heeyyaa.im suppose to be studying but heck.this year is like total slack.haiz.but then again the teachers are stressing us out.blaaaahh.anyway i just watched laguna beach.it's just so nice.i cant wait for next week.just now was their graduation.and it was so sweet k.it's like their parents would give them sth.like a gift.isnt that like so great.it's not fair k.and stephen and kristen are so cute.they are like such sweeties.i was like thinking i was in her position.how nice it would be.i've never really felt true love by anyone.it's really sad tho.hahaa.im mad.i cant expect myself to meet mr right now.not now.it's just rubbish.but it's sad.anyway im giving up on him.uh huh.im gonna forget him.and that's final.he hates me.i might as well not like him at all.then having to know that he hates me and still like him.i dont see the point.it's sad.my life's full of saddness.hatred.and everything else.it's sucks.im just so scared for mid yr.i haven really started studying.i only did a bit of this and that.i'll freak out in the end i tell ya.seriously.luckily my mum bought coffee for me.but i cant depend on it too much.i'll get addicted to it.ahahkz.anyway this fren of mine sent me his pic.and asked whether he looked cute in it.haha.he's so farni.so sweet.my fren.hmm.anyways a lot of things have been happening but i wont post it here.i cant wait for after mid yrs.not the results but the shopping spreeeee.i cant wait.oh man.i want it to be over.then i can go my cuz's wed and see him oso.so long nvr see him.just now when he sent me his pic.i got like goosebumps.haha.nitez ppl!
he hates me.i just hafta accept that and move on.
sadness.
hatred.
and everything else.




heloo ppl....*yawns*..it's been so long since i last blogged..i just woke up from my 3 hr sleeep...haha..i cant believe i slept for so long..normally i dont sleep in the afternoon...now im hungry..heeehz...anyways...justt now i had flag day..it was tiring but nice..it was in town btw...so it was quite nice...cos got this guy...waaaaah....hot~..haha...i woke up at 6..i didnt wanna go at first...but i had to la..i forced myself to go..then my mum sent me to kembangan mrt..actually i wanted to pass my ol house to see what's happening and stuff..but didnt..cos i was sorta late..then i met susu and maria in the train..and went somerset...collected our 'bags'...i was like totally rolling my eyes at those ppl who REJECTED me..haha..they are so idiotic..so mean...dont wanna donate..ppl with no heart...tsktsk...ahahkz...then after ALLLL that..we went cinileisure..got this triple x thingy..if you put the triple x tattoo then you'll get something plus 2 free movie tickets..aint that cool..so i went to put..and change into my half u as well...i cant stand full u la...then i went to collect all my stufffy...then ate in bk..actually i didnt really eat..i bought the hersheys pie and a drink..erm....after that..went home arh...so tired k..that's why i slept..and i gave my sis the movie tickets...how nice~cos it's on a wednesday night..i cant possibly go right..somemore mid year's coming...oh gawd!mid year's coming!!!..hai~im so scared..haven started studying..hmmm..darn it..anyway my dad didnt want his phone..waddaheck..he just bought it...sony erricson..maybe old stuff are better...ahahkz..he gave it to my lil sis..but she doesnt have a line..so while i was nicely sleeping..she put my sim card in...hai~..so let's have a summary of my whole week..
on monday...
there was no a maths remedial!hhhaha...i was the happiest person alive..urrm..nothing special happened...but while waiting for maria..me and divya were sitting at one of the canteen tables..then the 2d guys came..they were dirty talking.eww..really disgusted...im so ashamed ofthe 2dee guys man..haha...but then it's like the guys are still together..i mean they're always together...play lan together and that kinda thing..but the girls..hmm...only some are still together..actually nowadays it's like we're sitting together during recess...but not everyone arhh..
on tuesday..
there was nothing after school..so i ate lunch in school..then when home straight...
on wednesday..
went home straight after school..cos divya had to go for her class..
on thursday..
.hmmm...i had to stay back for phy test...it was okay..the last qtn sucked..hmpph..i screwed up my bio..i got sooo low..i mean the overall..like wtf..haiz...this sucks k...then chem oso..i did so badly..overall i missed a1 by one mark..what total crap is that!so pissed with myself..how could i have done so badly..this is really disappointing..gosh...do i really suck that much?..='(
on friday...
there wasnt guides...so me and maria waited for divya to finish her phy and chem test..over these past few days..i've been msging hashir..haha...how nice...and that bitch girl is so blardy irritating...god!...hate you even if you're my cousin..i dont give a damn...how shallow can she get...so idiotic im telling ya..she's ruining my life..i cant wait for the wedding..i can get to see hashir...and that bitch woman...gawd!~




heloo.wassup ppl!i haven been updating.hmm.yest was sports' day.it was boring.seriously.last year was diff.we were pouring water on each other.but i guess we're more matured now.geeez.really?haha.but it was fun.and a lot of ppl were kinda pissed at us.too bad la.haha.and i ran my 2.4 yest.it was a killer.so long nvr run.actually not really ar.my timing is okay.i guess i can get my gold.heeee.=))).but it's no big deal lah.some ppl dont even care.after school divya had tha sit for her ss test.so me and maria waited for her.then erlina came along.as well as suhailah.then when divya finished.we went bk.it was fun.take pikchas and stuff.then we went to the stadium.we were like early.haha.like divya said early bird catches the worm.haa.there aint got any wormiiee.ahahkz.then when we were there.saw chun yin.haha.fun.fun.she's so cute laaa.yang ling oso.heeehz.then guides had to fall in outside the stadium.i cant believe the maams came late.tsktsk.haah.so anyway i'll be going for the damai campfire.last year.was it last yr?we went damai campfire.it was super duper fun.haha.but now it's like got quite a number going.must be boring la.anyway [he] came late for the sports' day.i thought he wasnt even gonna come.then when i saw him.i became like hyper.ahahhaa.love yoou.=P.then got ppl running.3eEe rocks la.got the super fast runners.aha.then we won like several race.'we' not me.bluueek.uh.MR DELLL ran.hahahhaha.biggest joke ever.and it was like a relay ah.then before the person who was suppose to pass him the baton came.like he was jumping.jumping.like so excited.my gawd.he can run k.hahahahaha.laughhhh!!!!he's sucha loser.i really mean loser.he annoys me.fucker.hmm.then mrs chee also ran.so funny.yet cute.ahha.and her class won the overall champ.like whatever.so like something happened.and divya became moody.after sports' day.maria went with susu and huda.[oh ya.remember i gave mrs tan a flower right.then i asked her whether she put it in water or not.haha.she's so hot la.heehez.]anyway i went interchange with diyva.she's so poor thing la.but it's okay now.i tink.then i went home.so moody.my mum.my sis!everyone was irritating me.blooody hell.fucked up life.then just now in the morning she asked me what's wrong.why my attitude change and stuff.why cant i confide my probs with her.like HELL NO.she wont understand.no one will.anyway then she said.you have probs with ur bf arh?dream on.i aint got a bf dammit.then went school.
uhhh.in the morning.kavina cried.so poor thing laa.hmpphh.then had bio.i got back my test.fuck it.i did so badly.must buck up man.hhhaaiizz.then it was malay.[boring!] uhh.then chem.wah kavina got highest in the level for chem.39/40.so blardy good k.and her bio oso.like wth.soooo good!ahaha.e maths sucks.hhaa.we did survey for deliiii.haha.that fucker.i wrote meanie stuff bout him.heehe.sorry.but i had to tell the truth right.orang islam mane leh tipu.cheeeyy.hahaha.
then after school, at three i had guides.it was okaay.sec 1 enrolment.haiz.stand there like so blardy long.1 hr liddat k.then after that we ate.the food was sucky.ew.ew.ew.haaha.and guides ended like so soon.then we sang taps right.after that we sang that barney song.wwhheezzzeee!haha.it was fun!heehez.then uhh.we slack in the canteen for awhile.talk.talk.then went home.i was disturbing susu.haha.soorry la.but ur the only target.ahahaha.
then in the bus 60, i saw this guy.waaaaaah.he's like cuteeee!!haha.he lives in bedok reservoir.near my house.so cute.then we got down at the same stop.walking not far apart.same speed.that kinda thing.haha.cute.
cutie pie.




hey.hmph.everyday i come back frm sch.i'd surely be pissed with someone.crap.i just hate it.i tink maybe it's cos it's that time of the month.heeehz.anyway school was okaayy.guitar lesson was fun.actually not really cos we're like doing the same thing.like last week.and that instructor keep talking and talking.but it's fun.me and henna went to the toilet ar.then the stooopid p chan had tha come and asked us where we were going and stuff.yea.after that was physics.obviously my class didnt wanna go.so we slacked in class until 9.then we went.it's like that.it had always been like that.how nice.haha.we had physics quiz.wasnt that bad.was okay.do-able ar.then uhh.we had e maths!god!i cant stand that rasoudeli.really.i cant.he sucks k.he just annoys me.esp with that face.half retarded.wait.more like TOTALLY retarded.loser freak.he's pot belly ya noe.ahahha.anyway after recess was a maths.mrs tan so cute la.haha.she loves us man.oh ya.and i gave her a flower.this carnation flower la.very sweet right.heheez.uhh.got assembly.we had planet crush.and guess what.we 'learned' about porn stuff.haha.nah.it's not fun tho.=PpPp.after school we had ss test.was suckkyyyyy!i couldnt finish it k.i wanted to write more but i knew i had to stop la cos obviously got no time.darn it.haiz.then after the test i went home alone.singing that song.lonely....im ms lonely....i have nobody for my own....nanana..lols.i've been depressed.i dont know why.and i know that this depression of mine will affect my studies.but i dont understand why.hmm.anyway gloria gave me another letter.i didnt even know.i tink.eh wait.do i?uh.dunno la.was kinda suprised.[he] was so funny just now.haha.too cute la.i shall not say anything else la.it'd be too obvious.haaah.anyway as i was saying.this depression of mine.yeah.it's like when im depressed or angry.i wont talk to ppl about it.i'd EAT.yes.eat.haaa.maybe it's the only way.that why im fat now.sooo fat.like a baby elephant.haaha.whatever.




why have i been so pissed these past few days.it really suck.i cant stand this.everyone is pissing me off.even if the person doesnt mean any harm.and i get so hurt easily.so moody.darn it.i just hate it.hate it.urrgh.when will this feeling fade away?i need someone.a friend.whoever.haiz.now im having sucha terrible headache.i cant take it lah.so sickening.god.i started being moody after sch.dunno why oso.ppl are pissing me off.so whoever who's reading this.please try not tha irritate me aite.im having sucha bad day.i dread for tmr to come.im tired.i need to study for ss.haiz.life sucks.it's just sucking up to you like nobody's business.hai~anyway lessons has been fun so far.esp with that crazeee henna and kaviNAH.aahaha.i just hope someone will cheer me up.uhh.yeah.THAT someone.haish.alright then.TAAAz!
.get lost!!shhoooooo!.




hey guys.im bored.so shall post.i just finished watching laguna beach.stephen and kristen is so cute.no i mean.they look so nice together.i was on the verge of crying man.then i was thinking of him.no.not that one.the long long time ago.last yr june.my summer lover.hehe.i can still remember that time when he called me quite late.and i was waiting and waiting.when he finally called.i told him i hate him but in a nice way.haha.then he said.but i love you.gosh.that was sooo sweeet.haha.i shouldnt have made that decision i made.but it's okay cos now he's with someone i know.now i dont even talk to him.i tink im over him.i should be over him.hmmm.but i miss him!haha.he's really cute.and sweet.and everything else.but there was one teeny weeny factor.and that was the reason why i couldnt be with him.how sad.so now it's over.really sad huh.so anyway.i tink i should be over the other one.i hope.but im gonna meet him somewhere in june.i dont wanna talk to him.but i know we are.anyway my ex is now my best fren.it's nice ya know.havng someone you really trust and loved.being there for you when you need them.it's cool.wait.i just realised something.this post is about guys!ahahaha.ok quit it.i need to work out.go to the gym and stuff.yeah.but i shall do that only after mid year.im also going on a shopping spree after mid yr exams.i just wish that it is over.I WISH!just now my grandma came to my house.cant really stand her.she nags a lot.typical old woman.but i still love her!LOVE YOU BABA!haha.whatever.i call her baba.no it's not time you make fun.blueek.i tink it's what arabs call their grandma.cos my mum's side.everyone calls their grandma baba.and grandpa jidi.lame laaaaaaaa.why cannot call nek or tok.haha.whatever!oh ya.and i watched the live telecast of princess [wait i forgot her name] and prince charles.but in the evening i watched the tragic accident of princess diana.they were investigating and stuff.it was really interesting k.and at one point i felt like crying.i hate prince charles.but then again.he and that other princess has been in love for over 30 years.and the queen doesnt like that other princess so prince charles was married to princess diana.and that other princess isnt pretty.and she doesnt look glamourous.i so prefer diana man.it's just sad.oh yaaa!haha.prince william was there.oh gawd.hottie~ahhaha.ok then.i gtg do geog project.haiz.TAAAAAZ!




damn it.fuck it.arrrse!im just so bloody pissed alright!everyone is like making me pissed.since morning.cut it out.uurggghh!!!!okok.i'll stop.but i hafta vent my anger somehow right.maybe it's a new beginning.maybe god is trying to tell me that i shouldnt wait for that someone.and just move on.it might be true.cos im totally sick of waiting for him.and in the end im the one losing out.it just sucks when you keep your hopes high.in the end.you dont get what you want.haiz.haiz.anyway.i had guides just now.it was nice.and it ended at 5.how nice.and divya was with us.yeah.that choir girl.haha.mrs tey let her stay.so nice right.haha.then the 3 of us were sitting together.and stuff.yeah.urm.there was the parents' night for sec 3s.my mum couldnt make it.lucky me.ahahkz.uhh.after guides.me and divya went macs.and she freaked out when her mum called.haha.then i saw nazeera with her fren and bf.oh ya.we had to take all our bks home.but my cool.rocking the werld.class.well.we put our books at the fire hose there.wait.what do you call that???haha.dunno la.so yeah.it was nice seeing everyone working together that kinda thing.haha.yeah.hmm.let me summarise this week.
on monday.i had the maths trail shit!god!!i just hate it kay.esp without henna and kavina around.it was damn boring.shouldnt have gone.but it's over now.so heck care.hehez.
on tuesday.uhh.after school.me.maria and divya went to parkway.divya wanted to meet her parents there.was kinda cool.haha.then divya asked us to go to this shop nearby ar.then we went.and guess what.that shop is joel's mum's brother's shop.uh.his uncle la.yeah.his mum was there.and at first.we bought this longan jelly thingy.yeah.one bowl of that.cos we didnt know how it tasted like and stuff.yeah.so when joel's mum recognised divya's class tee.then they were talking bout joel.and his mum asked us to try this REALLY nice mango thingy.haha.it was damn nice k.and the best thing was.she gave it for free.haha.so nice.
on wednesday.i didnt do much.had to go home and study chem.hhaii.
so one thursday.i had the chem test.was kinda okay.i tink i screwed it.dunno la.i need to get at least 17.5.no i mean i want to.and whether i can get or not is another story.ahakz.so anyway.after chem.i went to meet divya.then we went bedok interchange.maria[goody sth sth]haha.wasnt there cos she had physics test.after chem test.so then.divya went to buy stuff for her mum.i went with her.hmm.i need a few more bucks to be able to go on a shopping spree.but i'll save that for after exams.then i'll have the time of my life!wheeezzeee!so then i went home and studied for bio.i slept at 12.cos i watched the oc.waaah.damn nice.i missed the earlier episode.and ryan is hot k.ahhaha.seth oso.*melts*.
and today.i went to school.feeling very tired.and wanting to sleep.the bio paper was okay.even though ms ang considered it easy.hhaai.im tired.btw naqib is GAY.ahaha.he sucks.i hate him.hahaha.
peace out




i dont know what's wrong wimme.i feel like crying.haiz.i dont know.why.why.why?!!!i feel like im missing someone.but i dont know who.anyway im suppose to be studying right now.tmr got chem test.and i barely know a thing.this sucks.and everyone else is doing soo much better than me.haiz.anyway my mum's sick!aahahaha.a day of PEACE.wahahaha.im being so mean.she's damn poor thing.awwww.haha.she has fever or something ar.then cannot do housework.yet this house is clean.ahakz.and she cant cook.so she ordered for us pizza.yummmm.anyway my whole class didnt go for assembly.woooohooo.how fun is that!and no one actually caught us.even that stoopid cikgu ismail walked and looked into our class.and he didnt say anything.was that a miracle or what man.haha.and we were disturbing esme.she's sucha pain.god.and megumi actually likes melvin.ahaha.melvin gave henna a flower.then she threw it in the dustbin.what a jealous freak.haha.and the class was really nice.haha.everyone working together.yea.that kinda thing.heehez.i love 3eEeEe 05 geddit!!?!it's no more a nerd class.woooohooo.haha.
love ya'll.




happy april fools everyone.is there such thing?haha.whatever.im tired.i am okay!someone pls massage my feet.my back.my neck.everywhere!ahakz.okok.i had guides just now.that's why im tired.hmm.i had a and e maths test just now.a maths was a killer.but others said that it was easy.and e maths wasnt that bad.and guess what.ppl said tt it was hard.im gonna fail.dammit.but hey.even if i get full marks for a maths i wont pass overall.haha.why bother.oh yaaa!astrid told me bout some sg idol drama or what arh.then she asked me whether i wanna go for the auditions as taufik's girlfriend!!!that's like whoa~i want!haha.but the thing is.i wear scarf.so it's really wierd.so i dunno!haish.i hate mr del.yeah.that same rasoudeli.bloody bastard.he came in class 10 mins late.and he was running like a pig.he was nervous by then.then like he asked me a qtn.obviously i haven been paying attention during his class.so how would i know!he's just annoying me.really k!and henna didnt hand in her hw or what ah.dunno ah.then he told her that he wanted to see her after class.so after class.he nicely called me out.then i was quite shocked ar.what's his prob man.and he asked me bout the hw.then i was like.it's not me laaa!it's henna.then he apologised.and i was obviously laughing right at his face.im not being rude.but he has a retarded face.loser.i just hate him.and i seriously dont understand whatever he's teaching.what the heck.he's really irritating.and he'll like wipe his face with his hankerchief.[bluek]like 10 times.cos he'll be sweating like a pig.sorry la!but it's the truth.haai.cant stand him.i cant wait for laguna beach man.it's like super nice.and stephen's so blardy hot!i tink he's hotter than joel madden.haha.it's true FATIN.even im admitting it.really.aahakz.anyway i'll end here.im gonna fall asleep soon.k then.
.glad that you said hi to me.heeeez~