real bad. i might not show it. but deep inside im wailing like a baby. im still trying to get over it. this whole drama is not over. hmp. so anyway i had captain's ball interclass. haha. ok i know it sounds lame. but sr is doing some fund raising and classes will hold competitions like this where each interested class will hafta pay like 1 or 2 bucks to play. it was fun. there was so much class spirit! haha. i soo like. there was one point newman just kept screaming here and there. haha. damn funny. and ms riverra was there too. and she was cheering and jumping for us. cuteeee! haha. it's so fun to have her as our ct. yea, so i was the captain. as in the one on the chair. i get soo scared each time i miss the ball. haha. but hey, we won 11-9. woo! congrats ppl! love y'all.
ok so then me and alicia went for squash. i dont really like richard as our coach. i prefer anthony. but he was with the guys. so we just played games after games with richard. and time flew. by the time it was seven. so i went to shower. met yvonne and eugenia after they showered. and alicia came with us to paya lebar. we had dinner at ljs. then chilled at coffee bean. i had my belgian choc ice blended with whipped cream. so yum! haha. alicia left. and it was me, yvonne and eugenia. we talked. gossiped. laughed. a whole lot. haha it was fun. secrets are meant to be kept, girls. then eugenia's dad came. she wanted her dad to fetchh me home but it wasnt in the way so yvonne went with them and i took a 21 home. felt so emo. i went home, was so shagged. i just slept.
on monday, i met him and his pretty lil car. watched simpsons. haha. so so funnnyy! i likee. haha even though the plot kinda sucked. haha.
spiderpig, spiderpig, does whatever a spider can. spins a web, any size, catches thieves just like flies. look out! here comes the spiderpig! ok something like that. haha.
i had lunch with the girlies at pizza hut on wentzday. was feeling emo that day too! but they managed to cheeer me up. haha. crazy bunch. :) love love you guys! mwahh!

you,
doing that thing you do,
breaking my heart into a million pieces,
like you always do..
and you,
don't mean to be cruel,
you never even knew about the a heartache,
i've been going through.
well I try and try to forget you boy,
but it's just so hard to do,
every time you do that thing you do
i,
know all the games you play,
and i'm gonna find a way to let you know that,
you'll be mine someday
'cause we,
could be happy can't you see,
if you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
and keep you here with me
....
cause it hurts me so just to see you go,
around with someone new (not really?),
and if i know you you're doin' that thing,
every day just doin' that thing,
i can't take you doing that thing you do!

credits to eugeniacrazymonkey. ;)

2007-07-22T12:19:00.000+08:00

im so shagged i can just sleep for another 12 hours. damn. yesterday was, by far, the most hectic day for me in the year 2007. haha. (i think) i freakin woke up at 6 on a SATURDAY cause of the National Track and Field for the Disabled that i had to go for, since i volunteered. i just wanted to feel like an angel for a day. hee. so i went to eugenia's bustop and her dad picked me up and we went to serangoon stadium. me, yvonne, eugenia and caiying were the water girls. so called. haha. we carried like containers of ice everywhere. and finally chilled under a tent. haha. but unfortunately, some guy asked us to help with the shot put. and i stupidly volunteer to be the one who records down the distance. damn k. it was soo tiring. imagine standing continuously from nine to like 12something. i was hungry toooo!:( but anyway, i realised that people tend to perceive the mentally disabled as dumb/stupid, whatever. cause theyre really not. no one in this world is stupid. haha. yeah, theres this guy in aspn (something), he plays in the SeaGames. thats something right? heh. so we finally had our lunch and the thing ended by 1something. oh and we sorta took loads of pics toooo. hahaha. then the four of us took a train down to little india cause we wanted to do threading. and apparently, thats the best and cheapest place to go. my eyebrows now are like soo shaped. i dont like. haha. oh and we went mustafa centre for awhile to get eyeliners and chocs. yumm. i got a gold liquid eyeliner. haha. then we took a train back. but the girls went vivo while i head homeeee. i had to go for a wedding! and damn, i love weddings. so i went home, dolled myself up. and we left at about 630. my dad dropped us at the hotel. and like, i soo love the whole set up. they had an emcee from erm, Ria or Warna. whatever la. his name is abisheik or something! sucha funny guy. oh and the bestman is HOT. hahaha. i waaant. sadly, the bride is a malay. hahaha. ok la, no offence! ;p they showed a video/slideshow of the bride and groom growing up. when it was time for the cutting of the cake, the emcee wanted a volunteer to hand the knife over. so this guy, so called Bob volunteered la. he's a friend of the groom i think. and he was sooo funny! ahaha. they made it in sucha way that it was like the parade thingie. this Bob guy had to march. haha. funny la. hes sucha clownnnn. anyway i think the sweetest part was when the groom kissed his bride on the forehead. :) funny thing, i had a crush on him before. HAHA. yeah anyway we left at like 11. my dad fetched us. and when we reached home, i was dying k! soooo tired. im supposed to go study with hashir today but im just soo tired.
and eugenia, sorry i didnt reply! i know you were with him. hahahaha.
lotsa love.

you'll always be my lil sister. and guess what?

i love ya. (even though you get really mean at times)

Happy 15th Birthday! mwahhh! lovess.

2007-07-16T20:41:00.000+08:00

ok, ranting time! sheeesshhh.
am i a substitute? it's fucking annoying. and i dont even know why the hell it's affecting me this much. i mean i actually try not to care. but guess what? it's not happening! dammit. why is it so so difficult to let go? i really want to. ok maybe not. hahaha. but seriously! it all depends on her. shes the one who controls the tide for him. which i think is quite pathetic. but hey, they call it love. many many ppl have been telling me what i should really do but i just canttt. i dont wanna be too nice either! but it's him i think about. haiii. hahahhaa. i sound really pathetic and stupid right? i just pretend i can handle it myself but in actual fact, it's bottling up inside. and the feeling is so shitty. hmphhhh!
GET A GRIP SEEEENAH!
hahaha. im crazily in love!?

play time is over! :(

....so random.....

2007-07-14T11:34:00.000+08:00

i skipped squash yesterday, all thanks to toon! hahaha. ok i just didnt wanna ditch her for like millionth time! i feel bad okay. but anyway i had pw till 430. then rushed to kovan mrt and took a train to harbourfront. VIVO! haha. finally met her after soo long! (: she has fuckin red hair now! my sister's a rebel. bitchy rebel! haha. yeah so we walked around, practically window shopped. i couldnt find a freakin bag! my current sch bag is falling apart. it's suckin. but anyway we got our milk choc digestive biscuits from marks and spencer. yumm. had dinner at ljs. as usual. haha. oh and she finally replied my letter. four pages long baby! we gossiped. talked bout almost everything. laughed over everything. it was like old times. haha. i lovee. then i got my bag. the bag's fine. i mean, nothing big. haha. took the train home.
on thursday, i ditched toon cos my mummy msged me, telling me that i had to be home soon cos we were going for tahlil at my aunt's. and that my aunt(another) is leaving for Syria. so i rushed home. but guess what? we only left at 930. all thanks to daddy. yea. the whole family gathering thing was nice, i guess. i got to see the people i havent seen in awhile. i have a pretty hot nephew. haha. he is so so adorable. he likes me(: thats the best part. so we ate. i was pratically layan-ing the cutesy boy the whole time. haha. damnn, i love kids. we took a family photo. as in all of us. if only i had more family gatherings. ok well, i do. but just that my parents dont go for them. my daddy's always busy. apparently making money. but whatever. so said my goodbye to my aunt who will be in Syria for a year plus. i hate goodbyes. oh and the cutesy boy was like asking me and my sister where we were going when we were walking to the car. haha. damnn cute!
i practically slept in sch on friday. was so so tired. oh and i got my result slip. (no comments).

now everyone go, AWWWW.......

2007-07-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

TAKE THE MOVING BALLL!! hahahaha. i swear i was super duper hyper during squash just now. squash makes seeenah hyper! wheeee! i loiike. haha. all thanks to the crazy bunch. today's training started out pretty boring but after awhile things got crazyyy and fun fun! haha. im a talibanist! hahaha. okok crazy nonsense! eugenia and yvonne came to visit. again. haha. they ended ccc at like 515pm. how bloody unfair! oh and alnishyia taught me a word, PUNANI! hahahaha! ;p
i stepped on a snail today. i was like nicely walking behind mdm teo and like some guy said, snail! and the next thing i knew, creaaakkkkkkkkk. hahaha. i already stepped on it. there were mucus stuff all over and guess what? the snail has got eggs. yellow eggs. damnnn. i thought it was seriously nothing cos ive stepped on snails before. not on purpose! but anyway eugenia's reaction really got me thinking. ive been sooo mean. ive never ever spared a thought for other living things. haha. i know it sounds weird. but seriouslyyy=( hmph! felt so fucked up after the whole thing.
yea so im gon do some work now. feel sleepy though. need my coffeeeeee!

2007-07-06T19:24:00.000+08:00

im finally blogging again! i just came home. had squash just now. i left earlier cause i was supposed to go 'out' with yvonne, but guess what? the party's tmr night. and like, sandy told me it's underage. im skipping that. seriously. no more underage parties. (tho im underage, haha so contradicting) but still right. i look old enough.
squash was tiring just now. went to the court earlier. hit some balls with alicia. then waited for the rest.yvonne and eugenia came before gg for their ccc. haha. FUNNYY! ;) anyway the coach came! hes forever pissed with us. and like, he asked shuzhen to pick the better ones. i dont likeeee. hmph.
anyway! i had my malay oral on wentzday. i screwed it up like crazyy! i think i was ginxed that day. cos like, i wore college tee instead on full uniform. and i for my entry proof! thats like the most important thing, ever! damnn. but i pulled through. i was the second last person. while waiting, i was reminded of the old times. when me and toon had our o's malay oral. the waiting time was freakin funn! hahah. we made so much noise la. miss my malay classes with her!=( yea so after that i went for squash. played hardcore squash baby! i was totally in the mood. played till like 1930hrs. fun fun! i loiike. haha. by the time i came home, i was totally totally shagged.
henna's coming back tmr. hope we're doing somethingg.
and tooniebaby! sorry bout thurs. felt really bad. we'll meet soon aite? seeenah loves you manyyy! mwah.

2007-07-02T11:48:00.000+08:00

i was so damn emo last night. HAHA. i was like gon cry. the worst part was that i didnt even know why. i just felt like i was missing someone. which, i thought, was so ridiculous. haha. but i got over it after talking to BestFriend. :)
yea so i finally got my squash non marking shoes. went all the way to queensway shopping cenntre with shawty and BestFriend. haha. it's seriously fun to like go out wit em. i sweear. haha. there's like never ending laughters. i likee.
when i went home, i checked my sch shoes and i realised it's non marking! hahaha. just that it has like purple soles rather than brown. and damnn, i cant wait to play squash agaiinnn! haha. daddy restrung the racket and changed the grip for me. so sweeet. haha.
so sch officially starts tmr. i dont feel prepared. and we'll be getting back our results. which kinda suck. i think yea.
so anyway i was thinking right. have you ever had someone betray you so badly that you dont think you can ever trust him/her cos you would never know when it'll happen again? im not trying to bring up the past. i was just thinking. haaha. but seriously, i feel scared. and every moment i spend with him, i'll be waiting for the day that he'll leave, again. cos ive never been this happy. and i know that my happiness is always shortlived. haha. k whatever. hmph.

Party at DxO on 6th July. Tickets at $18. Anyone wants to come?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

2007-06-30T16:00:00.000+08:00

SUPERGIRLS!

Comic Superheros. No wearing of the underwear on the outside. hehe.

Our sexy butts!

all that ass inside those jeans!

love love love

hahaha..yeah im the ghost from your dream!

HI! meet glory, shes my boobies!

my version of the movie, Scream!

2007-06-30T13:30:00.000+08:00

FUCK!

i feel like killing someone. i need a head to chop. i wanna pull some eyeballs. i wanna tear scalps! ahhhh. what the fuck. i hate this. ive been having terrible mood swings. i feel like crying like all the time! haha. it's crazy funny. i just wanna get drunk and die or something. dammit. why do i care so much? why am i fuckin emo now? okay whatever.
so anyway ritee. i met up with my sexy girls yesterday. like finally after so goddamnlong! it felt so good. yay! haha. we met at starbucks parkway then went over to mccafe. chilled there. so much to talk about!;) kavina had to like go and the rest of us didnt have any plan. haha. so we walked her to get a cab and like, we decided to go old changi hospital! hahaha. yeah, again! i mean the first time we went, we didnt even go in! hahaha. i was fuck scared. but yea. so in the cab, we decided that we watch movie. came up with so many things to do! but finally went to kaviwavi's house. saw amannn!! he's soo cute and chubby. hhaha. and her whole family were there too. theyre so warmm and sweet. i lovee. yeah then like we camwhored. haha. sandy played with her doggies. they're cute but scary. haha. so like we left by 8. kavina and abuu walked out with us. i wanted to stop by mariam way! but they wouldnt let meee. grrr. hahaha. so like we finally got a cab. i hugged kavina. didnt wanna let go=( hmph. then we went east coast. they ate in subway. was freakin hungry k! oh and we took the viking! hahahaha. left at almost 10. was supposed to get a cab home but friday nights are a bummer! so i took like a fuckin 966. i dont wanna talk bout it:(

SANDY KAVIWAVI SEENAH GLORY

we're the angels from above! mwaahh!

2007-06-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

i had one helluva night. a night to remember. haha. i was so silly! i took a 966 from parkway to eunos(supposedly) but i thought it would be better if i dropped at ubi instead. but the thing was that 966 doesnt go to ubi! it freakin goes to bendemeer i think. or some ulu place. it was already so late and i missed my stop. the damn bus went in the highway and im like, where am i going?? i was hungry! i was tired! i was sleeeeepy. what'd ya expect? haha. so i alighted at the most ulufied place ever! was gonna cry, i swear. haha. i thought someone was gon come and rape me or something! but bestfriend and glorie came to the rescue! ahaha. so i crossed over to the other side of the ulu place. imagine jtc, factory area. ahhh! i dont even wanna think about it. it was soo traumatising. and the wait for another 966 to come was worst! sheesh:( so when i finally got the bus, which i was damnn happy about, i alighted at the next stop then cab-ed home. even though it may seem to be very light and of no big deal, it is k! so like, im damnn sleepy now. shall blog bout the rest tmr! mwaahh.
Love,
seeeeeeenaahhh!

2007-06-28T11:24:00.000+08:00

one more paper to go and im freeee! yay. and my mum wants to take me shopping today! wth. i have to study for econs. but if she insists..... haha i dont mind. ive been like dyinggg. chem sucked my ass k! who sets those kinda bullcrap paper?! i mean, seriously... bloody pissing offf. i cant wait for tmr to end. i neeed to do some serious shopping before the GSS ends.
anyway have you ever loved a someone so much when you try to move on with other ppl you feel like the other person is not as good enough as the one you loved? haha ok emo seeenah! but like, i was thinking la. and it's fuckin true right? haha. hmph. i was in the bus listening to the some emo music, thats why. and there was this cutesy boy in front of me. dammnnn cute! haha.
yeah so ive got no plans on friday. some stuff got screwed up. but i think im going out with yvonne at night. hmmm.. book me!;)

2007-06-21T22:52:00.000+08:00

The smell of your skin still lingers on me noww...
and seriously, ive been smelling him wherever i go now. it's like stuck in my nostrils. haha. but i dont mind! whee. i like his smell anyway:) my BestFriend.
yeah anyway i feel like i went around the world today. but i only went around Bedok Reservoir Road area. haha how dumb. i studied with Eugenia Tan today. haha. i dont see the point of that TAN but shes damn tanned now. like seriously, darker than me. hahaha. but it's nice. i want like those ripcurl/roxy poster girls kinda tan. very noicee. anyway yea. her so called friend who lives in my blk came to sorta like tutor her. his name is, erm. ZhiYuan. yeah. hahaha. so weird. cos ive never ever in my entire life seen him. i didnt wanna be there when he teaches her cos it'd be super weird. rather than sitting somewhere else to study, i went to meet shehnaaz, b and nafisaahh! nafisah is super adorable! ahh. she doesnt like me btw(at first!), until i bought her sweets. cute right? haha. baby icha!
so when naaz had to leave, i went back to macs to get my stuff and go homeee. i left the couple there. haha;)
hashir and his cousins and parents. whoever. left for jakarta already. i chatted with him yesterday and it was funfunn. haha. two friends doing major catching up plus a lil flirting;) haha
so exams are around the corner. it's nearing. like, damnnn. i feel like i dont wanna care about the exams but post exams partyy! cos im seriously partyingg like a cow! a brown cow perhaps.
so henna's coming back on the 7th of July. and cmmon girls, lets plan something aite. no more being such bitches. hhaha. tooonie, youre an exception dear! and my bitchlove aka "IJUSTCANTSTOPMAKINGOUTWITHHIMDAMMIT" babe too.
mwaahhhhs!

2007-06-20T19:27:00.001+08:00

WE JUST DONT CONNECT IN THAT SPECIAL WAY!:(

2007-06-20T18:29:00.000+08:00

i have no idea why im online, AGAIN. when i should be studying. like what the crap. haha. i mean, i have to freakin study or i'll flung my midyears. haha. funny thing. im still not doing anything bout it and i have exactly four solid days to mug mug mug! im meeting eugenia tmr to study. the last time we met in my house to study, we ended up talking and laughing, like we always do. i dont see any change though. same old same old seeenah! i need my motivation dammit. okay worst case scenario: i fail everything. i feel sad. i cry? i try to work hard for my promos. but the same thing happens and i get retained? no? haha yeah whatever. i'll make it through year 2, somehow.
right so i still dont know why im blogging. i went out last night. was niceeee. after three months baby! haha.
alisa asked if i wanted to go seesha with her and a bunch of other people i dont know. dont think im going cos i have to freakin studyyy. ahhhh! this is killing me. theres like so much of freakin bio to do.
oh and ladiess...tell your boyfriend he's suffering from Klinefelter syndrome! hahaha damnnnn i love disturbing shawtywan:p

2007-06-17T14:11:00.000+08:00

everyone's overseas.well, sorta. toon went KL yesterday, glory went somewhere in msia on friday and surayya's going jakarta on monday. i wanna go somewhere toooo! damnnn. i wanna go jakarta, for my cousin's wedding. pissing off la. with exams and everything. but whatever. once i get my midyears over and done with, im gon make sure i party during the weekends. anyway eugenia came over yesterday. my mum thought she was from tk. and she was like, 'how can you get so close in sucha short period?' haha which kinda made me wonder too. butttt, whatever! haha. she came here for a reason too! cause her boy lives in my blk. haha. was supposed to like study but ended up slacking so much. and i fasted yesterday. so yea. after she left, my mummy, sisters, mahmud and i went east coast to have my proper dinner, though i didnt feel like eating. i, yet again, had my coconut! hahah. yeaaa. so i was like so shagged after i came home. couldnt study. hmmph.
so on friday i went arab street with my mummy, aunt and cousins. i felt so out of place cos my cousins are all younger than me. haha. ohoh! then we went to bhg(formally known as seiyu) riteee. and we went to the kids' section and like omgg. i felt in love with this super cute dress. ahhh! hahaha. it's damnn cute k. i wanna have a baby dammit!
hmm, ive been leading sucha slacking, happygolucky life. haha. i seriously need to start studying alreadyyy!
oh yeaaa. and like i watched blood diamond, a lil bit uh. and it's fucking violent! like seriously. i almost cried. i mean like, i cant take it. sheeesh. haha.

2007-06-15T12:36:00.001+08:00

sweetsweetLOVE

keep clear of me pls!

haha k this is so whatever.

she loves to pout. and i wonder whyyy.....

gimme some of your sugar baby!

sunhats!

i love this one. hugehugeHAT!

okay so you must be wondering why Azmi is smiling like that.

THEY'RE LOOKING AT PORNO MAGS!

i wanna bite!

haha. lilian, seenah. and glory. and azmi somewhere on the right. lol.

i see sentosaaaaaa!

BOOOOO!

2dee chics.

im like the only one smiling. haha

shes bringing SEXY back!

thats the rooftop area.

reflectionss...

=)

14th June 2007

seeeeenah. toooon. glory. lilian. shermaine. emilla.

azmi. faizal. imran. ahmad. hisyam

2007-06-15T12:19:00.000+08:00

HEYho! so like i was supposed to wake up early today but i ended up waking up at 11something. im so pissed with myself. and even after my mum woke me up to tell me that my brother was in an accident. his bike and some taxi driver. okay, he didnt break a leg or anything. just some minor injuries. yea. but anyway i had a whole lot of fun yesterday, NO studying. just plain enjoyment. haha.
oh and i finally got to see tooon's room! like, yayy! haha. so we dressed up and all. shermaine was there too. and glory was like patiently waiting for us at the mrt platform. yes glory, YOU ARE PATIENT. hahaaha. kiss my ass! hehe. yea so like emilla was gon be late so we made our way to vivo. then when we changed train to the purple one, we went in the cabin and guess what? faizal, azmi and hisyam were there too. so we got off at harbourfront. waited for the rest to come. like, imran. emilla was super duper late. so glory, shermaine, imran, azmi, faizal and hisyam went to meet lilian vivo first. while me and toon waited for emilla. sheesh. haha. but we used our time wisely by camwhoring! haha. godd, im sucha camwhore. but whatever. haha. oh and ahmad actually forgot that there was even class outing! but anyway vivo is the worst place to watch movies. it was freakin crowded. so we decided to just chill. camwhored again. then we had lunch/dinner at secret recipe. where the guys had to wait for the girls to finish eating. haha. yeaah. i wanted to go sheesha so badly! haha. i was just tempted la. not my fault right. it's been long man. sheesh. yea. so like, we went out to the area where it leads you to the rooftop(tho we didnt go there) camwhored again! the guys played cards. then like glory and shermaine had to leave so we all left.
even though we didnt get to watch a movie or anyting i think, it was an awesome outing. i loved yesterday.
okay so me and toon came up with some lame stuff. here it goes(HAHA):
Glorie, dont worry cause you'll start to grow tallie. Or you'll be a froggie for the rest of your life-ii.
then.......
Before you start YITING, you have to start CHUYING. Then you have to be WEITING before you go running with HAONING.
hahahaha. i feeeel soo lame! somebody just shoot me!

2007-06-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

Everyone has a flaw. You have to take people for what they have and look for the good in them.
im home on a sunday. how pathetic is that? but thats also cos i went out the whole day yesterday. i swear i need some mentor person to motivate me to like study! dammit. ive been slacking so much, it's almost unbelievable. almost. yeah so my cousin got married yesterday. it was a simple wedding held at the arabs association. i think me and my sisters were like overdressed, as usual! haha. but it was cool. we stood out. heh. not many eye candies. only one or two. by the time we reached everyone was already there. though the bride and groom werent. they came. and when they sat at the pelamin, it was like so so sad. i was reminded of my late aunt (cos it was her son who got married; my cousin) who passed away in the car accident last year. dammn. there were like freakin tears in my eyes! like isnt it sad that your mummy cant be with you on your wedding day, when everything is supposed to be really special. it will be on that day that you look into your mum's eyes and you know that you are no more her responsibility. haha. okay im over reacting. but it's seriously sad stuff. hmphh. but then again, you cant decide fate. yeah....
so i finally met my cousins whom i lost touch with. was like a mini reunion for us, though we didnt talk much. my niece was like playing with my heels cos it has like lil bead-y stuff coming down kinda thing. haha. cutesy. so we left when the whole ceremony ended. my brother was the chauffeur for the brideandgroom. haha. yeah so then we came home, i watched some tv. then got ready for dinner with my sisters and her friends. mud and han were supposed to be there but some stuff came up so they couldnt make it. yea anyway we had dinner at roma's deli at shaw towers. was supposed to go eatz19. yeah so had vegetarian foood. was fine. and then we walked to suntec. shopped there. guess? is having like a bigbig sale! gahhh. haha. erm yea. so bought two tops. reached home at almost midnight. was soo shagged. thank god we didnt get screwed. haha.
ok so that was on sunday. today's tuesday and i just came home. went shenton way with yvonne, caiying and adeline to get people working there to do surveys for my pw. im so so tired. then we sorta gave up halfway. walked all the way to esplanade. went to the library there. i seriously didnt know there was a library in esplanade! haha. yeap so we left for marina square to have lunch/dinner.
Conference team! hahaha;)

2007-05-31T23:06:00.000+08:00

i hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green! i hope when you’re in bed with her you think of me!

haha. okay that was some random lyrics. i just came back. went out to celebrate my mummy's and sister's bday. im like so so tired but i somehow feel the need to blog. so we were supposed to go sofra at shaw tower. but the freakin nice turkish restaurant was closed. dammit k. was really looking forward to some turkish delights! haha. so we walked to bugis junction instead. went to the same old swensen's, like we always do. finally had my sticky chewy chocolate, ive been like wanting it since forever! haha. cravinggg. so yummy. so sinful! gahh. but anyway sorta had a great time with the family since we've all been so caught up with other stuff to even be bothered with everyone else. so yea. =) we call it family bonding.
today feels like a saturday. but anyway i had squash training yesterday. mahmud has yet to pass me marwan's red racket. haha. so coach wasnt too happy with us. it scary, somehow. haha. i still think there are too many girls. and it makes the court looks messy and crowded. and worst, it's so damn hard to train. so i decided to slack a lil. was gossiping with celina and harpreet. aha. but after training, we stayed back to continue playing. by that time, i was all shagged. haha. my right arm hurts so bad. my dad told me i'll have big thighs and stuff if i continued playing. in a way, he's telling me that i should stop. but like, i love squash! and i know some hot ppl who are like pros in squash, hint: they arent in my sch! haha;)
it's midnight now! which means like it's my sister's birthday! woooo. hahaha. she was like sleeping so me and my younger sister literally jumped on her and wished her. hahaha. she was obviously shocked! ahaha. damn, i forgot the water and video. grr. but anyways im gon go now. there's sch tmr! seriously feel like skipping!
ciao ppl!

Like a little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and UNO cards
I'll be your best friend
And you'll be mine, valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'cause I wanna hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself in center, clarity, peace, serenity.....

2007-05-27T13:49:00.000+08:00

hey world. i was supposed to blog on friday night but i was dead tired. then i wanted to blog yesterday but i slept! gosh. yeah so anyway i went for my cousin's engagement yesterday. he's only freakin 23! but it's nice cos his bridey is actually the gf he has been with for godknowshowmany years. so surayya was there. my cousins. my aunts. i like the way they placed everything, with the buffet and all. too bad i didnt take any pics. but funny thing, there was this guy who was taking video. and he always always takes a video of me and my sister when we past me. like follow us with the damn camera. and it got damnn funny. haha. but i think he does it with like everyone. cute la. haha.

so on friday, i had an awesomely fun time with my girls. we celebrated glory+sandy's bday. the bday blondies didnt know me and kavz were coming. so while they nicely had lunch/dinner at sakae sushi in bugis, me and kavina brought in a yummy black forest bday cake and they were like so so surprised! before that, glory sent me a msg telling me how much she wished i was there and stuff. hahaha. cutesyy! yeah so like we chilled at starbucks. camwhored!;) brought back memories of tk. talked bout our lives. it was perfect. but then, we realised something was missing! haha. so like about 7something we got out of there, went to the fountain area and took a group pic. but noo, that was not the thing that was missing. we pulled sandy and glory to the water fountain and like, the water shot up sandy's skirt and she was like soaked! hahaha. but too bad glory wasnt really wet. so like after making so much of noise there, we went topman but i literally poured a bottle of water on glory! haha. whaat? she wasnt wet yet! hoho. i so loved that day. =) so we hugged, kissed(hahaha) and parted.

glory+sandy+kaviwavi+toonie+emmz+susu!<3

2007-05-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

hello you. im feeling very emo today. and i have no idea why. maybe it's the time of the month. maybe im truly upset about certain things. only God knows. ive been trying to do my work but nothing seems to be getting in this big head of mine. haha. ive lost that momentum and i really wanna gain it back. but it's really hard esp with so many things happening. why must life be so so hard? i met my tooniebaby just now. we went to parkway. ate at bk. yeap. i ate! at a freakin fastfood restaurant. dammit. there goes my diet. i seriously need to lose some ass. it's way too big that i feel like theres a bum sticking out that is blockin everyone's way. ugh. i hate this.
my heart feels so heavy. and i swear i have no idea why. so ive been thinking, im giving up on guys. im into girls now. haha. so girls, bewaree! ok, no im not serious. so chill. but somehow, i just feel that guys are sucha waste of time but at the same time, i want them. them as in the hot ones please. but im not desperate or anything. im just confused. like how mahmud always puts it, im a confused kid. haha. i just realised that since hes going to be caged in tekong soon, i wont be able to play squash with him. then who's gon play with mee?=( i was thinking of becoming a vegetarian. haha. yeah, i know. the things i come up with! which reminds me, eugenia has a blog and she was like looking through mine to see if i blogged about her. haha. shes cutesyy(no. 2, cos im no.1!).
toon passed me the letter she wrote. haha. i just read it. and it's funny. she can seriously crack me up. haha. damnn, somehow i just miss everyone in tk. we were talking just now bout how things have changed in tk. how it used to be during our time(like it was a decade ago!). how the guys played soccer till late at the street soccer court. and the girls wandered round aimlessly in parkway. how the band practised hard when syf was coming up. how everything seemed like it was honeymoon for us. things changed. tk now seems like a mugging school. so not like what it used to be. and i feel so damn sad for it. gaahh! whatever.
cikgu taha is leaving sr for rj! yeah, whatever. im gon miss him. haha. right. but our class slacked a lot with him around. it's fun just that we dont study.much.
im just being random bout whatever im saying cos my head's a mess right now. im hopeless!
just take me away...........
:(

2007-05-19T11:51:00.000+08:00

seeeenah misses blogging!
hiiii!!! haha. okay it's been like ages since i last blogged. ive been so so tired. it's seriously not funny! i came home at 11something last night. i was supposed to stay overnight for squash camp but i didnt cos my overprotective daddy just wouldnt let me. he'll miss me if i were to be gone for one night. yeah sure. so at 530, after some arts festival performance in the hall, we gathered at the squash court. thank god alnishyia was there. if not, i would seriously have died. i got some group with some manjans so i made a swap with charmaine so that i'll be in the same group as alnishyia. oh ya! i met shaleni in toilet. haha. she was like taking off the jewelleries cos she performed. she saw the henna tattoo thingie she did for me. talked to her for awhile. so we had bonding games like wacko, amazing race. ohmygod! hahaha. amazing race was like the funniesst! hahaha! we were like so damn semangat(ok i was!) so me and alnishyia asked hai chiang to like runnnn! he did. and like the rest of us were strolling! haha. it was damn funny la.. cutesy. so we went to the gallery where i still couldnt stop laughing and totally embarrassed myself. as usual! haha. then we had games after games. we bonded quite well. funn!=) there was this station where we had to write squash is fun using our asses! and the games ic was like trying to confuse us. but i can spell! haha. then to get extra points we had to spell, serangoon junior college! by the time everytime was done, my thighs were like so sore.. we were the first to complete everyone..wheeee! haha. omg i sound so retarded. damnn. haha. yeah so we had dinner. after that we were just slacking. then had some other station games but only in the canteen. i laughed sooo much k! hahaha everything was just soo funny. the games mostly made use of the mouth, hands and stomach to the butt? haha okay something like that. i left sch at 10something. got pretty screwed by my parents. they just cant understand. but whatever. i dont give a shit. today i was supposed to go but my parents wont let me and it's actually the election for committee members. ugh. im like super pissed. oh and my dad actually wants me to stop playing squash. like wth. that would never freakin happen dammit! i love squash! too bad for him that he cant understand that. hahah. ok sorry! just venting the anger.
so like i have my gp midyears next week, thursday.
oh and next wentzday is srjcians off day! hahaha.

2007-05-11T20:37:00.000+08:00

okay seenah has finally decided to blog. seenah didnt have the mood. the attitude was just not right. and seenah has been tired okay. haha.
so like, many things happened over the last two weeks. im like dying each day. someone just shoot me please. so, jc isnt as exciting after all. the never ending assignments are killing me by the second! okay so like, last saturday i finally went to a place you cant know. haha. mrepek seenah. yeah but anyway i met my bitchh sandy. missed her a whole lot. shes cuteee la. haha. her loverboy was there too. alisa, emilla and her tp friends were there too. had an awesome great fun. finally, like after staying home for so god damn long. came home past midnight. thank god i didnt get screwed or anything. mainly because my parents were already asleep and smart seenah sneaked in. haha. then i realised since they werent awake or anything, i could have stayed longer. but noo, i didnt. so i was kinda sad over that. haha.but whatever. i had fun;) sinful sinful night.
im like suddenly sucking in squash. mahmud promised he was gonna play with me at ballota. but nooo, god knows what happened. poor mahmud is now working and claims to be always tired. like, whatever. wentzday sucked for me. i was pretty disappointed with my performance. oh and we mett with our other coach. he seems pretty nice. better than the other shawty.
heh.
but, that night i met up with my girls. finaallyyyyy!toooniebaby, sandybitch, shawtyboobs and emilla(cleavage) were there.haha omg. okay just so you know, i dont have an obsession over boobs.my only obsession is my fatass.haha we had dinner at pastamania, plaza sing. i actually took a cab from school to meet my darlings. so im like totally broke now. sad sad stuff. but mommy promised to raise my allowance. hopefully. after dinner, we chilled at starbucks. couldnt stop teasing sandy. shes a cutesy. haha. i camwhored wit toonie after god knows how long! haha i came home, was pretty shagged.
so just now, i had sports day in srjc. and i only have one comment, he can runnnnn!!!hhahahaha

2007-04-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

ok so like i abandoned gp and decided to blog. research can come later. anyway im doing this research on wee shu min. some girl who blogged bout god knows what and caused some discontentment. whatever. not like i care. so this week has been really draining. i feeel super tired. it's like being in a race. and youre like sprinting all the way but theres no finishing line. now, if that were to happen in reality i'd lose my ass. haha. but jc is making me sacrifice too many things. and that includes shopping. but at least i still get to meet my girls. which i still am happy for:) thank god we havent drifted apart that much. but henna left for aussie already. i mean like, again. and i have no idea when shes coming back:( hmph. kavina told me. so i msged henz and stuff. sad thing that we didnt even get to meet.
so like i met the girls on monday. saw shermaine! at last. after like godknows how long. i missed her! i still does actually. that lil cutesy. haha. but she left with divya after like 1sec? she had to go. yeap. hugged her=) and divya tooo! godd. those ppl! hmph. yeah so anyway glory, alisa and toon were there. we did a lil catching up. i pity toon. haha. the things she studies in poly! it's like so so hard. try taking physics+dnt+maths. all as one subj. sad man. but i know blondie's a smarty pants. haha. k that didnt really go. hhaha. ohh and i missed glory! haha. did you remember to wear a bra???? hahahaaha!=P!
okok so like. i had squash on wentzday and friday. i was soo unenergized on wentzday. but somehow, on friday i was so bersemangat to play squash. haha. was in a hyper and all excited mood. was crapping so much with alnishyia. haha. im so loving squash that i wanted to continue playing even though i was dead tired. but the stupidest teacher of all decided to lock the squash court. pathetic k. i was all enthu. grrr! so me and alnishyia left. she bought waffles. i suddenly felt so so tired. haha and guess what? the moment i went home i went straight to bed. without freakin bathing! so freakin eww right. haha. then i woke up at about 11 and took my bath. by then, i was like in a hunger madness. ok, i was hungry. i had cereal. in the middle of the night. almost 12. watched a lil of spiderman 2 and i slept like a baby.
i didnt wanna wake up today. but i did. talked to glory. shes my booby. hahaha. (dont kill me, YET!)
cute girl gave cute boy a cute shirt;)haha!

2007-04-22T00:29:00.000+08:00

so glory's back. she went malaysia for like only two days and it feels like i havent spoken to her in ages. which is partly true. cause that sombong hasnt been calling me. i called her just now and her ics leader or something was giving some sorta speech to them. haha. cute:)
but anyways i feel like this is yet again another wasted saturday. i did some work. was struggling through it. dammit k. my mumm told me that i should become a teacher. like hello? i cant teach. i dont wanna anyway. it sucks when people dont think you can achieve far and you only have yourself to believe in you. nevertheless, i should be grateful. at least i have great parents. so like, i had squash on wentzday. like, finally. after so goddamn long. we had a freakin retrials cause the number of girls in squash now is way too much. i sorta got in the second trials. but those who didnt still wanted in. so we just had training. like all of us. and the training was tough. maybe for beginners like me. and the coach was being a pain in the arse. and of course, it is manjan populated. maybe if i join ics or malay cultural society it wouldnt be. but nooo, i'd rather be with manjanfied people. haha. oh and i have alnisya who is not into manjans as well. haha. =P! no offence people. so like, squash ended so so late. oh and since there are too many girls in squash, the teacher in charge has decided to supervise us for like two weeks. the better ones will be in the school team. the rest will be in recreational team. as in you play squash for the fun of it. haha. pretty weird stuff. but ya. and im still waitin to go ballota with mud to play! ugh. i need a squash racquet tooo. since toon's in tennis, maybe she could teach me. coolness stuff. woooo! haha.
so like, yesterday i didnt have squash. went home to sleep. so i didnt meet the girls. some couldnt make it anyway. then at night, i went to surayya's house with my family for tahlil and religious class. something i'd look forward to every friday. haha. i feel a halo floating on my head already. hehhe.
i have like so many tests coming up. i dont think ive really settled down yet. i dont even know if jc is the right path for me. i dont know what im doing. i cant just go wit the flow can i?i dont feel the pressure. im not stressed. this is the exact feeling that i felt just before the o's. is history gonna repeat itself. haha. hope not. oh yea. fairus's going for a dentistry interview this friday and she was reading up stuff bout the teeth(i guess?) on the net at http://www.colgate.com pretty funny stuff. i mean like, dentistry? thats freakin eww stuff right. imagine having to dig into someone's tooth/teeth/gums to get filth out. gross man. esp people with bad breath, breath that reeks of ciggies, rotten eggs.omg. hahaha. lucksss babe! all hail to fai princess for having to wanna do something real gross.
ive gotten my group for project work: yvonne, caiying, adeline, ridzuan and me. i dont think we're that bad. we'll do good. esp when the people in my group arent those taciturn type. i'd die mann. haha. so hurrays for seeeeeenah! haha. im random. it's 1am in the morning for god's sake! you dont except me to be all sane? haha. where's my toonie when i need her? must be fast asleep. that piggo. haha;)
i cant wait for fall in love wit you. you cant wait to fall in love wit me. this just cant be summer love, you see.
he has a girlfriend dammit!

2007-04-15T13:48:00.000+08:00

im like waiting for lunch to be served. haha. im hungry:( my mummy's still cooking. some beef and tomato thingie. godknows. hehe. yeap. so yesterday was my slackiest saturday ever! haha. i just refused to do my work. i dont know. i was tired. and sleepy. and nothing was going in my head anyway. something like brain dead but no, im alive. my brain refused to function for like a few hours. no bigs. haha. yeap so at night. i went out for dinner with aunty fairuz, my mummy, sisters and mud. haha. as usual. we went to that east coast lagoon hawker centre(or something like that). glory didnt wanna believe that i was under her blk! haha okay i wasnt but i was in east coast! in marine parade! dammit. haha. i dont blame her for not believing me though. after having to lie to her for so many many times. haha but it's fun k! shes a koala. she knows nothing. cute pure innocent koala! ohh and horny too. haha. yeah so anyway! we ordered bbq honey chicken wings. yummy stuff. satay too. and nasi ayam penyet, hokien noodles, kway teow. haha yeah yeah. i had my coconut juice. as in the coconut. i so likee. haha.
on friday, i met dear toon at tampines. for the first time in the history of mankind, i was early! haha. i wasnt actually. that loonytoonie was late okay. some prob she had with time! grr. hahaha. okok so like i was waiting for her and i was like looking around, intensely for her and she appeared out of nowhere! i swear. haha. didnt recognise her man. she lost so so much weight! my skinny banana babe<3!tampines>
and they call me voluptuous! grrr.

2007-04-11T15:50:00.000+08:00

the weather is killing me!i feel like im melting. oooh. melts! haaha. omg im crapping. ive been crapping and talking lotsa rubbish these days. haha. and i have no idea why. a lil on the hyperactive side. i didnt have squash today. wait, i dont even know if i am. but harpreet is like so confident that im in. yvonne, caiying, tricia, eugenia and adilah are visiting the institute of mental health today. some ccc thing. i missed my opportunity. haha. oh wells! i need my sleep anyway. i sorta like rushed my way out of school to catch a glimpse of mr hotness. and no, im not a stalker! hahaha. so like i lost him halfway. then when i was like on the opp side, he was just climbing the bridge. and just then, my bus came! gaaaah! hahaha. i took it okay! BUT!! i got down at ubi and he was in the bus behind mine.
omg! i do sound like a stalker! haha. but it's funnn k! used to do it a lot with lilian! ahhhh. i miss her!=( in fact, i miss many many people!

2007-04-06T10:45:00.000+08:00

i have some great news!haha. im in squashh!woooo. okay, thats what i think. cos i wouldnt know if suddenly the whole cca posting thingie screws up. but i went for the squash trial last wentzday. it was some nerve wrecking stuff. i went with alicia from my class. got to know another alicia, harpreet, jannah and this other girl whose name i cant recall. so yeapp. it was my turn to play against the vice captain or something like that. he was like pissed i think. god knows why. but he was being a pain. he gave me low balls which i couldnt hit. at all. and that sucked. cos i got an A which means that im not in. if i had gotten an R, it would mean that im in. but too bad at that time i knew i wasnt. i didnt hit any balls dammit. so when i was about to leave, harpreet asked for my number for keeping in touch sake i guess. i was walking along the covered walkway when i got a call from her telling me that i could do a re-trial. so i went all the way back to the squash court, and i played against this other guy. and damn k. i could play. as in i hit some balls man. hahaha. (pretty hard)=P! and i got an RR. see the difference? haha. so i was like overjoyed. superrb man. harpreet and jannah and alicia(both!) got in tooo. pretty cool huh. so i guess im not joining ccc, but theyre gon visit the imh next wentzday. i wanna go too!=( haha i mean wouldnt it be fun if i could visit the mentally deranged patients? crazy funness! and i think most of the girls in my class are in ccc too. oh and i saw natt with her camera. snapping pics at the tracks. shes in photography society i guess. mmm yea. so yesterday i was supposed to go out with yvonne, tricia and caiying but we postponed the outing cos they were tired. so i met glory instead. divya couldnt meet cos of godknowswhat reason. erm yea? we had lunch/dinner at kfc. i had my bandito. mmmmm yum. haha. we talked. a whole lot. as usual. i was sorta like limping the whole way. my muscles are killing me!(that includes my thighs, arms and stomach) i swear. i had pe the other day and i ran two rounds around the track, did a series of sprints. then i did crunches and push ups. 30 each. the tcher was talking bout 500! i would have died man. haha. so yea. then later, i met my friend. chilled for awhile. then went home. reached home at about 9. was shagged. my dad was home. heee. thank god i didnt get screwed or anything. i couldnt be bothered to do anything productive. so i watched a lil of prison break then slept. the show is kinda sucking. i mean seriously. i know i shouldnt be saying this. but really. it's starting to get pretty boring. i prefer season one. but!! i still pretty much love scofield. ha!
i love my bestie!<3>

2007-03-30T19:23:00.000+08:00

yo chics. im like finally blogging again. and yes, ive been busy. but i also had nothing much to blog about. the mood wasnt there. but today is an exception. i just feel like blogging. haha. k enough of that unnecessary info. so anyways, i met my darling toon sis just now. it was raining cats and dogs and monkeys! my godd. i couldnt get out of school. but just when i was about to leave the front gate, the rain subsided. thank god. so then i took 25 to bedok interchange to meet her. sorry for being late for the erm 10000th time?haha. i met her in the library then we went to ljs to have lunch. toon was being a sweetie. haha. no, this time for real. she blanja-ed me. sweet right?haha. but actually she owes me lunch for god knows what reason. i still feel bad though. i'll blanja you soon k sis?hehe. we did some catch up. i told her bout that ngee ann guy in my malay class who said, " banyak minyak" in the funniest indian accent ever! okay one reason was cause he's an indian taking malay. haha. was freaking funny. i laughed till i teared k! cikgu taha even made fun after that. hahaha. so anyway we walked around the interchange and decided to go eastpoint cos i wanted to get my adidas deodorent spray and pierce my 6th hole. which i did. i was scared to death! haha. i think i almost broke toon's bones when she offered her hand. whaaat?! im scared riteeee. haha. oh yea, we bumped into divya, zhaoshan and haoning. they didnt stay long. so like, i left. took the train and i decided to get down at kembangan and walk home. just felt like taking a long walk. so why not? speaking of which, i need to lose some serious weight. i dont wanna be overweight:( but i dont wanna be skinny ass. i like big butts and i cannot liee! haha. oh oh! ian look alike is hott. hehee;) only she knows.
oh btw, sr sucks at punishing people for coming late to school. instead of giving a fair warning(which they did) for first time latecomers, they also take our ezlink card! there's no logic to that. like seriously. i mean wth? so i was late for school yesterday and i had a valid reason! grrr. oh and you can only collect your ezlink card after 6pm! so being the smart me, i ended sch at 430 so i thought of meeting toon and glory and divya and sher at east point. which i did but the thing was that i reached there only at 530 and i had to be back in school by 6 to collect my card. pathetic nonsense. so like, i took a 9 back with dearglory[thanks:)!] then cabbed to school. and that cost me over ten bucks. i feel a hole in my wallet already! ahh. so i got my ezlink card, showed shawty around sr. which made her really really really emotional. hmphh. im always there for you shorts! you know that right? yeap. so we took 854 to ubi. and then went our separate ways when she took a 55 back. i slept pretty late last night and almost died in school. dead tired. but i survived! wooooo! haha.
love, seeeeenah!

2007-03-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

i think im supposed to blog.havent blogged for like soo freakin long.ive been busy with school!haha.thats something new huh.school has been okay.better actually, as compared to like those dreadful orientation days.i had temporary timetable for the whole of last week.it sucked cos i had too many breaks and the day ended like, so late!the breaks were much longer than the lectures.ugh but anyway, i had cca recruitment day last wentzday.toon crashed.me and natt showed her our pretty boys.hahaha..i signed up for squash, touch rugby and netball..i cant decide between touch rugby and squash now..but whatever it may be, i need to lose some serious weight..yeaaps.so after awhile we left sr, went compass point to have lunch at banquet..i had cheese prata!yumm.hehee..then i took 87 with toon home cos she had tuition near my house..but we reached there like earlier than expected..so we chilled in macs..oh n i saw b at 136..i told him which school im in now and he laughed!ugghh!haha:( by 730, we parted..
it was sad to like leave..i dont know..im just missing those ppl..and to think that we arent in the same school anyway is making me feel even more sad than usual..i still remember during breaks or recess i would go over to 4f just to see glory, divya and sometimes sandhya tooo.it's just not the same anymore..and they would walk me to class and stuff like that..but now, they arent there dammit!i told toon that i would never ever ever be in the same school as her nomore..it's truee..hmphh!but i really hope theyre still there, wherever they may be..(always in my heart!) heehee.
on thursday, i left school at 230 after my econs lecture to meet glorybitch..i actually skipped malay and some pe workshop crap..they actually have talks for pe!how pathetic is that?i mean, we soo dont care..hhaha..i think almost 1/3 of the cohort left too..haha..i got screwed, well almost!the year head said something like if you dont have a good reason to why you werent present, then your term 2 conduct will be fair..so whatever..but i wanna have excellent conduct!!haha..so i met glory opp mj bustop..i have a straight bus to her school and surayya's!coolness!but anyway yvonne accompanied me till she came which was like thousand years later..never ever be punctual for glory..you'll never be appreciated man..haha..shes forever late!so like, we went tm ljs..had lunch..then took a 15 back..had sooo many catch ups to do..it felt so real again..i'll always be there for you shawtyy!but im always calling you and youre never picking up dammit!haha
yeahhh so i got my fixed timetable already, things are really gonna change..but!!! im not gonna change so dont worry girls..miss y'all loadssss!whens our next reunion?:)

2007-03-16T18:02:00.000+08:00

east coast park!

okay, glorie was hornyyy.haha.. winddd...shooooosh!

haha okay crazy moments!

candid..and see those policemen in the background?

eh?

2007-03-16T16:41:00.000+08:00

the people im missing so badly:
nur surayya binte abdul jalil:(
shehnaaz angullia
kavina kaur shahi
if your name is not here, it only means that i've just met you!ahhhh.i have no idea why im suddenly being very emotional.i must be pms-ing.but hmphhh.
i ditched my girls today.they went kayaking but i decided not to.besides the fact that my mum made me stay home cos according to her we were supposed to go out, im just plain tired.and today is the only when i dont have school.sorry girls.i needed a break from the world.
i had a bad dream last night.i cant remember what it was.but it was badd.
im being my emo self again.i need a counsellor.i dont wanna be depressed.hmphhh.

2007-03-15T21:08:00.000+08:00

through thick and thin!

surayya= blood:)

naaaazdear!

this is for you glory, since i dont have a nice pic of us!my baby koala!

yes, of course my sis too.together forever.

ayunii anis!

and the rest of demeter5!

2007-03-15T20:29:00.000+08:00

look into your heart and you'll find love, love, love , loveeee!
i had class excellence camp in sr today.turned out to be a pretty fun thing.besides the fact that there are 18 girls and only six bapoks.somehow a good thing, i guess.haha.and my class bonded well.i mean, we were already having fun before really getting to know each other.definite plus.and i'll be with them for two years.so it's either i get along with them or i'll have a terrible time in sr.almost all are taking the exact same subject combination except for three who are taking H1 geog.ew.haha.we played bonding games.had the college dance again!haha.so loving it.wooo!then we met up with our civics tutor.one word: bapokk! haha..serioussss.but cute ah.he's gonna guide us in pw too.yeap.so we ended pretty early.i was expecting us to end like around 5plus?but we were done by 1thirty.
sooo, toon msged.the first one was quite emo.was pretty shocked.haha.but!!she was like, tell me what time to meet.haha.so i met her at bedok interchange.sorry for being late sis!20 mins jerr k!haha.then we had lunch at kfc.talked a whole lot.haha.had sooo much to tell!heehe.
sis, i think it was chicken.soo sorry=(
then we decided to meet glorie under her blk and i really mean it this time.haha.so i called her and all.k so me, being my mischievious self, i decided to kacau her.so i told her i couldnt make it and that i was on the way home and stuff.which she totally fell for!haha.but me and toon were like on our way to her house.upon reaching her blk, i suddenly heard her voice.it was none other than lil miss shawty on the phone!she was on her way to alter her skirt or something.me and toon then decided to be amateur spies!haha.okay more like stalker.we were soo cartoon!i swear.hahaha.we were totally stalking her.and there was one point of time when she turned or something.toon's immediate reaction was to hide behind a tree!and i was like behind some poster thingie.haha.we still didnt confront her until she was on her way home.and i came behind her and grabbed her by the waist.i felt the ground shaking when she screeaaameed!hahahaha!!was dammnn funny how she reacted.gloryyy, glorryy...tsk tsk tsk.
so we went under her blk.and this time, for real.hahaha.chilled there.then we decided to go to the beach.i bought vanilla and dark choc mag-a-cone supremo!(or something like that) hahaha.took pics.sat on that bench and we were talking and talking and talking.okay more like gossipping.haha.it was fun, girls!we saw a giant!haha..i swear..so i wanted glory to walk next to him.cos he really was TALL!but obviously she didnt want..so i went.hahaha.my head was nowhere near his shoulders.my godddd...haha..the weird things you see.yep.
we were there till about 1830 hours.time flies when youre having fun.hehee.i swear i cant live without them.dont know where i'll be.
too much emo stuff going on.toooon dear, ring me whenever that evilemo youu turns up k?

2007-03-10T14:47:00.000+08:00

i was super high yesterday that i couldnt sleep even though i was dead tired.haha.so guess what?i had fun in sr yesterday!woooo.something new huh.so i guess im gonna stay and not complain anymore.haha.it's fun after all.the most fun part of the whole three day orientation was the station games and of course, fusion nite.haha.demeter five interacted more during the games.we played this bamboo pole game where you hafta balance it with only a finger and bring it down the stairs.pretty boring and we lost anyway.haha.then we played some straw game.it was a draw and we hadta cheer in order to win.like, which group was the loudest.i dont remember us winning that.haha.k so then we played dog n bone.but the bone was actally water bombs.there could be like one or even seven water bombs.my number got called out but there was only one water bomb.this other girl from godknowswhatgroup got it but i tried snatching it.in the end, the water bomb burst and i fell, got pretty wet.haha.what a game!but, we won for that.wooo!haha.
we had fusion nite at about 630pm.demeter's mascot was a vampire!hahah.and the guy who was our mascot is a total clown..hes funny la..heh..and the skit they made..strepsils?haha..so then we had college dance..i soo likee!it was funn..i forgot like some of the steps and my partner turned me the wrong way..hhaha..i was just laughing all the way..we had chicken dance..the principal did it tooo!and the teachers as well..cooool right?i mean, would mrs priscillia chan ever do a chicken dance?!!ahaha..cant picture it anyway..but he did it..by that time i was like already so high..haha..so they announced the 1st runner up for the best family, it was bismarrkk!and the best family goes to.....
demeter!
demeter oiii! oiiiii!
demeter oiii! oiiiiii!
demeter demeter! super highh!!!
it was unexpected..everyone just screamedddd!haha..wooooooOOOoo!and that clown took our prize..haha..there was strepsils!hahaha..then there were more cheeers!and mr philip tan officially ended the night.but we wanted a college dance encore!and we did!woooooo!~demeter 5 took pics before we left..
i hafta admit it was one of the best nights of my life..i mean, it's a once in a lifetime thing.there wont be anymore orientations right?haha..it was funnn..sad that it had to end..a big thanks to all the ogls!wooo!~
the best things in life comes in three, like friends, dreams and memories.....

2007-03-08T19:38:00.000+08:00

im tired, my eyes are half open.i have no idea why i feel the sudden fatigue.the first day in serangoon junior college pretty much sucked.i mean i cant expect much from that school.yesterday, the people there seemed lifeless, boring and even some weird ones.i swear.i wanted to cry there!i really really miss tk now.the crazy bunch of people.why cant all of us be promoted to some school called tkjc or something.okay im being ridiculous but the idea of not being in the same class, or rather, school totally sucks.the people in sr are totally different.i guess i just hafta adapt myself to the surrounding.we had talks after talks.boring stuff.and my butt ached like crap!
fortunately, day two turned out to be pretty exciting.we had college dance.which was fun, fun, fun!haha.the sad thing was that my partner is sucha bad dancer.he wont move!and i felt like as if i was dancing with a robot.haha.and the first time i held his hand(cos of the dance, obviously!), they were like trembling.hahaha.funny guy.but the dance really is fun and cute.haha.we did the chicken dance with the music and a lil more movement as compared to the chicken dance i was thought in tk.we had family time.another funn thing!haha.theres this guy in my family who got super damn high!for god knows what reason.and was like lifting the atmosphere, which certainly was pretty dead before.then everyone just got enthusiastic.and we were the most "high" family.haha.and i just realised just now that my ogls are actually jc1s.haha.really had to idea before.coolness right?haha.oh, there are only about 6 tksians in sr: natt, faizal, aslam, yangling, jonathan heng and me.i didnt expect to see yangling there, at all.seriously.haha.
theres gonna be fusion nite tmr.i soo cant wait.woo!hope it'll be fun.im sure it will, according to the ogls.haha.
Demeter!!woooooO!

2007-03-06T11:17:00.000+08:00

i started today by checking online, which school i got in.and very depressingly, im in serangoon junior college.science stream.oh godd.i cant imagine myself wearing the uniform, bein in the school.okay but good thing is that i might be able to take four subjects which is a definite plus.so it might be a good thing that i got posted to srjc.but anyways i think more than half of the tk population got into meridian junior college.i wanna go there too, but oh well!i'll survive in serangoon.even though i have no idea where the hell it is.im gonna get my daddy to send me tmr.whether he likes it or not.i was in a state of confusion, surrow, fear.mix feeling.haha.but im like whatever now.

toon's gonna be a pilot and shes gonna fly me around the world.wooo!haha.she's in aeronautical engineering in sp.im proud of my sis!=)

gloria, divya, sylvianne, shermaine, dora, zhao shan and a whole bunch of others got into meridian jc.

kavina got into anderson and sandhya got into saint andrews.

congrats all!

yeap, so i went to queensway shopping centre yesterday to get my school shoes.pretty nice.my mummy was quite reluctant to buy.when is she not?then my daddy sent us home.and i met shehnaaz at her house.there were some emotional stuff going on and we left her house at four to tampines mall cos i wanted to get a school bag.but obviously, it's pathetic.there's no nice bags.(so im gonn go bugis with shawty cos she needs to get her school stuffs too.)by the time we walked around, it was already 530 so we went parkway to meet her kcian friends.but we had lunch/dinner at kfc.i had a bandito pocket.yum.i was like eating fast food after so damn long.felt bloated after that.haha.we waited for her friends at mccafe.chilled there.her friends were, amrita, nicole and zahidah.quite a funny group of friends.happening and kecoh people la.haha.i loiike.and btw, zahidah is a butch.a good looking butch;).haha.right naaz?they were talking bout their good old times in kc and i was reminded of tk.felt kinda sad.i want a reunion!now, now, now!!haha.so we were there till about 9plus and mud and munii fetched us home.then, i talked to divya and gloria at night.after which i called naaz to get some explanations done.haha.

this morning, divya called me like five times!haha but i was asleep.so i hadta drag myself out of bed.it was 7plus in the morning k!haha..so semagat to check result and in the end i got serangoon.ahhhhhh!

i have school tmr.okay that sounds weird.for the first time in four months!?haha.

im hungry.

I can’t stand to fly

I’m not that naive

I’m just out to find

The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...

i’m more than a plane

More than some pretty face beside a train

It’s not easy to be meee....

jiwang seyyyy.

haha.ciiaao!

2007-03-03T21:18:00.000+08:00

dont mess wit us!

on the way to sentosa
skinny alisa in blue, glory(blocked), emilla with the BUM shirt and ME!looking for a nice spot..

on the way HOME!shagged..

2007-03-03T18:51:00.000+08:00

my skin has a combination of red and black..BUT! red and black= black!oh, dammit.haha.i shouldnt complain so much right?i was the one who kept sunbathing..so i went sentosa yest..almost got screwed by my mummy.sometimes i feel like, i only enjoy myself when im out with my girls..they're happening k!so kecoh.haha.i loiikkee.but i want more happening friends!wooo.haha.im gon make friends when school starts so no worries.sentosa isnt as nice anymore.they're too many tourist now.scantily clad women.even saggy ones.disgusting k!haha.and not like as is there're hot hunks.ugh.
so we walked to a less crowded side of the beach.on our way there, there was a middle aged woman, okay slightly older.almost sagging, she was suntanning and the funny thing was that she didnt put on any bikini top.okay she had it but she didnt literally put it on.and was holding on to her bikini top while sitting upright.dammmn, it was gross!ahaha.and toon actually wanted to take a pic of her..
so we played games.tanned.chilled.
haha..and glory?i told you and still am telling you now that your fat goes there!!hahaha..=P!
i felt like a kid that day, i stripped gloryy!but damn poor thing la..haha..
k so it started pouring and we, the rugged babes walked to the toilet like it's no big deal while the rest were running like a hurricane is coming!woo.haha..k so we changed and stuff..
met kavina and sandhya at vivo..chilled in ljs..dammnn ive missed her!=(
and the train ride was pretty fuunnnyyy!haha..cant wait to meet y'all again..wooottsss!
i so love my girls!why cant they be family?hmph!
FRIENDS OR FOE?

2007-03-01T13:36:00.000+08:00

i was supposed to blog yesterday but i totally forgot bout it.haha.sorry naaz!but anyway, i watched norbit last night.i think it is by far the worst movie ive ever watched.like seriously.haha.i dont know why but some of the scenes are not funny.at all.and it's disgusting.i mean, eddie murphy.haha.k whatever.but really, not a nice movie.i still wanna watch dreamgirls btw.hintsss!haaha..

im gonna go get my testimonial tmr from mrs chen.i think.after which im going sentosaaa!haha.im saying goodbye to a whole week of boredom and a day in the sun!cant wait.just hope that nothing will screw up.like on wednesday.everything didnt go the way it was supposed to.alisa still went in the end though.felt so bad.and fatin has decided to back out.but we're still gon have girls night out weekly.i dont care k!haha..we could go night safari!!hahah.

on tuesday, i sorta like ditched toon and suuu.i was supposed to accompany suu somewhere with toon but i thought since i was already gon go out on wednesday night, it's better if i be a good girl and stay home.but naaz called and we decided to meet up.we live pretty close to each other so i thought, why not?went to her house.i helped her cleaned her cupboard.okay not really.i was just looking at her clean.but it's fun k!haha..helped her choose an outfit for the 11th.speaking of which, im leaving on the 11th for sabah!woooo.cant wait cos being the very smagat me, i searched in the internet the resort we're gon stay in and it looks pretty!i hope there's bungee jumping there too.i waaaaant!

yep, so anyway..naaz was recording her band's video into a cd and i just realised that her dad has a really nice voice!haha..and she does too la..oh, and she also showed me this video of her cousin's wedding and i wanna get married!!goshh..i cant wait for the next wedding..i sorta miss the kecoh-ness of everything!ahhh.heh.i looked through her albums and she was sooo cute when she was like younger.haha.k whatever!=P we slacked in her room and then i used her comp to view the photos emilla sent me cos my comp sucks.so anyways naaz bought me icecream!irritating k.i didnt want.haha.but sweet of her and she walked me home, halfway.sometimes it's nice to live in bedok reservoir..haha..though it's mat and minah infested.yucks.

and glory, youre moving to bedok reservoir k?your marine parade reclaimed land is gonna sink!!hahaha..

2007-02-25T19:02:00.000+08:00

i havent been blogging since like forever..i dont know why i lost the mood to..my ancient computer is screwing up things for me..for example, i cant view the photos emilla sent me cause the brightness button for my monitor is fucked up and so it'll remain at zero..i seriously need to bug my dad to buy a new monitor..an lcd screen would be perfect..but i want a new phone too..haissh..life's hard.
but anyways, i went jamiyah last thurs..at last!after two weeks of break..haha..i taught this cutesy boy..hes so intelligent..okay im exaggerating but really, hes a smart boy and cute too..like hes shy and all..haha..toon got two annoying lil kids..haha..okay theyre not, just that theyre too hyperactive, i guess..hehe..
on friday, i had a girls night out with my beautiful ladiess-fatin the sexy fishy thing!i swear!haha..she wore fish nets, emilla the tumpang bag and camera girl!, sandy the bitchy sexy thang(yeaap, still ma bitch) and alisa the girl who cant decide anything and takes forever to dress up!goddd..hahaha..but woooo!it was seriously fun stuff..haha..besides having to wait for sandy for like godknowshowlong!haha..we went boat quay first then walked down to clake quay..i think half the time was spent on walking!but it was fun, with crazy people like toon and sandy..haha..we camwhored like everywhere..i liikee!we settled on shiraz..and sisha-ed there..the waiter was cutee..haha..he was soo gabra-like..cute la..haha..oh and im declaring today that sandy is a smartass bitch!haha..thank god for that id..i would have cried if not for her..so we played 'ive never....' cos we ordered a virgin mary which turned out pretty awful..it was like tomato juice, yucks..so those who has done whatever 'ive never....' sentence brought up must take a sip of it..okay so then the bill came which left us nearly broke..haha..we walked to (ehem!) and blah blah......
yeah and sooo..it was freaking fun!haha..i came home at 1130..thank god i didnt get screwed man..
then on saturday, i spent my day with my cuzzie muzzies..we went changi beach..had a picnic cum bbq there..we swam in the overly salted water..haha..it was funnn..then we played captain's ball in our soaked tops and bottoms..tiring stuff okay..so like we washed up in the toilet at safra beach resort..thank god for that..haha..i felt all clean again!yayy..oh and we went for bowling after that!hhaha..i have such crazee and mrepek cousins..woooo!haha..i got 70something points..from that 100 points i got the other time..dammit!we went for dinner at simpang bedok cos my cousin has a stall there..and i got my roti john cheese!yummmmyyy!haha..reached home at 1130, yet again..was shagged laa..haha..
sometimes i feel that shes taking over our lives for her own happiness=(
we're still friends<3

2007-02-17T14:18:00.000+08:00

where's my superman?
i cant believe my sister's leaving for malacca later..how unfair right..she's going for a holiday with erm...her friends?something i never thought my dad would approve of..but hey, it's my older sister..he's totally biase over her..grrr..
i met tooon yesterday cause i wanted to get that top ive been wanting from bugis street..heh..met her around 1 and we got my top.wheeheee!i saw like, so many tksians..okay im exaggerating but really, there were quite a bunch..i saw my junior whose skirt has been shortened..whoa..haha..i guess more people wanna show off their pretty legs?erm.yeahh.
so then we had starbucks..she had mocha frappe..and i had choc caramel frappe which was super duper fattening..what was i thinking?i had like choc and caramel syrup on top of the whipped cream..okay fine.it was yummyy!hehe..so i had to skip lunch;)
we headed to town to meet the rest of the crew..there was divya, si xuan, haoning, zhaoshan and shermaine..it's soo weird that zhao shan's always following the girls like everywhere..he's almost one of them..haha..we window shopped but the main point was to look for a bag for sher and wallet for sixuan..but obviously we sidetracked..we went borders..was looking through mags..according to shermaine, wentworth got into an accident!ahaha..whoaaho!~
but anyways, we went blush! cos i told divya bout the sale they were having..two bras for 19 bucks..woooo! haha..and zhaoshan wanted a blush! paperbag..crazee man..haha..oh, me and toon camwhored in that same toilet again!haha..and we were like totally discussing bout our "outing" next friday..anyone wants to come?nyaha.
and we're going sentosa soon!i dont care..ugh..and canoeing/kayaking toooo!what's the difference btw?hee.
i love my mummy..she told me she's gonna get me a new phone..wheehheee!so like im thinking what phone to buy..i want a flip phone..any ideas anyone??
so totally disappointed in you, asshole!!:(

2007-02-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

wooooo!haha..happy valentine's day to all my sexy, beautiful girls..i love y'all..and sadly, no one asked me out..but who cares..i went out with my one and only whore..toonie!she's damn sweet..haha..i was rotting at home, just lazing around, on the phone and i called her..but she was meeting 4e people plus divya so we could only meet around 5..i made plans with alisa too..so i dressed up..wore a pretty lil dress top..with black pants..then met toon at 530..she looked hot..haha..with her tube top..we headed to town..i hate valentine's day..there were like many many couples walking around and girls with flowers in their hands..so whatever k!haha..k fine, im jealous!i want flowers tooo..nyaha.
we were supposed to join alisa for sisha at arab street but tooon!so leceh!ahaha..she just refused..haha..but we came up with other plans..shhhh!!!we shan tell but we shall invite..
we walked around more..i got my mocha frappe..yayy..been wanting that since like forever..and i bought two pretty bras from blush!..haha..i was gonna but the one from pierre cardin but i somehow read the thingie wrong, thinking that it was two for $19.90 and buy two get one free..but actually it was one for $19.90..craphole..
i came home in sucha happy mood, i sweaar!haha..god knows why!but im full of loveee baby!woo..im gonna go toon's house tmr with the 4e gang with divya for a movie marathon!haha..im stealing her laptop toooo..shhhh........haaha..
god, im crazy!
im gonna have a chalet with my cousins sooon!yay!haha..will blog soon..toon's bugging me with youtube stuff!haha..i love her though..hehe..
thanks for today sis!mmmmuaks!

2007-02-13T16:10:00.000+08:00

i have no idea why im blogging..im in sucha cranky mood that i feel like killing everyone around me..i was on the phone with glorie till like 2 last night..i wanted to put down cos i was really tired but somehow i just didnt want to..we had such an interesting conv..bout the past and future..know something?im gonna start anew once school starts..im gonna leave behind whatever but not my girls though..i hate to be in this mood it's like as if im so emo..hahaha..
yeah so anyway i msged naaz in the morning, wanted to meet her but she was in vivo..so i decided i was gonna sulk at home..glorie was at paveena's and divs was at zhaoshan's with the 4E gang..ironically..then around 5 something i got a call from naaz and so i met her at nyonya, our usual spot..we chilled till bout 7 and we went to her house she has three cats now!haha..okay not exactly, one is a kitten..and it's soo adorable..it's orangeyy..and small..cutesy!haha..BUT!!i still dont like it..according to naaz, it likes to play with people's feet..crazy man!haha..we chilled in her room..then watched dvds..Kuntilanak..eeee!scarryy k..haha..k fine, it was scary at first..the ghost thing was like white and almost fake..haha..the sound effect was the one that creeped the shit outta me..
on the way home, i called surayya, the bday girl..haha..wished her!we're gonna meet up soon k?mmuaks!
i dont know if im really in the mood for sentosa tmr..even though i really2 want to go..i mean, we've been wanting to sunbathe..right toon?so if glorie comes too, i might join alisa and her gang..if not, im wit toon!shes my date tmr!wooooo!~haha..since nobody asked me out!it'll be like our second date..hehee..she was my date for prom too..
damn, i feel pathetic!;)
i hope my parents are really going msia this weekend cos there's some wedding in penang, of which im not interested in even though i love love weddings..and i think my sister's going malacca with her friends..and hopefully!my brother would be too busy with studying to even care..
thenn......................wooooooohoo......................
i'll survive even without your support!!

2007-02-12T14:06:00.000+08:00

disappointment after disappointment..i dont remember a time when i made my parents proud of me..and i wonder when that time will come but i know it wont come anytime soon..maybe this is not the time of my life when it's all so ever wonderful..maybe i didnt work hard..maybe theres a reason behind all these..maybe im made not to do well in life..maybe God is testing me..ive come up with so many reasons..but none seem to fit whatever im going through now..it's like i try to be happy but im reminded of it all and i'll sulk all over again..but why?i expected much more from myself..my parents didnt though..my mum thought i was gonna do worse..my dad's happy for me though, i guess..he's sweet..but hey, at least im going to some jc..and i should be happy right?anyways..im so freakin happy for gloriedearr!haha..she got freakin 9 pts(minus two, 7!)..it's so unbelievable..smartass shawty!haha..i lovveee you!oh and congrats to maria and sixuan for being the top 40!woooo!and also, divyadarl and suhailah and tooonbaby!, kavinaa shahi!, sandyyslut and others for doing well..muuuaks!so happy for you guys.
okay so friday went well..after the results..hehee..shan elaborate..but i somehow liked it=)
i sulked at home on saturday..it's crazee..cos i was suddenly reminded of 'stuff' and tears welled up in my eyes..retarded okay..not like as if i wanna cry..hmph..and sometimes i feel like i dont deserve to be happy..
i was off to jb on sunday with my mummy, granny, older sis and her other half..went tebrau city..came home before midnight..haha..
blah.

this song has been stuck in my head!:
well you done done me and you better felt it
I tried to be chill but you so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks and i'm tryin to get back before the cool done run out
i'll be givin it my bestest and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait
i'm yours....
Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free l
ook into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music of the moment maybe seen with me
Ah, la peaceful melodie
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved
So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short this is our fate,
i'm yours..!

2007-02-10T12:41:00.000+08:00

not planning to update anytime soon.but yesterday was fun=), besides the result part..and thanks girls for making me smile when i really didnt feel like..love youuu loadds!!mmmuaks!

2007-02-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

it's tomorrow.yes tomorrow..not today..not saturday..tomorrow..!!the day we've all been waiting for is here..and it's tomorrow..im gonna cryy!ahhhhh!k people, lucckksss to y'all..hopefully, we'll all do well aite..mmmmuaks!

2007-02-05T23:10:00.000+08:00

i was just on the phone with toon..theres always something crazee to talk bout when im with her and im lovin' it..haha..somehow i just didnt see myself being this close to her in sec one..haha..we have yet to decide where to go tmr..i talked to gloriee too..told her bout my granny..i think there's a distinct similarity when it comes to old people..theyre just sooo erm, naggy and sometimes even heartbreaking..i really felt like crying when i was with her just now..or maybe im just pmsing..so anyway i went parkway with my brother, mummy and granny..we had lunch at that indonesian restaurant..my brother bought levi's jeans..and i think it's friggin unfair cos i want a pair toooo!i dont even have one okay..sadly..but whatever..im gon hafta lose some ass before i buy new pants..heehe..but i love my ass though..dont get me wrong glorie:)..yeah..so i was gonna get a top from dorothy perkins..this black one..but granz was just...gaahhh!!!..haha..whateverrr..so i didnt get a top..sometimes i wish i had my mummy's credit card..yeah, i know..keep dreaming..
i read toon's blog bout her wanting to drive and coincidentally, i drove yest!haha..cos my daddy wanted to teach my older sister since shes learning now..so might as well..we went to his factory..to the rooftop..which was pretty nice..then my sister drove..she was a coowww!haha..she refused to drive any faster..i got pretty annoyed..so i asked daddy if i could drive..and i did..believe me, i was nothing like my sister..haha..i guess different people are different and they have their own flaws and strengths..so i did a U-turn, which again my sister refused to do..and i didnt brake at any point..it was madness!haha..my mum and sister who were sitted behind almost flung..hehee..but it was funn!haha..i hope hope that we get to go again this weekend..wait, that meeans, i would have already gotten back my results?
that one slip of paper can change everything..everything you might ever dream of..it's either good or bad..theres no in between..ive decided that im not gonna bring my phone on that day..i hate it when ppl keep calling..and ive gone through that in pri6..i was totally devastated over my result that each time when someone calls, i'd just go aahhhhh!and start crying..haha..to think that my dream school was cedar girls..omg..thats embarrassing..haha..but i was and still am glad that i was posted to tanjong katong secondary school.whee.haha.ive met such crazee people!yeah.so anyway..friday, the 9th (which is also ahmad's bday..haha..LUCKSS!) is gonna be one hell of a ride..ugh..pray that i'll do well:)
i talked to nowrin just now!haha..that bitccchhh..i miss herrr!!!haha..i might be meeting her on friday..i want to!i dont care..haha
i might be meeting surayya on friday too..and yes, we made peace..and read vows..haha..hoping for the best!tralalaaa......
There's a new guy in town!whooohoo!wheeeeho00!

2007-02-04T17:22:00.000+08:00

heyy.it's been some time since i last blogged.i guess ive been busy.with stuff.but anyways, i went jamiyah!to volunteer of course.and i felt good after that.i mean helping the kids.they're such adorable creature and know something?they find their own form of funn.in their own way.i guess.haha..but that boy i was tutoring was super damn playful.haha.and he told me to let him be playful and if the next time i come, he be serious.and he wanted me to come on saturday.dammit.i feel soo bad now.i was too caught up with stuff.i watched Murder.that hindi movie right.it's nice i think.the storyline at first was pretty nice.but towards the end, it's soo dumb.like seriously okay!haha..
i watched the sweetest thing later at night.omg it was hilarious!haha..there was one part where ambulans, firefighters, police, neighbours, whoever!came to this girl's house and it was cos they need to get the girl out of her bf's *weewee*..hahaha..apparently, he has a pierce down there and it somehow got stuck in her mouth..so please girlfriends, dont do blowjob if your bf has a piercing on his *weewee*..hehe..
so other than these so called exciting "events" i did nothin..
im reading this book called played.and now im like sticking with it like forever!three more chaps and im done!haha..
oh and i got my,
kabie alvida naa kehna!

2007-01-31T21:00:00.000+08:00

2007-01-30T21:18:00.000+08:00

i was thinking.and thinking.and ive come to a conclusion that i love my friends.more than anything in the world.more than my handphone.more than my computer.more than my school.more than my butt.more than my life.more than my blood.and this blood im talking bout doesnt apply to my beloved family though.so yea.i love my friends.to bit and lil teeny pieces.
and this is because, they've been there for me through thick and thin.they always bring light to my life.i mean, other than Allah and my family, who else are actually capable of that?they crack the slightest joke out of everything and make me laugh till my stomach hurt.even after a whole day out with them, when i go home and think about it all over again, i'll just smile to myself.and yes.like a complete idiot.but i'd know that it's worth it.my friends.and to think that my blood can treat me like im a piece of crap?why cant they be my blood instead?too bad i hafta face reality huh.
when everything fails on me, i know my friends wont.they're such wonderful worthy creatures brought to earth.theres nothing in this world that i would trade them for.and i would never ever choose a guy over them.like for example, if my girl likes this guy who actually likes me instead, what are the chances that i'd go out with him?
Zero.
and if you are wondering why the heck im writing all these.no, im not getting at anyone.it's just a random thought that wouldnt stop flowing.
so there.
im happy with this post.haha.
so anyways.happy seventeenth birthdayy suuu sayaanggg!i love youuu many many.may Allah bless you dear.hope you had fun today!i'll post the pics up sooon..MUACKS!

kavina-henna-gloria-divya-fatin-suhailah-alisa-nowrin-sandhya-maria-shermaine
My Sweet Loves!

2007-01-29T16:27:00.000+08:00

Happiness comes in many forms. In the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else's dreams come true:), or in a promise of hope renewed. It's okay to let yourself be happy, because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be.

i just watched one tree hill..episode 12 of season 4..yay!haha..been waiting for that one since god knows how long and i think it's freakin nice..as in this episode..theres so much lovee!haha..i love love.yeah but anyways.
yest was nicee..i went out with the family like after so long..we went vivocityy..somehow i didnt see anything nice bout that place before..but after yest, everything changed.i mean it's suchaa great hangout place.haha.we went to the rooftop, the one which is facing sentosa island.pretty pretty..we had dinner at secret recipe.was pretty funny cos i ordered chicken cordon bleu..and i wasnt really sure how it's supposed to be pronounced..so my mummy said it for me..and it turned out that i pronounced it correctly..and everyone just burst out laughing because the waiter said it for us, like repeated it, leaving him quite clueless bout the whole situation...haha..pretty cute!i had classic cheesecake which was sooo yummmy!haha..the taste is still lingering in my mouth and im fasting today!how great.hhaha..
i just found out that one of my cousins is getting married in junee..pretty soon.wheeee!i so love weddings..the whole ceremony and all..it's niceee..oh and glorie(and fatin), i have one reason why i wanna get married young okay!i wanna be free!of parenthood, of course..and my husband will be rich and hot..with a cute butt..haha..who doesnt want that right?oh and he must have a sexy voice tooo!hahaha..i should marry a sultan right?i'll live in a palace then you girls can come over!ahaha..aite.i brangan a looottt..
fatooon has decided not to go for the fall out boy concert..after getting me all excited and psyched about the whole thing..haha..ive never actually been to a rock concert..sadly..
oh and sentosa trip girls?

Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there, because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasnt. But then one day you feel something else. Something that feels wrong only because it’s so unfamiliar, and in that moment you realize you're happy...
so truee...

2007-01-25T16:23:00.000+08:00

toooon!ahaha.i have this pic tooo!my foootieee:) us chilling at the break water..

bitchh giving a helping hand!haha..whooaa..=P!

okay so i crashed sa with sandy and hennaa yesterday..we were such clowns..i swear..haha..first, we sorta like got lost but it was quite clear where the school was..and then, we went in st andrews primary school, thinking that it was the jc until we saw some kiddy's stuff..haha..and we almost got screwed by the security guard..so when we finally reached the school, we looked for the toilet and waited for kaviinnaaa.but we went down to the cafetaria..theres popular in sa!coolness..me and henz bought choc ice creamm..haha..then kavina came..like total omg k..haha..it's been freaking long since i last met her..hugged her for pretty damn longgg..i think she teared..haha..shes as gorgeous as everrr..then we went to the canteen..she was supposed to show us this hot guy..but he was no where to be found..and since henna had to leave early, we sent her to the mrt..but on the way there, the blondes got distracted with the spider web thingyy and they were like climbing it..without shortss!!haha..i tried tho..but whatever..haha..took some picss..then at the mrt, it was the last time im ever gonna see henz cos shes leaving for aussie on friday..we hugged and said our goodbyes..felt like as if we were in the airport..haha..but really sad stuff..then sandy was gonna meet her him for awhile..so me and kavina had some time to catch up on stuff in macdonalds(potong pasirr)..it was greaat..really was..i miss herr!hmphh.so sandy came back..haha..then we chilled there for awhile..then we toook the train together:)was funn~..me and sandy went all the way to marine parade to meet gloryy and kavinaa had to go home..so me, glory and sandy went to the beachh..we sat at the break water..talked..took some pics..then met deni at subway..just when we were leaving, sandyclown spilled barley all over..haha..but anyways..glory walked me and sandy to the bustop..but sandy's bus came so she ran..like serious raaannnn!hahaha..was funny..so glory waited for my 15 to come..being at that kcp bustop brought back good old memories..lots and lotsa memories..i swear..even the mp library..memories since sec 1..haha..remember glory, divya, alisa???haha..rightttt..k...so..i left in the bus..i felt soooo tired..seriously..like as if i was in school the whole day..divya called me while i was walking home..reached home only about 845..it was sucha fun and wackyyy day!haha..

2007-01-23T20:27:00.000+08:00

im like soo tired now.haha..okay, no.i didnt go school..i didnt have any strenuous exercise..but i went vivocity with my slutt..haha..yeah well..it was my first time..and i think i dont it's a big deal..as in from where i heard about vivocity..how big..how nice..but im like, whatever..it's not that nice..it's too big that people get tired walking..and the shops are like those high class boutiques..most of which, i cant afford..
ohhh!im so in love with Candy Empire..yayyy!haha..it's soo full of chocs, candiess..junkkies!i so lovee..haha..i actually bought chocs(pick n mix) worth of eight bucks..and toon kept adding and adding chocs till hers became worth twelve bucks..hahaa..
we ate at ljs..couldnt really decide where to eat at first..we wanted to go secret recipe but i was thinking, theres no occasion..haha..so yea..i wanted ben and jerry's!!uughh..haha..then i got my digestive biscuits from marks and spencer..and henna's gift..she's leaving on friday..=(
we walked around more..and more..and we end up in circles..i saw pulau sentosa!haha..it's pretty pretty..damnn, i miss sentosa..so im thinking maybe me and my girls should go there again!what say youu, girls?
so results are like nearing and nearing..part of me can wait, part of me just cant!haha..but i hope whatever it is, it'll turn out the way i want it to..
I Could Be Your Favourite Girl.Forever.Perfectly Together..<3

2007-01-21T14:52:00.000+08:00

i read divya's blog and i realised that episode 11 of one tree hill is already up in youtube!yay.so i watched..the storyline is starting to get really really stupid..i cant believe peyton's with lucas..he and brooke make such great couple..why cant peyton just be friends with lucas..they're both blondes anyway..haha..the love triangle that exists among brooke, lucas and peyton really bugged me cause it reminded me of a love triangle that i happen to know..but hey, i shall not get too carried away with it la huh..
i went out with mud, my sisters and han.like old times..but it wasnt really planned cause we didnt know where to go.like seriously and it was sorta like a last min thing.we went to the beach.haha..my sister and mud werent on speaking terms..the only time she spoke to him was when she cursed..haha..so we sat on a partially wet bench..and i suggested we play truth or dare..it turned out pretty funny..han had to do a dare where he had to ask some random manjan girl for her number..and he did!like wth..haha..but too bad..guess he lost all the charm with surayya..haha..the girl kept saying that shes not interested..i laughed till i teared..i swear..haha..cutee..my older sister got truth and since she and mud werent on speaking terms..i asked her what is it about him that she loves..and she was like his sincerity..haha..aww!swwwweeeeet..i got some random truth question which i shall not talk bout..haha..there were like more truths and dares..then my mum called so we had to leave..
i feel really really bad for not going to henna's farewell dinner..i have my reasons..but i hope i'd get to meet her some time next week before she leaves..=(
oh oh!haha..guess what?i dreamt of our dear gloryy last night..i dreamt that she called me but somehow, i didnt answer..and when i called her back..she didnt answer..was pretty weird..haha..i missss herr laa!!i want her backk like NOW!
I Feel Complete When It's Your Voice I Hear..
haha..emo shits again!

2007-01-18T22:56:00.000+08:00

the only reason why im always blogging is cause i have nothing better to do.and it's freaking killing my brain cells.what if i start school again and i cant think?my brain just wont function?then im doomed right?
it seems like everyone in school now are like really studying.it's killing me to think that im gonna be left behind.haha.but somehow, i know i wont be.oh and some people are even having tuition for every subject.like now!i mean like, you gotta be kidding me right?people are actually, really studying.freaaksss!and im slacking my ass off!
so today, i met fatin at three(ha!) at parkway.we had a swensen's job interview.i doubt im even getting that job.like seriously.cause that interviewer told fatin something like me being those kinda office girl.not suitable or something!and they prefer those who are planning to go poly.so whatever.fatin's interview was like freakin long.haha..so me and toon went to the beach.it was funnn.it was drizzling and the weather was just purrfect.we walked to the other side cos we came from the underground nearer to popular.we were sharing ghost stories.and she didnt know that my old was was haunted.haha.speaking of which, i wanna go och.like soo badly!haha..i dont mind going in the day, whatsoever.i just wanna gooo!will someone take me please?ugh.the last time i went there, which i backed out..left some bad memories..which was good in a way too!somehow i think i'd chicken out..but imagine if youre inside with wentworth.i wouldnt mind being stuck in there forever man!haha..okok..reality check pls!ha.so anyways..the beach was funnn..though i refused to play in the water..fatin was like jumping2!haha..just imagine..shes cute..haha..we camwhored..haha..which turned out pretty funny cos everytime we make a crappy pose, the camera will just die cos the batt is flat..haha..so we'd be like huhhhh......haha..so after that, we walked to the bridge which brings us to the other side, that vjc side.ohoh!soo fatin was buying a drink at a vending machine right..then i asked her to buy red bull..and then she was like, red bull not beer ah?
HAHAHA!goodness!things you get from that girl..haha..loser la...then we went bedok interchange and saw divya..talked/teased her for awhile then saw masturah and suhaili..
so im home now..and tired..like as if ive been in school all day..goddddd.....

2007-01-17T20:37:00.000+08:00

hiieeee!waasssuuuppppp!haha..i dont know why im in sucha happy happy mood..haha..i went so many places today..haha..okay not exactly..but i met my friend for lunch at ljs around two..it was fun fun..dont know whyy..guess we could connect in that way..haha..so we left..it was only 1530hrs and i had to meet alisa at 1700hrs at orchard mrt..so i decided to maximise the time i had to meet mahmud..cos i was at bedok interchange..then i hanged around at his house till four something..then he waited for my bus and i left for bedok mrt..alisa came late!haha..okay, a few minutes late..but still!!haha..we walked to Grand Hyatt..we made complete fools out of ourselves..goodness!haha..was so embarassing..then when we were there, there were about 15 people..mostly teenagers..they were there for the interview too..and the person in charge of security passes told us that the interview is not until six so me and alisa decided to go Far East..we walked around and stuff and by the time we came back, there were like twice the number of people before..ahaha..then Gary(person in charge) gave out application forms..then i asked the guy whether i could wear scarf..then he was like NO..damn you!haha..like wth?and he said that all other hotels wont allow to wear scarf..sheeeesh!i might as well go work in malaysia or something..
theres pasar malam(night market..haha) at my house..i wanna go..but most probably like very yucks..haha..it's been really really long since i last been to one..
my sister bought a Guess wallet online..it's freakin nice and cheap too..US$19.90..sucha bargain right..so freakin unfairrr!dammit!
so im going for swensen's interview tmr..hopefully, they'll give us like free ice cream or something?haha..
Im Bringing Sexy Back!
haaha..random!

2007-01-16T21:14:00.000+08:00

heyy.im in that moodless state right now but im like whatever.cos divya and i have agreed that we're not gonna care anymore.right divs?i wanna learn hip hop dancing.dont know why.just a thought.oh and tennis too.i need to burn my faaaatsss!haha.seriously.then maybe i'd have a model like figure.not skinny though.i hate skinny.i had an interesting conv with toon bout fat people VS skinny ones.and turn out, i'd rather be around fat people.cos they're obviously happy people.when theres happiness, theres food.thus, leading to the size.but fat people are beautiful.theyre beautiful on the inside and thats what counts.unless, youre shallow minded enough to think that beauty is everything.goddd..brainless people!haha.okok whatever.
so i went for like three job interviews yesterday.it wasnt bad.hopefully i get the job at central business district(wheee!).haha.sounds professional but it's some ulu place at palmer road.the guy's nice tooo.oh and maybe at the skincare lab too.me and toon have been trying soo many places okay!but it seems like nobody wants us.it's pissing me off a lot.haaha.
so the people in school are like really studying and all, or so i heard.but some, i shall not mention who..are acting like sluts..cmon man..it's only a school..youre not in a strip club..or at geylang lorong 12 to wanna show people your undies..haha..but i feel embarrassed for youmightknowwho..but as i said, im not gonna be nice anymore..sick of it..haha..
ok im off..back to gossip with dear fatin..
mmmuacks!
I DONT NEED YOU!

2007-01-13T20:15:00.000+08:00

hieeee bloggie and readers!sorry i was a lil rude earlier..im learning to overcome anger and pain..yay!but i still hate her.
ugh.whatever..so me and toon have decided that we shouldnt be nice to people anymore..they arent s0 innocent anyway...i mean, why should i continue being nice when all i get in return is rude remarks..oh and guess what?i get hurt tooo..ungrateful people!there wont be love in this world anymore!there'll be hatred, jealousy(on ya side), anger and frustration!..gosh..im so sick of this..
so me and toon went job hunting today and yesterday too!it sucked..im telling youuuu!no one wants us!haaha..we're not pathetic okay..just cos we're sixteen doesnt mean we're not smart..we're better than those aunties working out there okay!it's annoying laaa..we're trying our luck again soooon!hopefully we can make big bucks and i can have my retail theraphy which i sooo need after what happened..speaking of which, my mum's pissed that i bought a top(so 1/8 of the surrows are gone) using my own money..not like as if shes showering me with money!
dammit.

2007-01-12T21:12:00.000+08:00

so they're at it again..
wait, more like she is..
that bloody whore...

goddd..when will you learn your god damn lesson?
okay, i get it..
youre jealous of me and you want sweet revenge?
fineee, do whatever you want..
but guess what dear..
MY BITTERSWEET REVENGE is coming tooo.
yayy!
so you think youre lil miss hot stuff..
oh miss cutieeepie!
you're wrong..you are sooo wrong..
you're simply not!and theres no explanation..
whoopsie?
damnn, i wish you were never born cos there was never a time that you cared bout how i felt..everything is bout youuu..
isnt it?
open your eyes dammit!
at least think bout others before yourself..

aightt..im not a nagging-cow..
so, hope youre loving your life now..you should..cos im taking it away from youu!

Astalavista Baby

Mother Fucker!

2007-01-10T19:32:00.000+08:00

wheee!i spent my day in Tampines Junior College today!(toooon ditcheedd!!)haha..ok whatever..but it seemed real..i mean, me being in tp and all cos the people, they hardly recognise me..i met a few extksians there..i met huda, izzatul, mazziiee!, sandhya, fadlun and some others..divya and shermaine were my tp guide..they showed me other stuff too..other than the schoool, of course!haha..so the school's not entirely bad..but somehow, i just dont like the racist thing going on..like the malays hang out with those of their race..same goes to indian and chinese..i mean, tk has never been like that..not when we were around..i dont likeeee..but anyways, im not in the school so doesnt matter..
before 'sneaking' into tp, me and fatin went town..so nonsense okay!it was almost dead..cos we were there in the morning la..of course..so we ate at ljs there..then met with the rest..
me and toon are currently looking for jobss!goddd..nobody, i repeat NOBODY wants to hire us..like wthh..we're either too young, unexperienced..or working for a short period of time..ughh..
so we might be going job hunting tmr!

2007-01-07T20:06:00.000+08:00

i feeel soo erm, lethargic today..god knows why!was watching Devil Wears Prada till early morning last night..so i woke up late and the day flew up real fast..most of the time, i was in bed..haha..then read Fiqeh Wanita..a religious book translated by my aunt..im still thinking if i should go to Yaman for four years..haha..
so yeserday was fun..had breakfast with the girls in the morning in bk..toon's annoying okay!you and your toyy!haha..sheeeesh!=P..divya came late..so after that, i collected the India photos i developed..so manyyyy..yay!haha..
so we walked to school..it was super hot k!but with lunatics around, you wont feel the heat..haha..gloria and the fire hydrant thingie..
i miss tk soo much!met some teachers..mrs chee..haha..shes still as crappy and cute!and we met mrs tan, ms nani, mrs chen..omg and cikgu suriyani!!haha..i missed her!she's still very thick skinned..hehee..oh and cikgu azman too..who can forget him?haha..
it was actually pretty boring..the choir performed..and guess what?the new principal is worst than pchan okay!haha..he mumbles when he speaks..sucha boring person..oh and mr chen resigned or something!haha..hes not teaching in tk anymore..thank god im out..ahahaha..=p..
so then divya took a cab to her temple for bhajan..si xuan left with her mum and brother..toon's daddy came to bring her and shermaine to singapore poly..and our dear glory left cos her mum called..so it was me and suuuu!haha..had lunch with her in parkway..i bought a chain from perlini silver..i needed one cos i wanted to wear to a necklace with the pendant i bought from Ibrahim..my Kashmiri Love..haha..lalala~
so gloria left..im soo missing her!she better come back sooon..shes not gonna survive in India okay!and she better not marry a rich indian man there and ditch us all here in spore to be a tai tai..haha..mrs tan's dream!

2007-01-05T13:10:00.000+08:00

Lovers to Friends___
so apparently everyone else is having fun in their jc..what have i gotten myself into?dammit!im so regretting..i should have really worked..now, i dont know if i really worked hard for o's and if im gonna do well or not..hearing jc stories courtesy of divya and surayya(not much tho!) has made me erase all thoughts of wanting to go poly..i guess it's just different..the atmosphere..the people..the teachers..im praying hard that i'll do well enough to be able to get into tp or mj..
on a brighter note!i met gloriee yest..shes leaving for India on saturday..hope she'll be able to come on saturday..as in before she leaves..i developed the photos i took in india..cant wait to see them!haha..some were crappy..ohh and glorie was trying to be miss lil smart ass..she wouldnt let me do it myself..haha..we ate in banquet..i had cheese prata..been wanting that since god knows when!yummyyy.hhaha..i was supposed to walk her home..but i wanted mud to fetch me..so we waited for him behind the library..talked bout stuff..haha..it sucks when your closest friend turns out to be your greatest enemy..
so i ditched fatin and suhailah today..was supposed to go sp with them to check out the school..a sudden lost interest..but i still feel bad for ditching!=p!
goddd..my life's soo stereotypical now..haha..im doing nothing!my dad wouldnt let me work at a factory..but it's an overnight thing..i'll go there around 8pm then come back 8am..the pay is $800++ for 10 days..who can actually miss that!how pissing off!im still gonna persuade my dad..i dont care..
aiteee..im off..gotta get ready..meeting su and toon at tm!

Holiday in India

2007-01-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

okay so im like back.for good.thought i was gonna migrate to Kashmir or something.i really miss the place already.when i arrived at the airport, there was this whole group of female stewardess then this other whole group of male, wearing the same uniform came and hugged their other halfs.one was like, 'merrri jaaaaaan!'haha.it's just so nice to be in a foreign place and you get to actually see the people(eheeem!) there and how they actually live their life which is most definitely different from singapore's way of life.i almost died in Delhi though.
Delhi
The moment i went there i could actually differentiate the rich from the poor.there are people living in the streets, little children on the road with their parents elsewhere.it's so sad.i mean, they LIVE in the streets as in, hang their clothes out to dry there and stuff.let's just not go to the bathing part.and they'd beg for money.but to think bout it, if they're healthy enough, why cant they find a job to support their family?and the women should actually stop giving birth dammit!haha.and they'd beg for money with their child in hand.so that makes it more sad.but other than poverty there, everything else was nice.the shopping.you have to really bargain cos these people would mark up the prices just cos we're tourist.but my mummy, with her bargaining skills, we got less than half the price they gave.but my dad would be like really embarrassed.haha.but whatever, we're women man!i didnt really shop a lot there cos we went Agra and Jaipur plus Kashmir already.but i did some last minute shopping, bought anklets and bangles.handbags.then went to this youth hangout place on our last night.had chinese food in this really nice restaurant.posh.haha.the food was soo nice!i loiike.haha.but our flight was delayed.damn pissing off.so we were sent to this 5 star hotel named Asoka or something.it was the New Year so there were people partying and stuff.like so funn right!haha.
Agra and Jaipur
nothing much there.just that we shopped for sarees which was super ex.went sightseeing.saw the Taj Mahal which also means Crown Palace.haha.learnt some history there but i got bored halfway.wanted to really shop.saw Shah Jahan's tomb.and fatin, i got to clean the marble flooring of the Taj Mahal cos they gave us a pair of shoe cover which prevents contact of our shoes with the marble flooring so in a way, i was cleaning the floor with the shoe cover.haha.=).
i bought a stone from Jaipur.forgot what it's called though.haha.will make a ring when im old enough.yayy.went to some fort there which i thought was so not important!ugh.people lived in the streets too.they pee like everywhere!and they'd be cows, buffalos, camels, horses, dogs whatsoever.it was like a zoooo!haha.there was one time i walked behind a cow cos i was too afraid to walk past it.it took sooo long!haha.slow cowww!
Kashmir
ahhhhh!my favorite-est place.i so love!haha.the moment i reached the airport in Srinagar, there were like really good looking people everywhere!haha.they're soo fair and pink cos it was cold.they dont need blusher!haha.but the sad thing is that, they'd be armed army people like everywhere guarding the place.people dont really care actually.then on the way to Pahalgam, there was a group of people striking!cos they didnt get electricity for a week or so.so our jeep couldnt move.it was kinda scary.Pahalgam is this really really nice place.it's soo pretty.the scenery is like a picture.it was perfect.i rode on a horse there.i got a brown one.i wanted a golden haired horse.pretty pretty horse but my dad took it.so the horse took me to the village which i soo love!haha.there are like ducks,ducklings, chickens.so cute k!haha.then the women will stop washing their clothes and smile at you.and the boys will have to stop playing cricket to let us pass.haha.and there was a group of kids playing in the snow.making their own sledge.super cutee!haha.they were waving at us.back in Srinagar we stayed in the houseboat.like a house on water.we had to take a shikara there.like a boat rowed by the person and three people will be on it.there'd be mattress and pillow for comfort:).and then you have your own butler serving you in house and burning wood for you cos it's super cold.we got a boy butler.his name is Taj Mohammed.kinda cute.funny cute la.and i met this hunk.haha.sad thing we didnt exchange address.if not we could mail each other.that'd be cuteee.hehee.so anyways, we left heavy heartedly.i didnt wanna leave.reaaallyyyy.haiz!
oh well.im coming back there!but india and pakistan should really give them independence.sucha beautiful country gone to waste cos of war?thats not worth it.no brainers!
Incredible !ndia really fulfilled its meaning.haha.
so tmr's the third.some well, most of the people got into a jc.i want toooo!i mean, i wanna wear TK uniform again.meet tksians.hang out at our favourite spot and do the crazeee stuff together like before in 2006.gosshh!but i guess, ive had my share of it.now, theres a new beginning to my life, a new chapter to unfold..

2006-12-21T11:01:00.000+08:00

Tralalala~
heyyyyyy!haha.im going off tmr!like, finally lah!ive been waiting since god knows when..but its kinda scary cos it's gonna be cold..9 degress in Delhi and -4 degress in Kashmir.godd.and my dad's supposed to take me to the warehouse to get my winter coat..sheeesh.so anyways!
191206 was the bestest dayy!i looveeeee!haha.so it was fatin's bday.fine it was alright.haha.planned the whole outing with her..was fun in a way that SHE was indecisive of where to go.ahaha.so we settled on Marina Square.met her first at bedok interchange.had to look for a slipper cos mine failed on meee!then we decided to go to there first, thinking that we should reserve seats..but the swensen's there was so empty!i mean, compared to others where you have to like really queue!then the rest came; divya, suhailah, maria and sixuan.we ordered our foooods.i had some breaded chicken thingie.then we ordered topless 5!and toon's bday cake/icecream came with a candle on a banana.haha.sang her a bday song!whee.took pics and stuff.i wanted to go to the esplanade.but nooo.it rained soo heavily.almost like snowing.so we watched the Holiday.omggggg.JUDE LAW IS SOO YUMMY!haha..he really is!hot stufffff..the movie was great..went mccafe.bought mocha frappe.then took moreee pics!afterwhich, we headed home..the train ride was sooo funny!hahah.so, sixuan was supposed to take a pic for me, fatin, suhailah and divya..while we posed, looking at the camera(toon's phone) we suddenly saw this hugeeee eye!hahaha..si xuan lah!shes damn cute i swear..she thought that lens thing was the hole.haha..(eh, did we get a pic of us in the end?haha.)..after realising what was going on..we just burst out laughing like crazee monkeys!hahah.people were just staring at us..but it REALLY was funny..haha..okk..then all of us dropped at bedok..had a group hug before we parted..said our goodbyes...
damn!that was the bestest day..haha..in dec la of course..=P!i mean, being with your friends just completes everything..you become stress-free..it's like, totally being in a different world..which i lovee!but you have to choose the right people of course..yay!

Fatin-Divya-Haseenah-Maria-Suhailah-Sixuan <3>

2006-12-17T17:13:00.000+08:00

i think this is gonna be a long long post.cos i doubt that i'll be blogging after today.im gonna be busy now.haha.not with work though.but preparing the stuff for friday which i can so not wait!ok so gloria, just so you know, this is gonna be the post alright?ahaha.so you owe me $0.50.which i think we can minus off from the bet you so called won.i'll write you a cheque worth of $1.50:).haha.cheapos!whee.ok so today was my last day of work.which went really well.loaddss of people came.it was as fun though.but there was a street soccer match nearby.so there were like hunks.only some though.but it was all so racist.cos first, this indonesian troop came.haha.there was this cutee one.the rest were childish looking.haha.then after they left, a group of indian boys came.then a groups of manjaanns.haha.in between the match(i think) they came to the restaurant and there was this three malay boys.one of them was like shouting2, pointing stuff to this other malay boy buying drinks.like wth.childish idiots.
then around three, this bangla came and ordered drinks.like loads of them.he was speaking in sucha way that only a person with supersonic ears could hear.i think he had to keep on repeating but noo, i still didnt understand until this other guy came to my rescue.haha.thank god!i would have died i swear.
oh oh!that day this bapok came with erm, his/her family.they're like malay lahh.and im like thinking, wth man.haha.but i was scared.i dont know.im just scared of homosexuals.haha.childhood fear okay.like the way toooon's scared of chickens(hahaaha..im still not over it!).yepp.so bapoks and pondans scare me!they're so weird okay!
so yesterday, after work, i went with my parents to the winter clothing warehouse sale at kaki bukit.bought long johns, leather gloves and wool socks..after which, i went to look for boots.saw my sister and you know who at bedok interchange.my sister bought a new phone.so unfair.but she bought a new line too but under my name cos her current line expires only later this month but the promotion was till today only.so whatever bill will come under my name.ugh.so unfair.i want a new phone toooo.=(.then when i came home, my younger sister told me that another you know who brought her shopping and she spent over $180 bucks.which is double unfair!she bought a mng top which im soo gonna steal!haiiz.why are they the only ones getting the good stuff.i waaaant!
then today my dad came to the restaurant.then before we could leave, it started to pourr.heavy rain!and then my dad was like, i feel like playing in the rain.ahaha.cuteee.which reminds me, i used to play in the rain all the time in my old house.now everything's gone.just memories for me to cherish.
so then me and my daddy went to the warehouse sale at upper paya lebar road to check the prices there.more expensive.but i like it there!there was this coat which i loveeee.haii.
hopefully my dad will get the videocam..then im gonna be the cameragirl!yay.haha.

im feeling nostalgic.as ever.
tk is and will always be the best school ive ever attended.this is the school where friendship blossomed and i met great people.people i wont ever forget.maybe i'd even invite them to my wedding!haha.
2005 was the best year.
it was the year when i became an all new person from the oh so not very nice person i used to be, as claimed by glorie.
it was the year when new friendships were found.
it was the year when everything seemed stress-free.
it was the year when i had the best moments of my life.
but of course, 2006 is an exciting year but it was full of ups and downs.majority downs.mainly on the personal side.but i shall not cover on that.but on the brighter side, i had fun in some ways or another.the memorable ones.
14th February 2006.
it was Valentines' Day.exchanged gifts.had funn with my girls even though i didnt have a date.
18th February 2006.
Thinking Day.but no, it wasnt memorable cos of guides.haha.but cos it was kavina shahi's party at changi chalet.it was soo fun.haha.i got to know her dad then.loveee him!haha.took loads of pics.
05th March 2006.
Henna's party at coco latte.haha.it was one crazeee night i guess.i can still picture myself making the speech for henna.haha.was so embarrassing with everyone watching you!my god.haha.
13th April 2006.
Games Carnival Day!!fouree won several awards.we came in forth for netball.but we had fun playing.
28th April 2006 to 09th May 2006.
Mid Year Exams!
10th May 2006.
a day in Sentosa.sooo fuun.attempted to play volleyball.ohh.we played that strip game.cheekyy monkeeys!was sorta sunburnt.
11th May 2006.
Date.
29th May 2006.
malay o levels.nerve wrecking shittt.didnt make it through tho.haha.
09th June 2006 to 10th June 2006.
had guides handover camp.me and gloriee sneaked out to sandhya's house at 12am.hanged out with her till three.haha.the whole climbing over the gate thing was funny la!haha.we actually went to the back of the hall first, climbed over the gate that leaded us to the stairs to the back of the canteen, near the street soccer court.then after succeeding, we ran all the way along the covered walkway to the side gate.but realised that we couldnt climb over the fence cos it was just too hard.so we ran towards the technical block, went behind it and to the front gate.and guess what!suddenly, we heard a someone calling us!my goddd.thought my life was gonna be over.haha.it was RACHEL BOK.haha.thank god.so we told her our plan and to call if anything went wrong.then we climbed over the gate and we were freee.
15th July 2006.
my dad got into a car accident with a wild boar at Batu Pahat.one of my uncle and another aunt passed away.was a nightmare for all of us.we were there for our daddy.he was in such bad shape i swear.
08th August 2006.
Arts fest cum Bazaar.me and the gang had cake decoration.haha.our cake turned out nicee.whipped cream!yum.bought flowers for mrs chee.was gonna bash her up since it was her bday.too bad we didnt.sad la.wasted.
22nd September 2006.
Graduation Night.was a blast!
07th October 2006.
ahhhhh!the bestest day!haha.had a lil gathering with my loved ones.the turkish food.the turkish guy.the firecrackers.the picturetaking.the BDAY BASH!ugh.the game, dog and bone.the goodbye.
it was all perfect.
01st November 2006 to 20th November 2006.
-OLEVELS-
okay so thats it.im gonna start 2007 being a better person.i hope.since 2006 wasnt really that great, i hope that 2007 is gonna be perfect.it's gonna be the year for meee.haha.
k then.mmmmwaks!loveee y'all.

2006-12-11T17:00:00.000+08:00

More Than Anyone- Gavin Degraw
i had work today.again.in fact, i have work everyday.even on sundays.which can be quite frustrating cos i wont get to laze around the bed till late morning, which i usually do.so those of you who arent working, appreciate it!muahaha.youre just missing out on the cash which you can fork out from your parents so it doesnt matter.
i went shopping on friday.with my mumm and sisters.we went bugis.saw gloria at arab street.haha.she went to radhia's shop to meet radhia and paveena i guess.so, my mum bought materials, again.so then we headed to bugis junction.walked around.bought two tops from dorothy perkins.didnt get the jeans i wanted cos it was there!pissing off.so i bought a black pants with vertical lines from giordano.and a white belt from one of the shops.those small ones.was looking for boots.but to no avail.haha.so we walked around somemore then went macs.bought drinks.waited for my brother to come and fetch us.bugis can get pretty nasty at peak hours.there was traffic jam.goodddd.so anyway, reached home.was shaageed!
on saturday, i had work again.met my younger sister after work.went bugis again cos i wanted to get something.heh heh.so walked around.my spolit sister made me buy her some vaseline lip theraphy thingie.then we left cos i was tired.haha.im always tired.goshh.
i'll be done with work in less than two weeks.after which, im off to India!haha.im kinda worried.for some reason.haha.my mum's being paranoid.she wants us to get ready the stuff this week.we're leaving only on the 22nd.mothers!haha.ok im off!

2006-12-07T20:15:00.000+08:00

im waiting for one tree hill to load.so might as well blog.ive been busy with work.but i had off today cos the restaurant need to settle some license stuff.got my pay yest.im so not happy with my dad's partner.so freakin unfair okay.hes paying me $210 per week.ugh.i was totally arguing with him.stingy!so after work yest, i went home.changed and went tampines mall with my younger sister then met mahmud and munii there.i soo wanted to buy this pair of jeans from bum equipment.i likkeeeed it.but it looked abit tapered which i thought was finee.but it wasnt approved by my sisters.haha.fine.fine.so i was supposed to check out dorothy perkins today but i felt so friendless.haha.so my mum asked me to accompany her to arab street.she bought materials to make her pant suit for india.it's gonna be freakin cold.shit la.but it'll be nice.im buying sari for fatin!haha.i'll blog about The Life before i leave cos i'd only be back on the 1st of january.so if i do blog, glorie owes me $2.nyahaha.im gonna make an atm card pretty soon.yaynessss!haha.

2006-11-30T20:03:00.000+08:00

im shagged.my first day of work wasnt that bad.had a few funny moments even though i dont really know the people there.theyre kinda friendly actually, considering the fact that im a LIL bit anti social.haha.so working as a cashier a restaurant can be quite stressful.esp when a lot of people come and start giving you cash and expect fast change.cmon man, my brain cant function when im stressed!pissing off.so my shift starts at 7am, which means, from now on i have ta wake up super early.i'd be deprieved of sleeeeeppp.i mean, it's the holidays right?sad life.but if the pay's good then to hell!i just wanna shop.and glorie, im still not gonna treat youuu.haha.
i came home just now and i felt soo alone.my sisters and mum werent home.so alienfied.so boring!i missed them.haaha.rite okay.so i guess my life is gonna be boring since im working now.goshh.whatever.

2006-11-26T14:55:00.000+08:00

for the last couple of days..ive been so screwed up and lost..but im finding my way now..things are a lot better now and im glad..
yesterday was the bestest day.i guess.i woke up pretty late..watched one tree hill..slacked a lil bit..then it was time for my dad to leave..hes going penang for some business issue i think..so i salamed him then kissed him..felt good since ive been wanting to feel that closeness for quite some time..saw him smiling..felt double good..haha..i guess its only now that things are going the way i want it to and us realising our past mistakes and in a way, becoming better children..im trying:)..so then had to go for my cousin's engagement..only me and my younger sister went..by the time we reached there we were already leaving for the girl's house for the whole ceremony..the girl's prettyy..shes a model..hashir was there..saw him after like so freaking longggg..whee!haha..haneef was there too..but whatever..left after eating and all..
so came home around 7..had to change quickly..pray cos i needed to go to my uncle's place for tahlil(prayers) by 8..i have a really really cute niece..shes freakin cuteeee..haha..so then around 11..we left for mustafa centre with aunty fairuz which was superrr funn..cos shes nuts!haha..my sisters mum were there..went there to get the groceries for today's tahlil..at my uncles house again..we left mustafa centre only about two plus..then went for supper at simpang bedok..with my aunt around, it was havocc!fun stuff..i swear..i laughed till i teared..haaha..sent her home..then we reached home only about three plus..was sooo shagged!woke up late today..as usual..just watched one tree hill season 3 episode 10..ughhh..

2006-11-24T17:17:00.000+08:00

soooo, my life is sorta like a mess right now.but i know things are gonna be over pretty soon.so i havent blogged bout the after o's period.on monday, went to watch the covenant with kavina sandy and other few people.halfway watching it(the guys were freakin hot btw) my sister msged telling me that my uncle, the one with cancer, yea he passed away..i was like shocked..haiz..so i had to leave..took a cab home..changed and everything..then waited for my dad to come home so i could go with him..while waiting..my mum called(she was in the hosp)..then she told me to wear jubah and stuff ah..then she was like your uncle passed away already..and she just started crying..freakin sad k..i cant bear seeing my mum like that..so i went to his house..there were lotsa people..managed to squeeze my way through where my mum was..my uncle looked pale..then the normal thing began..is it called a ritual?haha..i dont know..then my mum cried..hugged her..i didnt like the vibe..ok duhh..i was at a funeral..but anyways..there were prayers and stuff..some miracle happened..all i can say is that my uncle is a really good man..may he rest in peace..insyaallah.
soo..on tuesday..i was feeling bad and all..my mum went for the tahlil..but she gave us a choice whether to go or not..ok i felt bad for not going..so i went for my class chalet..was pretty weird..but fun in a way i guess..mrs chee was there..ahaha..she actually played games with us..then me and kavina left quite early..took a cab with her..sent her home..and i reached home around 1030..cant rmb whatever that happened then..
let's just not talk about wednesday.other than me going for the guides farewell night..came late!as usual..we're always late for like everything..even promm..okay fashionably late aitee..haha..sandhya came along..was with gloriee..
after wednesday has been a nightmare for me..for one thing..im grounded..bad start..yea..im currently having my one tree hill marathon..good thing that im grounded..haha..

2006-11-18T14:34:00.000+08:00

i need something else to do other than studying.seriously.i cant study anymore!it's soo pissing off cos i'll end up walking towards the bed..aha..i dont know why but today is sucha draggy, hot, longggg, boring day..i feel like sleeping noww..

i went to the salon yest..was there for like five hours..only cos there were lotsa other customers..should have come in the morning..at one point, i was super pissed..just wanted to leave..ohoh!i was supposed to meet fatin and emilla in the morning..but was tooo lazy to wake up..it was sucha cold morning..haha..nicee..after that freaking five hours..i went parkway..looked for shoeesss..but noo..parkway just doesnt have nice shoes..btw..it's damn pissing off that isetan only sells pretty prom dresses like now!why not in sept???haha..pathetic tk..i want another prom..=(..so i went home around 630..was soo tired..had coffee..talked to gloriie..omgg!she's paranoid okay!haha..cant stop asking me questions..i called her again cos i was feeling sad..had conf with divya..the reason why i was sad was cos i was clearing my books!throwing away all the notes and whatever..it's freaking saadd..ughh..

yest night was weird..it really was..i didnt know he was that serious..haha..but he's cuteee..yummy..i think i sorta like him.ahaha!
so today, i woke upp..my hair was in place..hhaha..i likee..ohh..i woke up at 245am..dont know why..just stood up..and pulled that drawer bed thingie and slept there..i freaked out when i realised that it's usually at 3am that spirits or whatever are most active..okay!i dont actually believe in such things..but it usually happens in moovies okay!haha..

who would have thought that you could hurt me the way you've done it so deliberate so determined

Baby

I'm starting to believe it should be illegal to deceive a woman's heart

I tried so hard to be attentive

To all you wanted always supportive always patient

What did I do wrong?

Anyhow, Anyhow I wish you both all of best I hope you get along

Come enjoy the life

take ya time

I just wanna find you

you and I can have a good time

Now listen. I've been single for awhile now. And I been kinda lonely I've been looking for somebody to talk to, love me, someone who can hold me Is that you?

I'm looking for somebody I can call boo,

Looking for the only one who I can give my all to

Tell me if it's you you you

What you gonna do do do...

Make ya mooveeee

Move so rite , how it feels so rite

You can be my prince, my knight

You can be my superman save me here I am

Cuz baby, theres nothing I wont do, to spend my life with you

I'll give my love to you, I promise, that I will never lie to you boy

This love we have is true just to spend my life with you

I'll give my heart to you, I promise, that I will never lie to you boy

You and me together, picture perfect

I'll spend all my money all the time becuz your worth it

It's just me and you you you

What you gonna do do do

Make a movee

I mean everything that I say

From the bottom of my heart I will never, never, ever, hurt you

I'll open my heart

I'll open my heart and give it to you

Tell the whole world that I'm in love with you

Whatever you want, baby I'll do I know I dont want nobody else

but youuuuu...

Baby boy you got me,

I been waiting waiting waiting for you

You can be my homie, i'll be waiting waiting waiting for you

Baby come and hold me, I'll be waiting waiting waiting for you

You can be my one and only

-ciara: promise

2006-11-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

i can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

that don’t bother me

i can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

im not afraid to cry every once in a while

even though going on with you gone still upsets me

there are days every now and again i pretend im ok

but that’s not what gets me

what hurts the most

was being so close

and having so much to say

and watching you walk away

and never knowing

what could have been

and not seeing that loving you

is what i was tryin’ to do

it’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go

but i’m doin’ it

it’s hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and im alone

getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret

but i know if i could do it over

i would trade give away all the words that i saved in my heart

that i left unspoken

what hurts the most

is being so close

and having so much to say

and watching you walk away

and never knowing

what could have been

and not seeing that loving you

is what i was trying to do..

2006-11-16T20:59:00.000+08:00

yo chiccss.
it's been really long since i last updated on proper stuff.i was looking at my wish list and i realised something.i still have yet to get my ralphLauren perfume.even though i've been wanting it since forever.i still want it!okayyy that did really make sense but whatever.just that that perfume has some memories.funtimes.but anywaysss.im almost done with olevels.it's seems so fast.some papers sucked.i shall not blog bout them.wasting my time.anyway i went out today.after chem.i felt like as if my brain was squueeeezeedd sooo hard.esp after the amaths paper.god.but im glad it's over.two years of work.if i dont do well there must be really something wrong with my brain cells.i swear.but anyway.went window shopping with toon and haoler.haha.was soo crappy!they're such retards.but cute retards.i loiike.i walked with mean people to the bustop.haha.but i dont mind.they can join the MEAN club.right toon?sometimes i feel weird being around them.cos they're soo full of crapness.in a fun way i guess.there's gonna be a 4eee class chalet soon.im going.well, i need a place to stay for my you-might-not-know-what.but im still thinking.it'll be freaking weird if my toon isnt there.cos apparently, she's not staying over.coss riteeee..she cant stay over.shes gon stay over the night before cos why?she's invited to some party i wasnt invited to.grrr.haha.=p!if you dont understand, dont try.
soo, i checked out some salons.and according to toon, i chose a cheapo salon!hey.its cheap.thats what i need now..cos sadly im broke.i could actually use the money to buy new shoes!haii.so we walked around.looked for matching outfits for toon(cos she needs funky clothes for THAT party!).it was getting late.dragged ourselves to the bustop.and guess who i saw?haha.glorie's mummy and her lil sis.her mum doesnt like me now.see lah.she told her sister something like,"how come shes still out so late." cmon auntyy.chill man.haha.got the bus.yuck.soo crowded.talked to glorie on the way home.i think i pissed her off.haha.lovin it.she's cute la.
i've got ten minutes before my prison break starts.damn i didnt watch last week's episode.pissing off.scofield's hottt.doryy told me he's freakin 35 okay!so old yet so hot.and he's not married.why cant spore have such hotties?dammnnn....
i'd be so fully booked next week.im booking myself.ok whatever that means!theres gonna be guides farewell dinner.im gonna get prezzieeee.yay!haha.i loiike.they better give me nice stuff.haha.and im gonna totally partyyyy!who's with me?haha.
you're aaallllll invited to party with me!mwaaahhhhhhhhh.

2006-11-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

Remember tonight for it is the beginning for always. A promise like a reward for persisting through life so long alone. A belief in each other and the possibility of love. A decision to ignore or simply rise above the pain of the past. A covenant which at once combines two souls yet severs prior ties. A celebration of the chance taken and the challenge that lies ahead. For two will always be stronger than one, like a team braced against the tempest of the world. And love will always be the guiding force in our lives. For tonight is a mere formality, only an announcement to the world of feelings long held, promises made long ago in the sacred space of our hearts.

2006-11-01T15:05:00.000+08:00

It hurts to have the one you love, leave you.

2006-10-20T21:28:00.000+08:00

it sucks that today was officially the last day of secondary four.which also mean the last day of our secondary school life.well, sorta.it's sad.im sure everyone else felt that way.i already felt really sad last night.i mean, i cant bear to part with those ppl who left a great impact in my life.they're such loving and most caring people i've ever known.and to think bout it, it is during these four years that i really knew the meaning of true friendship and that i went through thick and thin with them.tears were shed.there were laughters.and everything, everything has ended.from boring physics lesson to the most exciting chem practicals.goshh.just thinking bout it is gonna make me cryy.it's not only sec 4.there were some funn moments in sec 2 tooo.i think the feeling is the same when i had to leave 2dee.the crazee-ist class ever.but to me, sec 4 means that you're leaving everyone.not only those in your class.and that farking sad.

english lesson was pretty emotional when mrs koh made her farewell speech.i mean, you'll never ever meet teachers like these again.they're soo dedicated.they put in their 110%.esp mrs chee.she made chemistry funn.and she never fails to be there for you in times of need.haiizz!
ok so, physics was pretty slack cos mrs quek left halfway and the whole class was basically taking pics and chilling.i didnt go for malay.was in the library.writing farewell msgs.ohh, divya gave me a cardd for my bdaY.and guess what!she made this whole page thingiee full of PAUL TWOHILL.im so in love with it.heehee.cuteeee.i loiike!ok ya so anyway.we had to go to the audi.had some talk.then went back to class.saddest moment everr.got our report books.before i left, i hugged fatin.damn, she made me cry.i didnt want to let go.it's pretty sad.i mean really.i hugged shermaine.she's so cute la.she was crying too.then i hugged divya.cant imagine where we'd be next year.and kavinaa.she cried and cried.goosh.so emotional.but it really was sad.jitrui was walking around distributing tissues.haha.
but i guess, good things come to an end.and this is the end of secondary school.but that doesnt mean we'll lose touch right?never ever ever.but the good and the bad times will be missed.hmphh.okay to those people(you know who you are) we'll partay after o's.never lose touch cos if you do, i'll haunt you in my sleep or smthg.ok random.you've made a great impact in my life and i dont wanna ever lose y'all.precious love.mwahh.mwaahhh!

Friends Forever.

2006-10-19T16:03:00.000+08:00

Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face

You told me how proud you were, but I walked away

If only I knew what I know today

Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms

I would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done

Forgive all your mistakes

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To hear your voice again

Sometimes I wanna call you

But I know you won't be there

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit

Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss

And it's so hard to say goodbye

When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?

Would you help me understand?

Are you looking down upon me?

Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To have just one more chance

To look into your eyes

And see you looking back

Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day

I would tell you how much that I've missed you

Since you've been away

Ooh, it's dangerous

It's so out of line

To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you

For everything I just couldn't do

And I've hurt myself by hurting you.....

2006-10-17T16:52:00.000+08:00

im bored.sometimes too much of studying can kill you.but i havent really3 been studying.just here and there.today's tuesday.it doesnt feel like, really.i dont know mann.it kinda suck that time is flying soo fast.before we know it, o's will be over.i dont want to to actually.in fact, i dont even want it to start.i need like, a month or two more before i can actually sit down in the examination hall and do the papers.gosh.im bullshitting too much.sorry.must be the haze.and im sick cos of that!how pissing off.my throat hurts!my tongue hurts!(dont ask!)haha..so yeah..im hungrryyy.one more week till hari raya..goshh..im waiting man..i cant study with the haze..with 12hrs without fooood..now i know and understand how ppl in africa or wherever third world country are like feeling and all..
i went for the mj open house last friday..i didnt see much hot guys..until divya pointed out like one or two..haha..but still..the guys there are shortt..un-funn..ok whatever..that is not why i went for the open house okay..i wanted to see the school..(riteeee..) saw a few tksians..tkgians..and a whole lot from other schools..it's making me think that mj is like another tk..in a way, i want it to be that way but then again..it's soo manjan-fied..haha..and to think bout it, i dont even know i can get like below 15 pts..
will blog some other time..probably after o's..or in the middle when im truly truly stressed..till then..

Good Luck for the O's people!
Loves!

2006-10-09T14:08:00.000+08:00

soo..i just turned 16..feels great..haha..though not much of a difference..hehe..but anyways..
friday was the best day of my life..okay not exactly but i think it's the bestest bday..i woke up around nine..didnt want to go sch..haha..then i met fatin, emilla and shermaine at marine parade lib around 12 smthg..she actually had to go home..but thanks to me..i forced her to come..so all three came..but anyways we did out work till around three smthg and emilla realised that she had to buy some milk for her kitty..haha..okkk..so erm..we went parkway.that was when i decided to have a haircut..so then the rest went to mph while i went to the Xtreme salon to trim my hair and then straightened it..turned out niceee..my girls patiently waited..haha.cmon, it's the bdaY girl man..haha..then it was getting late..was already around 5 smthg..so they went to meet suhailah and i went to alisa's house to get dressed there..she took damnn long okay!and i realised my slippers were at glorie's house..so i had to walk bare footed to the bridge..grrr...i was all dressed and BARE FOOTED..so unglam..haha..met gloria there and we raced to meet those who were waiting for mee at the turkish restaurant..fatin, emilla, suhailah, ahmad, imran, henry and arron were there..was kinda surprised that the guys actually turned up..then erm, we had to rearrange the tables so that all of us could sit together..had dinner..toook pics and stuff..was nicee..then sandhya and henna camee..took more pics..then we were off to the beach..wheee..oh oh..while walking there..we passed the turkish restaurant..so the girls dared me..or some sort to wave at the turkish dude in that restaurant..hahaha..i gave that cheeky smile and waveedd!haha..was so embarrassing!!i couldnt look at him..gosshh..according to them, he was blushinggg..ehehehee..i made a guy blush..thats one accomplishment..haha..so we went to the beach and the guys were somewhere..henna and i decided to get fire crackers!haha..was fuuunn!my sisters and mahmud came..they gave me myy prezzie..hugged..haha..then the guys came back and my sisters and mud went to eat..we played with the fire crackers thingiie..it was quite a success cos we couldnt light the freaking thing at first..thenn..those evil blondiess decided to give me my bday bash which was sooo not needed okay!haha..i started running when they were about to pour water on me..like hello?MY HAIR!hahaha..so i ran..and made a turn at the turkish restaurant..saw the guy again..was totaallyyy embarrassed!haha..but anyways then fatin called..she told me they werent gonna mess with me..LIAR!!i went there..and guess what?they were actually holding me and i was struggling..i felt so helpless okay..then ahmad(grrrrrrr!!) poured a cup filled with water on me..i was soaking wet..but nooooo..that wasnt it..gloria came with a cup filled with salt water and sand and all those disgusting shit..she splashed it on me..is this your revenge for the 24th may 2004 gloriieeee??????haha..then faizal came with coke..that was the worst okay..haha..ermm..then after awhile some had to leave..ppl like..suhailah, chayana, fatin and emilla..yep..so it was left with me, gloria, henna, ahmad, imran faizal..sandhya and alisa went somewhere..so then..ahmad, faizal, gloria and imran were sitting down under some tree..and the guys were playing some lame game..ahmad taught me how to play so i decided to join..haha..it was funn..ok not exactly but ya..haha..then..henna had to leave..i sent her in the bicycle..i almost hit a baby in a stroller..haha..then i went back there..and all of us decided to play dognbone at the beachh..the remaining ppl were me, glorie, sandhya, alisa, imran, ahmad and faezal..alisa was the so called judge..at first it was guys against girls but they were soo pathetic..i decided to join them and faezal joined my group..omggg..hahahaha..funny stuff happened..it was embarrassing though!gosshh..i shan elaborate..hahhahaa..so anyways we had to leave..mahmud fetched me..i went home, shagged..but it was worth it..freakinng fun ness!we'll do it more often..let's all go sentosa after o's..hows that sound??
okay anywayy..i'd like to thank....(in random order)
1. gloriiee-my chembabyyy!bond-er!love yaa loaaddssss.thanks for making this happen..
2. fatin- my half evil sistorr..thanks for being there and making it all fun and crappy..dont know where i'd be without you meanoo!
3. henna- for being there..and entertaining my crapness..we bitch together aiteee..muuacks!
4. sandhya- i dont know why but she's my bitttchh.haha..the blondeee..one and only person who is lingerie obsessed!
5. alisa- myy crashh partner..haha..thanks for the housee..if u know what i mean..lovee yaa..
6. emilla- thanks for making the guys coorperate..you're one hell of a partyy person actually..ohh and guess what?she knowss a loottt of stuff......heh heh..
7. suhailah- my malay buddy..she's the one i crap with..damn, i love to crap..okay whatever..
8. imran- for actually inviting the guys..didnt know you would actually..haha..
9. ahmad- sorry for the fall..sorry for the toe..is it broken?nyahahaha..thanks for cominggg!
so there!my sweet sixteen just passed..will be waiting for those who are still fifteen..your bdaY bash is coming aiteeee..so likeee..yaaa..
i realised i dont need people who doesnt actually appreciate my presence..they're such nuisance..on my Bday i realised how great my friends are..they're my world..muuaaackks!

those who werent invited or couldnt come..im sorry..but you guys didnt miss much...ya right!!

2006-10-02T20:38:00.000+08:00

my uncle was featured in the sunday times.he's the terminal cancer patient.sad stuff.but i've been accompanying my mum with him to the cancer centre.i thought he was finee.he sounds fine.he acknowledges my presence.=).when you're around him, you can feel his sincerity.you know how much he loves and appreciates the people around you.for him, it's like as if his life is hanging on a thread.once it snaps, it's gone.but insyallah, he'll recover.he has the determination.i could see when i saw him the other day.i hope that whoever who's reading this, pray for his recovery.thank you.
this is where they would show his video every fortnight to keep track of how he feels at this very last stage.
http://lifebeforedeath.org.sg/

2006-09-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

i dont know what's up with my parents.they arent happy that me and my tutor are forever laughing and stuff.cmonn, she's lame funny.what am i supposed to do?!and she's so wack.haha.she'll start singing and stuff.kinda remind me of fatoon.hehee.but she cant beat fatoon.she's blonde.yep.so anyway, had tuition today.im so proud of myself.i actually helped out in the kitchen before break-fast.yayy.haha.i made tehh.ok like which girl would?!i mean...gosh im so proud of me.wheeee.
got back all my results.no first three months for me.damn.but i didnt actually wanna go but after ppl said stuff like, "you'll get to experience....yadda3" im not quite sure myself.but i most definitely would not wanna go serangoon jc.i'd rather work.earn money.shop.thats my motive.haha.
i missed the twodee outing.will make it up after o's.im thinking of sentosa.any ideas?and gloria, if you're reading this, im gonna prove to u that i can actually plan okayyy.haha.it's just that sometimes things doesnt work out.
moving towards to positive side of life.lovin it.

2006-09-27T18:39:00.000+08:00

hey yaaaa.im bored.i dont know why but i cant study before breaking fast.as in before everyone break fast.it's just weird.i think.so today i got back a few of the papers.soo disappointing.i would, most definitely not be able to get in the first three months.sucky feeling.what am i doing to my future?haha.screwed up.these past few days has been so unpredictable.one min, im like totally happy and the next, im like so *ucked up.i hate it when people invade my privacy.pissing off.im so random.haha.i wanna blog.yet, i have no idea what to blog.i suck la.haha.
ohhh.i developed grad nite photos already.yayy.but im kinda sad.i didnt take with like a lot of ppl.pissing off!and i left early.ok whatever.im not gonna dwell on this.
OK RANDOM STUFF!
1. Does anyone know your password to your email?
- i dont think so.it's private!
2. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonalds?
- yucck!i hate mcdonalds.ha.
3. Are you an emotional person?
- yeeaahh...
4. Do you like your name?
- durrhh rite?haseenah has nice meanings.i loiike!
5. Do you believe in love at first sight?
- yepp..but hey, beauty is only skin deep.
6. Ever felt jealous of your friend?
- uh, no.not really.unless she's dating christiano ronaldo or paultwohill.hee.
7. What was the last thing you did?
- i was on the phone with youdontknowwho.
8. Who is right next to you?
-nobody.i'd rather be with myself.QT.aha.
9. Who was the last person you ate with?
- my mum, sisters and bro.
10. What song are you listening to right now?
- teddy geiger's for you i will.
11. How's the weather right now?
- chiLL.
12. Last person who called you today?
- my sister's bf.
14. Last song you sang?
- haha.ermm.cant rmbb.oh oh.erm dangerously in love by beyonce.i loveeee.
15. Last time you danced?
- i cant rmb.i dont dance alone.
16. Lost a friendship over something stupid?
- dont remind me.but things are cool now:) im glad.
18. Last thing you ate?
- some biscuit.
19. Been really depressed before?
- who hasnt?but i can manage stress better now.
20. Faked being sick to miss school?
- many many times.but i regretted.tsk.
21. What time did you wake up today?
- six something.apparently i dont have to wake up for sahur.hee.
22. Current taste?
- CHOCOLATE.
23. Who is the person that posted this survey?
- how would i know?
24. What are you wearing right now?
- nighty.
25. Are you too shy to ask anyone out?
- not girls of course.and guy friends, nahh.they're friends!cmonn..
26. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
- his body and overall appearance, of course.
27.Where are you right now?
- my brother's room.
28. What date and day is it?
- 27th September 2006, Wednesday.
29. Did you go anywhere today?
- HELL.i went to sch.gaaahh.
30. What did you do there?
- got back results.sad thang.
31. How old are you?
- i'll be sixteen next week.so shhhuushh.
33. Are you mature or immature?
- i like to be childish.but there are times when you have to be matured.
34. Do you call your parents by their first name?
- i would have been dead.it's rude okay.
35. Are you an only child?
- no way.i like a big family.
36. Where do you go shopping?
- anywhere as long as i have cash.loads of em.
37. Do you like where you work?
- im not working.
38. Do you like books?
- some books.i prefer mags though.
39. Do you want to get married?
- yeeaaahh.of course.
40. To whom?
- mr Right has yet to come..

2006-09-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

i thought you were my fairytale...a dream when i'm not sleeping..
hey y'all.prom's over!damn.i want it back.i really do.i wanna have it all over again.i lacked experience.screw up some stuff.wanted to go clubbing!agghhhh!pissing off.
okay.so surprisingly, i woke up at nine.did some dyi face rejuvenation then met kavina, gloria, sandhya and gloria.went for manicure.i chose a bronze color.was nicee.heehe.thenn saw sandhya in REDS.left for dr shahi's clinic while henna and sandhya had lunch.then went to kavina's house.i looove her room.haha.her's brother's soo adorable.i like him.heehe.had lunch at her house.her dad's cute la.he's funny.her mum made me ate soo much.i swear.haha.then about three, we left for the salon.had to wait for quite some time before the woman even started doing my hair.it turned out perfect.but the unfortunate thing was..by the time we finished it was already like 630..and people will start coming to the hotel at 645.crapness!so we changed.wore make up.was all so rushing.i hate haing to rush.seriously okay!and while putting on the make up and stuff, i was literally shaking.hmmpphh.that's one mistake.i think my make up was horrible.i turned out soo yuckky in the photos.haha.luckily, kavina had her 8 other team mates to help.ahaha.they're so supportive.i swear.ehee.so we only reached the hotel at 8.there was a freaking jam okay!everyone was there.i was soo nervous.took loaadss of picsss.i think other than me looking bad in the pics..everything was great..esp the part where me and henna were soo hyper.haha.we were practically shouting at each other!drunkards.hhaha.oh oh.i asked mrs tan to dance with us.and she was dancing on the spot!bloody cuteness.haha.seriously.haha.took pics and more pics.henna dragged me into the dancefloor.was dancing like there's no tomorrow.haha.ok not exactly.but it was reetaaarrddeed.i left early actually.kinda sad la.fuckit.im still pissed over that.left around 1130.wanted to stay longeerrr.dammnnnnn!kk i'll stop.or i might just smash the computer screen.went henna's house after that.some ppl ditched us.haha.it's k la.we ended up doing nothing.took more retarded pics.but we were shagged.left around 1..had to be home by 1 anyway.BUT my parents were actually asleep.how pissing off.i could have just come home at whatever time i wanted and just sneak in.grrr.but couldnt stay long at henna's place.she was gonna go for hindi school in the morning.sandhya, chayana and ashwin went clubbing.how unfaiirr!ok.soooo,
tomorrow start puase.yay.i'll be a good girl.i mean it laaaa..gotta start studying next week.my sister reminded me that o levels is in 5 weeks.haiz...and we're getting back our prelim results next week..but the best thing issss......
MY SUPER SWEET SIXTEEN IS IN TWO WEEKS!
the party of the year has yet to come, after o's!wheeheeheeeeeee!~

2006-09-17T11:14:00.000+08:00

There's something in the way you look at me. It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece.
booo.im bored.it's sunday again.time is flying soo fast.too fast.which is a good thing.but bad also.geeez.prom's coming!yay.i asked my dad if i can 'sleepover'.he said no.his excuse was that he has to see us(as in his children) everyday.bullshit.he was just trying to be cute.haha.then he went on bout other lame stuff.im not giving up!im not gonna throw away this perfect opportunity.heeh.so anyway,
chem prac was okay.fatin was funny.haha.her thingie didnt work again.it's always her.haha.=P.i realised that chem prac was the second shift.bloody annoying.
social studies was okay.good actually cos northern ireland came out.was superdamn happy.and henna was like, fucking awesome!haha.we were actually planning to curse ms nani.grr.k whatever.e math paper 1 was a killer.i wanted to murder mrs tan.
geog elec...okay la.not expecting much.bio paper 4 was nonsense la.whatever i studied and MEMORISED didnt come out.pissing off!
had bio and phy prac in the morning.had to do some urine stuff for bio.so sick la.then after the whole prac, i realised it wasnt really urine.dumbness!haha.phy was notsurprisingly boring!i can never like physics.yuck.after that had a maths paper 1.everyone was actually studying during the break.im impressed.whee.
friday was a bad day.i went hani's house in the morning.around 12 i think.okk afternoon!it was raining cats, dogs and monkeys!so pissing off la.i was drenched from head to toe.then her maid helped me dry my clothes and everything.blahh.
k im off.ciao!

2006-09-10T09:59:00.000+08:00

No more camouflage, I wanna be exposed..
hiiee.it's sunday morning.tomorrow is the start of prelims.(excluding english) i was feeling rather nervous last night.was thinking of the whole chunk of notes to memorise for bio.it's giving me the chills.brr.haha.but anyway this prelims determines whether or not you'll get to enter a jc for the first three months.freaky thing.but ya.so people!anyone?!, good luck man.we'll enjoy after prelims.PROM!wheeee.haha.so yeah.im gonna have chem prac tmr.just hope i dont screw up.but 1 and a half hours?i dont get it.is it two prac?ahah.im lost.but anyways, im gonna go have breakfast now.oh oh!check this out, http://www.singaporeidol.com/scoops_070906v.htm#video haha.till then..toodles!

2006-09-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

my heart feels heavy.i dont know.ok i expected it.he cried.he really did.he's different.his hair.his personality.there's no other paul.haha.ok im a wee bit too much right?but my dad already told me not to cry.im strong.whee.i didnt cry.i did last week though.no idea why.but hey, at least paul did good before he left.im proud of him.everyone should be.so no more roadshows, no more singapore idol craze.no, nothing.whatever.anyway exams are coming.paul's just another short-term craze.after taufik.haha.so pathetic.so so pathetic.but i think i prefer paul.urghh.hopefully he'll appear somewhere.whatever.back to my normal life.
i found my diary!more like journal.the one i had two, three years ago.i started laughing when i read it.it's super duper childish.ok not exactly.but i actually wrote bout my crushes.when i thought bout it, it's so lame!i didnt even know the meaning of love then.so pathetic.so so pathetic.but i decided to continue writing.dont know why.but i need a place where i can vent my anger.k bro's home!

2006-09-04T11:10:00.000+08:00

I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you!
it's really weird to be online and not see the usual people online.my prediction: they're actually studying.yeah well.im trying okay.but im not there yet.as in i need some more time to adapt to this mugging period.prelims are so near.gosh.im not worried.but anyway, on the bright side, im glad paul's still in.though im trying real hard to not get too obsessed with this idol thing.im actually quite sad joakim's out.ok fine.he's cute la.but you knowww....aha.anyway most probably paul's gonna leave this week.so yeahh.i havent done anything fun.how boring!oh wait.there was the teachers' day.omg.those cruella from 4E made mrs chee eat blue cheese.does anyone have any idea how bad that cheese smells?!i almost puked when ms ang brought it to class.yuck yuck.but she did it anyway.she rocks la.hope she felt okay then.haha.the concert was okay.quite boring actually.i mean those tchers' day we had two or three years ago was much more entertaining.thats cosss....the hotties from that sec 4 batch were still in tk.haha.me and henna wanted to take pics with ehem you-might-know-who.but failed attempt.nothing much happened, really.gahh.boring la!on friday, i woke up late.sat, same old.goshh.ok this post is boring.so, ciao!
cant wait for prommm...

2006-08-26T21:03:00.000+08:00

I'm really digging your lips..
im blogging, again.and prelims are starting next week.
i went for singapore idol roadshow, again.couldnt resist not seeing paul again.haha.i aint a stalker.im just a fan.not so diehard though.im just not into those stuff.if i like you means, i really really like you.haha.okkay.so i gave him a red rose, THINKING that he was gonna wear red.but nooo...he came in an olive green shirt..how sad.oh wells!hope he liked it..it was so weird..damn la..i felt weird..i was okay at first..but when it came to him, there was adrenaline rush.urgh.hate it.i saw someone i didnt wanna see.haha.divya and betilda should know who im talking bout.sheesh.but whatever.i was like thinking, im actually one in about maybe a thousand of paul's fan.kinda felt stewpid.dunno arhh.im sad.haha.i was dammn happy when i went down.i hugged divya the moment i saw her.and she was down there.staring into space.like, the whole thing went by so fast.
prelims are next week.everyone's freaking out.except me.god knows why.anyway my dad bought me a treadmill and insisted that i tried it out in front of him.haha.ran a few km.but i think my dad ran twice that of the distance i ran.and considering the fact that he's 48, he's damn good.
yeah.i MIGHT go for the roadshow again next week.it's like addictive now.divya's fault okay!haha.she talked me into accompanying her just now.but i promised cos i would only go if paul's still in.and he is!(not surprised!)haha..hope he stays till next week.divya and i are trying to find ways to get the tickets for the finals.anyone knows?i wanna go.okay.i cant believe im this attached to sg idol.i mean, singapore?you cant expect much.and the hunks are not as hot as the ones compared to maybe, the guys in turkey, spain, portugal, mexico, mostly the middle eastern countries cos i have a thing for arab guys.haha.=P.
i got my prom stuff.my mum's damn annoying la.i dunno why.but i just cant get along with her.ugh whatever.k im off.
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2006-08-23T12:27:00.000+08:00

Your eyes, your lips, that stare..hotness!

gaaahhh!haha.paul.melts.hmm.i love.
btw, fatin my dearest sistor, please make up your mind on who you're like supporting for sgidol.let me tell you again, PAULISMINE!haha.we cant share the same idollover.haha.okayyy?muahaha!
so anyway, this week has been GREAT.cos firstly, last saturday, damn!it was splendid.haha.thanks to divya, me and fatin went for the singaporeidol roadshow.with divya, of course.met her at tamp mall.thank god she came up with the idea of us standing between the barriers if not, we wouldnt even get the poster.it was super hot.then there were some kiddos behind us who were trying to make fun of us.stewpid kids.aha.when i got the poster, i was like thinking what the hell am i gonna do...hahaa..cos it was like nerve wrecking..and damn right it was.i went up there, i was literally shaking.my smile was not sincere(until i saw paul that is.)haha.seriously man.goshh.i've never been THAT scared to face some normal human beings.jasmine was nice.nurul is sweet.she's cute la.then hady, he was hot.jonathan was charming.he wore a while shirt.folded the long sleeves.wore shades.dammnn.haha.and joakim looked cute, boyish cute.hee.oh wait.PAUL IIS CUTTEEEEEEE!!!ahhh.i hugged himm!yay!haha.i want to see hiim again.so most probably, im going toa payoh this sat.it's all divya's fault.[influence!!]hahaha..but im only going IF paul's still in.he better be.i so dont want him to go.noooooo!i swear i'll cry.hhaha.okok.enough of sgidol.
i got my dress.got the earrings too.and the shoes.plus the make up brushes.
things to buy/borrow/steal:
-a gold/bronze chain
-that purse i saw in dorothy perkins
-crystals thingie in seiyu
-bronze/dark brown + brownish gold eyeshadow
yepp.cant wait for prom now.wheee!fatin's my date btw.she just had a haircut.and somewhat looks like PAUL.nyahahaha.my very own, PAULTWOHILLBABY!

2006-08-16T20:09:00.000+08:00

fuck it.whoever who's trying to actually advice me or even tell me stuffs, (tagboard, hints!) you dont even know what the fucking story is..you guys dont know both sides of the story..you guys dont know what's actually happening..so shut ur fucking gaps and mind you fucking business cos it's none of your fucking prob..aite?i mean like, seriously..dont you have your own life to lead?dont you have your own probs?it's like..cmon..F U C K off..stop harrassing me man..but if i happen to know who the fuck you guys are, you will be sorry you were born cos i'd screw your fucking asses till they split apart..yes, i know what i did is wrong but that doesnt mean i havent reconciled with my OWN cousin..and we're cool now..so it's better if you bitches out there get out of our lives before anything else happens..giddit?so there!all said..now, FO!