allluuu.hehe..it’s really late in the night..i’ve done a bit of studying..tho there’s more to go..really a lot more..haish..sad life..anyway..i got some good news!!!!hehehe..shhhh…it’s meant for me and only me to know..haha..im so happiiee!!hmm..there’s nth much to blog..im not gonna talk bout school..it’s sucha drag..ooh..yest i ate sushi..and that night..my stomach ache like hell!!at 420am k..so annoying..i was totally dying..it was as tho i was giving birth!okay..not really but ya..i didn’t wanna go sch..but i had to la..hrrmm..my bdae’s in a week’s time..i don’t feel anything..heeehe…I don’t expect much la..every yr is the same..doesn’t really matter anyway..but im so gonna go make my ic..hehe..who can come wimme????plsss….!haha..im so scared for final yr..just hope i’ll do well..insyallah..yeeahh!!hehehe..haven’t been doing well in anything..okok..this entry is crap..im just happy..ladeeda..!~it’s so late..but im not sleepy yet..cos i had two cups of coffee..haha..don’t mind me..i can go cwazeeeeee!heehehe…ok..now i feel tired.hhahaha..ok then..shall blog some other time..when i feel like it..bye darlingsss..




this is for my closest buds out there who has been there for me whenever i need them.i love you guys.thanks for everything!!with frens like y'all i've been a better person.love youuuu!!hehehe.

Specially for:
si xuan.divya.maria.shermaine.
glorieee!kavina.henna.
suhailah.hani.
surayya.

When you're all alone,
And you need a light,
Someone to guide you through the night,
Just remember that I am here,
To hold you close and dry your tears.

Oh-ooh And just when you thought you were falling,
But you know I'll always be right there.

When you're all alone,
And you need a friend,
Someone to help you to the end,
When you need someone to catch you when you fall,
I'll be there through it all.

Oh-oh Just when you thought you were losing,
But you know I'll always be right there.

I'll be there through the good times,
And the bad,
And we'll be there for each other,
You're the best friend I ever had.

Oh-oooh And just when you thought you were falling,
But you know I'll always be right there.

Oh-oooh whenever you need me,
I'll always be right there.


I’ll always be right there...




i just realised something.my life is BORING.it's stereotype.and there's no point waiting for something nice to happen.cos it's never gonna.i hate it.god.seriously man.

every life has to come to an end.

caleb died.
haaa.ok im still not over that fact.it's soo sad!i didnt cry tho.and one tree hill.so sickening.so sad.haizz.




urghh.hmm.yest i went hani's hse.thinking we were gonna study together.but it turned out otherwise.we were just talking.catching up on a lot of stuff.hee.gossiping.and all.so anyway..at around 4.we went down cos i wanted to cut my hair.went to this condo.got hairdresser there.sat down there.btw it was raining so heavily that it was soo funny!haha.i took so long to decide on a hairstyle.but i still couldnt make up my mind.so i left it to the hands of the fucked up hairdresser.so anyway.i told her that i wanted to tie my hair.make sure it's long enough and stuff.but maybe she's too dumb to understand.so now my hair is freakishly short.god!so annoying.then after that i went back to the hse.washed my hair.hrrmmpph.so depressing i tell ya.so then i TRIED to make it nice.but didnt work out.so we decided to watch a movie.on dvd of cos.but i wanted to munch on sth.so we went down.to the shop.walk2.went to the playground.talked.and stuff.then we went to this playground.play tictactoe!haha.lamerssss.after a while.ii told her like we race to her hse.tt was soo childish.and on the way.hani broke her slippers!!haha.it was soo funny.she's a total crackpot.so yaa.went back to her hse.didnt watch movie.i wanted to go home.so i left.haa.that was it.it was quite fun tho.i mean.REALLY fun.even though now my hair's a screw up.
damn you hairdresser.hate yoouuuu!




im so touched by what divya sent me so im gonna share it with the rest of the world.
and divya, i love youu.thanks for everything.swweetiie pie.hehe.it was so sweet of you to send me this.i really appreciate it.love ya!

this goes to ALL my friends out there!hehe.

if i realli dun get to see u tmr, juz rmbr these words..
if tmr, i shud nvr wake up..
i wanted to say im sorry..
sorry fer wad i have done.. i cld have done more..
i shud have done more..

if i hurt u, yelled at u,
ignored u, or din care..
im sorry.
forgive me?

if tmr i shud nvr wake up..
i wanted to say thnkz..

if me and u WERE de best of frenz,
thnkz fer owaez being there..
there were times when i thot i cld nvr leave u..

and if we HAVE parted..
thnkz fer teaching me to lurrve and let go..
thnkz fer teaching me that it doesnt matter if we nvr see each othr again..
bcuz u taught me that lurrve can move past that..

and if we are STILL best of frenz..
juz wanna let u knw that i treasure that too..
i lurrve u and nobody else can replace u.. (:

if me and u only talked once in a while..
or mebbe we dun even talk at all..
and din go to de same parties..
and were not good frenz..
thnkz fer not humbling me,
or tearing me down..
i only wish i had taken de chance back den to lurrve u more..

if u were someone i had a crush on..
i owaez did admire how u treated pple..
how u lived your life..
it somehow seemed more meaningful than mine..
at least u cld let go.. and move on..
but thnkz fer teaching me that i cant hold on to sth/someone that is not mine..
thnkz fer making me believe..
that there MIGHT be someone out there fer me..
even if it isnt u ~ knw that i even thot i lurrved u..

if u and i were once frenz..
even fer a little while..
thnkz fer teaching me abt understanding,
and growing up,
teaching me how to move on..
thnkz fer de times we had together..
and i beg u to forgive me fer wadeverr happened..
that tore us apart..

u are not perfect, neither am i..
but thnkz fer being a part of my life..

if tmr, i shud nvr wake up, ive said everything i wanted to tell u..

rmbr dis.. 'every fren represents a world in us.. a world possibly not known until they arrive and it is only by this meeting that a whole new whole is born..'
i lurrve u my fren and will owaez do.. u are special.. and i have changed fer de better bcuz of u.. so thnkz alot.. and owaez knw that God watches over u.. i have asked Him to protect u and to guide u in everything that u do.. so even if i might not get de chance to tell u dis.. wanna let u knw it right now that i still care abt u.. whether u WERE a fren, JUZ a fren or even a fren NOW.. i lurrve u and i mean it frm de bottom of my heart!




alluuuu.hehe.im so happy.dont know why but i am.i think it's cos of yest.i had sooo much fun.haha.went out with my cuzzerns.even though the abang2 werent there.we went theme park.boring place but heck!we had our own fun.haha.ohh.btw the haunted house totally suck.it's soo scary!wth?hhaha.i hit the stoopid ghost.he deserves it anyway.so annoying.he kept on following us.haha.i came out.half glad that it was over.half crying.haha.when i was inside.my whole mind was empty.it was like as if i was in another world.wierd.but true.haha.we took several rides.the go kart.alpha 8.the whole way i was just laughing.cracking my head.haha.some of the rides were closed.not fair.urgh.hehe.then at around 8 we left.went to my cuz's place.hang around there for an hour.then my dad came to fetch us.it was fun hanging out with my cuzz after so long.i wanna have a slumber party with them!wouldnt that be fun?!heee.
best time.




heyyz.i feel like posting on the stuff that has been going on.but im not really in the mood.maybe later or something.anyway.how are you suppose to trust your friend when you dont know the truth?im so confused.damn.he has changed her.or maybe cos of him.the way she thinks is different.he irritates the hell out of me.get out of her freaking life you fool!i hate his guts.seriously.what is he trying to do!no one will understand what im really really feeling right now.and im telling you.the feeling sucks.haiz.why does things have to be so complicated right now.i feel like crying.but then again.i dont.

sunday
i woke up so late.haha.cos of the campfire the night before.anyway.me and my mum were suppose to go out.but my dad came home late so we only went out at night.in the evening.mahmud called.asked us to meet him and my sis.so we went.meet them at 604.but my sis left cos she wanted to meet jeremy to study.i tink.so then.we were just hanging around.when this cat came.haha.so irritating k.i couldnt sit still.haha.was funny.then around 7.my mum called.so we had to go home.blahblah.then me.my parents.and younger sis went parkway.i wanted to get a pair of jeans.went giordano.i want those jeans.but my mum being so annoying just wont buy it for me.she thinks 49 bucks is expensive for a pair of jeans.urghh.my dad was like 'it's okay what.just buy la.' but still my mum wont!!!haha.so anyway.we went to eat in kfc.saw this really crazee guy.he was talking to himself.freeaakkay.haha.i got scared.hehe.then we went giant.bought my daily needs.haha.then we saw kak ama.and her in laws.she looks so different.married woman.durrhh!but still.haha.so then.we went home after that.my dad helped me with the shopping bags.heee.
it's nice spending time with your family members after so long.whee.

saturday
i wont elaborate much.cos i'll just start crying.i want another campfire man.anyway.i came late.but i was suppose to go for a maths remedial so it didnt really matter right.but our wonderful CL made me pump.so annoying.but i couldnt really be bothered anyway.heck them.then when i told erlina i had to go for a maths remedial.she said 'ohh.then you need not pump just now.' how annoying is that?urggh.im not ever gonna give in.then later in the evening.just before the campfire.i told erlina i needed a buckle for my belt cos my skirt was gonna drop any minute.then she totally ignored me.like i didnt ever exist.how annoying is that.god.i was so stressed.mrs tey wanted me to be the second mc.and i was so pressurized.plus erlina pissing me off.and the sad song being played in the background.i just burst out crying.haaa.and chayana also.everything wasnt going the way i wanted it to.hrmmph.but after a while.i tink everything was back to normal.except that i was still pissed off with some ppl.irritating kay.me and granz were doing the song dedication.with azmi being the deejay.ahaha.was soo funny.and there was some stuff going on bout sara and god knows who.haha.when the campfire started everything was perfect.the songs were played really nicely.perfect shot.nice moments.hehe.gloria nicely put the candy shop song.the one with lyrics.haha.but luckily i came to the rescue.haha.charles was sorta like panicking too.it was just so funny.and ryan came up there.when it was time to go.we saw this cockroach.and everyone was screeaammingg.haha.it was just so hilarious.keke.then after the whole thing.we had to fall in and stuff.then me.gloria and chayana went home.we saw granz's dad.mr sengutuvan.haha.i wanted to say bye mr sengutuvan.but forget it.haha.he's so annoying k.he told gloria 'i thought haseenah's a dark girl.but turned out she's fair.her name is like those dark pppl.' bloodiee basket.ahaha.so anyway.went home with chayana.took bus to eunos.and a cab home.haa.
i miss the campfire.this is so depressing.haaiizzz.




im gonna make this short and sweet.the campfire's over.i dont know why but it seems so sad.all those mths of preparations.and we did good.really good.even though the people in charge of the songs thing.tt includes me.yep.we were panicking and stuff.but it was fun.i'll miss everything bout it.chayana did good.really good.hehe.i'll miss everything la.i'll miss working so hard with chayana and granz.i'll miss chinghao.[and i still have his foolscap.haha]his lameness.but still!!haha.i'll miss charles's nonsense.but hey he's really responsible.and im so glad we got all the songs.everything was perfect i guess.haa.it was nice.and im still so happy that we did it.and ppl.without us.this campfire wont happen.hehe.it was nice man.okk.i shall stop.
gloria.chayana.chinghao.charles.azmi.rachel tang.sara lee.you guys rock!