im in love with a dead guy!!like omg!haha.he's sooo cute.and his voice is like superb.and ya'll wanna know who he is????...well.he's ELVIS PRESLEY!!!!!!!haha.im so in love.this is just so sad.if only i knew him sooner.heehe.

yesterday was sooo farn!oh god.haha.ok it wasnt exactly fun but i got to meet mahmud for the first time.he turned out pretty cute.haha.okok.lemme start.yest in the morning went to sch.for the first aid course.it was fun ar.cos we were sabo-ing erlina.her bdae.and we bandaged her.like all over.haha.i took her pic.so anyone who wants her pic.come to me yea!heehe.erm.o yea.i had my first kiss.i kissed a dummy!haha.no la.it wasnt a kiss.i was doing cpr.i came to school late.and everyone was like waiting for me.but cheryl came later la.anyway.i couldnt make up my mind whether to go or not.i wanted to go la.but i dont wanna be all alone there.so when i came home i asked my sis whether she wanted to come wimme go to the bbq.and thank god she wanted.hmm.then i got ready but it was soo long.haha.i took sucha long time.then left the hse at 645.made my way to the beach.then when i reach there.i saw this group of ppl.quite embarrassing.so my sister and i decided not to go.it was so wierd.and my sis saw us!urggh.then she was practically dragging us there.there were butterflies in my stomach.haha.there were like guys there.gals too la.there was this hottie.ooh.haha.anyway i saw mahmud.i was seriously shy.so i didnt talk to him or what.btw he's my sis's bf.yea.so anyway.after they cut the cake and stuff.we hanged around there.and fairuz came.thank god!!if not i would have died.she was obviously annoying the hell out of me.ahakz.then after a while i began talking to mahmud and stuff.my sis is sucha bitch.she didnt intro us to the ppl.haha.i wanted to know his name.and the only one she intro us to is b.and he was bloody shy.and i already knew him la.so no big deal.hmm.then they guys went home.only left mud.fairuz.my younger and older sis.and me.oh yeaa.before that.my sis got dumped into the laut.hahaa.but she wasnt really wet.and she was wearing my skirt.the skirt i just bought.what a moron.urgh.so like rejini came.and my sis went with her to where her parents were or sth.then the rest of us were like chatting and stuff.mud was being the irritatign one la.quite obvious.hmm.then we left quite late ar.my bro came to pick us up.the whole thing was actually fun.really fun.then i came home so late.i missed my first aid test.so i hafta go to the red cross headquarters to do the test.actually today i was feelin drowsy and i vomitted in the morning.so that's why i didnt go.haiiiz..hrmmp.
i tink im in lurrveeee.




heeyyllooo.hehhe.i just came back from SCHOOL.yes.school.urgh.had the english enrichment crap shit.i hang around in school for awhile before heading home.im going johor.cos my sis having her party on wed.so need to buy bbq stuff.i dont feel like going.today's my mum's bdae.happyy biirrthhdayy mummmyy!!!i made her a card.really pretty.i wrote some stuff.dont know whether its true or not.haha.oh ya.i saw henna's sister just now.she is sooo cute!!haha.henna looks like her mum.so pretty.anyways.just we wanted to sorta like celebrate my mum's bdae so we went swensens.bought earthquake.yummmay.haha.im sure i've gained like one zillion pounds.hmm.im going jogging with my mum every evening during the hols.as in now la.but i wanna go in the morning.less ppl.haha.my mum went out yest.she bought a guess handbag.omg it looks so hot k.heehe.and we bought.as in share money.to buy my mum a renoma handbag.it's nicee k.and my mum didnt noe so when we were in swensen.we gave her that bag.you shud see her face.she was like so shocked.ahahaha.pure cute-ness.hehe.came back at around 10.and i actually forgot all about my mum's card.so i went to nicely do it until 12.and i put it under her alarm clock.heeehz.i woke up at 7 k.so earlllyyy.urggh.and i took like one hr to get my blardy hair done.okkay.i have nothing to say now.haaah.




(Ooh, ooh, sweet love, yeah)
I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you, so
I should have held on tight
I never shoulda let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, cause baby
(We belong together)
[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together
Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together
I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me
"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute
This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
"I only think of you"
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life, baby
[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together
Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together, baby
[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together
Who am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together




i cant get this song out of my head.looove it.dedicated to you.yes you!




heeeyyyaaaaa.alot of things happened lately.too many.urggh.ok.lemme start.
yest.went to collect report book in the morning.sorta like crap shit.got scolding.and stuff.haiish.i did so badly.how could i have done like shit?i studied.but why didnt i do well?hmmph.i hate my life.seriously.so anyway.sonia yeo was there.she was talking nonsense!she doesnt even know me.and she had the guts to say stuff bout me.but when she was blabbering.i couldnt stop laughing.cos she was moving her head while talking.that kinda thing.wat a loser.i wasnt really listening.i was just staring at her accessories.how dumb can she get?her watch is so out of fashion.and she was wearing this netty top.black bra.aahaha.i couldnt stop noticing right.she's just so annoying.so anyway after all that my mum was totally nagging.i really mean totally.what do you think?1 A and 6 Cs??!haiishhh.totally sucky.but she was kinda glad bout mrs chee's remarks.i love that woman.thanks cher!!haha.ok so then.i went dhoby ghaut with my mummy.went to paradiz cente.is that what it's called?i dont know.we went there cos my very vain mum wanted to buy some cream for her face.so yeap.then we went to eat at this indonesian restaurant.hrrm.then i saw this really pretty skirt in this fashion.and thought maybe i should beg my mum for it.but it turned out she actually wanted to buy it for me.yay!haha.didnt quite expected it.not that cheap but ya.and i bought a watch too.she bought a watch.ermm.so after that we walked to plaza spura.my mum went in this shop and she was looking2 at shoes.then she asked the woman there when the sale's gonna start and it started like a few hours ago!!so my mum was like really excited.haha.i tot i was the only one who's so into shopping.but my mum too!!so niceee~haha.so then we went body shop.then there's this new perfume.you hafta mix it up so that it'll smell nice.so after some time.my mum decided to buy it.it's kinda cheap tho.you get 3 different perfumes for 39.90.isnt it so worth it?but u hafta mix them ar.so anyway.i wanted lip gloss.heee.so she bought it for 24.90.cooool.haha.she gets 20% discount anyway.cos it's her birthday month and she's a member.so ya.she bought lip liner.she's sucha spender!haha.but it's fun!she spent like over 70 bucks there.tssk.so we were walking2.she wants to buy shoes.handbags.she's crazzeee.oh.btw.the salesman in body shop is sooo hot.i was like so in love with him.even though.he's abit gay.haha.so charming k.heehe.he held my hand cos i was picking the best lip gloss so he was like trying it on my hand.hahah.hmm.so then we went spotlight.bought stuff.like those pillow stuffy thingy.yep.i swear my mum was like going crazeee.she even signed up for spotlight vip membership.haha.we got tired of shopping.so then went macdonalds to have a drink.then went home.took train K!!i got damn pissed with my mum.i didnt wanna take the train!!so anyway.i saw thamachart in the train.he was speaking thai with his frens.haha.so cute.hahaha.then we dropped at kembangan.so did he.and we took a cab back.at last!
ok.fast forward.at night.i was reading the nicest book in the world.when my mum had to disturb my peace.she asked me to keep my charger and some other chargers.but i was like okk.after i finish reading.then she came storming in.she was practically going nuts.she was damn pissed!and she took the duster.TRYING to whack me.but obviously im stronger than her.so i was like controlling it.oh goshh!so was shouting and screaming at me.god!so irritating.it went on and on.then after a while it stopped.so i went to read in the hall.then my dad had to come home and disturb my peace.what kind of loser?he was watching teevee.hey i was trying to read.and the radio was on!!i cant stand him.really.urgh.so then i thought maybe i should read it in my room.so then i was eading.and my mum came in.ok this is an emotional part.take your tissues please!haha.
she came.she saw me reading.so she sat by me on the bed.and she was like im sorry if i whacked you just now.did it hurt?im sorry k.i love you so much that when i whacked you just now i felt so bad.i shouldnt have.but you were rude.dont be so rude k next time. then.errm.got somemore.cant remember.then she said.come gimme a hug.awwww.haha.so i hugged her.and she was still saying some stuff.i was already crying.so sweet of her.haha.i tinks eh sorta like cry too.i couldnt look at her face.was too sad.so then.she kissed me.and she tuck me to bed.hehehe.so motherLY.haha.
love you mummy.
i tink im over you.ha!you and her can go fuck for all i care!i dont give a damn for you.hrmph.




Who's Your OC Crush?
hasEEnah, your OC crush is Ryan

While he's not exactly the boy next door, he sure is a hottie. And you heard it here first: You and Ryan are a match made in OC heaven. Like your feisty and fiery crush, you've probably got a bit of a wild streak that sets you apart from the rest of snooty Newport Beach or anywhere else you happen to hang.An independent spirit, you're not one to follow in the steps of the herd. No sir. You do your own thing and trust your gut on important matters. Lucky for you, it's usually spot on. And that's what makes you such an awesome addition to the OC or any scene. So, keep staying true to yourself. You're sure to be a star.


how cool is that?!!loveee him!




hiieeee.im so bored.i feel so sick.dunno why.maybe it's cos tmr my mum's gonna go schh.wimme!haiish.she wants to see mrs chee.like what the hell is wrong with her.my chem is perfectly fine.urrgh.hrrmp.she doesnt ever trust me.just cos i did sth wrong.hey i changed ready kay.im not like tt nimore.haiz.ok anyway.yest i felt like crying in the audi.how could she?there must be really something going on.i cant stand it.she's all over him.being a bitch right.maybe they're together.god knows.then today.in the assembly plaza.they had to stand together.maybe he isnt.she's just gatal-ing around.it's really irritating k.i know he doesnt belong to me.but it really hurts to see someone being chased by another girl when you're so in love with that person.haiiizz.she's making it too obvious already.she wants to be part of him.i know that.like who can resist him.haha.ok.wrong choice of word.but he's cute.and im so in love with him.i've never been in love with anyone like this.my first time.heehe.but i just hope that one day my dreams will come true even though i know that it wont.haiz.love you dearrie.haaaaaa~
today i left really early after school.my sis msged me when i was in english class.she wanted my popular card.so i had to meet her.she asked me to meet at 215 and told me not to be late.but guess what.she turned out to be late.moron.so i went popular first.bought some necessary stuff.ahahkz.shhhhhh......haha.then after 200 yrs.she came.then the book she wanted to buy was out of stock.so then she had to meet the bf.she didnt tell me.then we went to the mrt and he was there.i was totally freaking out.in an awkward position.but he'll be in the train laa.so it doesnt really matter.cos we're going in opposite directions.she's going to redhill with him to watch some match.so yeap.so i mad my way home all alone.in my own lil world.wondering.thinking bout stuff.hmmmmm.i just realised sth.i havent talk to him for so long.one week.a record huh.haha.im so gllad.
holidays are here.there're so much of work to do.i dont think it's suppose to even be called holiday.we end up stressing ourselves out.haiish.ok.im gonna do some stuff.to get me out of this boredom shitty.
here i am.once again.im torn into pieces.
i wish you'd notice me.say hi or what.but that never happen.




heeloo!hellooo!HOLA!.haha.im in such good mood today.god knows why.today started pretty agressively.early in the morning my mum was being so paranoid.rushing me and all.hey.i dont like to be hurried k.anyway.mdm nora came 1 period late for english.pretty cool.got to catch up some stuff with some ppl.hmm.then had pe.FUN!haha.we played captain's ball.3e vs 3f.they sorta like won.in a way.they were like very violent.not say violent.but.hmm.dunno oso.but we had fun didnt we?haha.then had geog elec.suckkaaay.dont likkeee.had the stupid.stoopid quiz.dumb man.errm.we watched this video during ss.so scary k.about that hitler guy.he's so violent.yet clever.he's like.whoooaa.so meeaanniiiee.dont looiikkee.haha.the body were just like thrown into this thingy.over 30000 ppl were killed within 2 days.pure torture right.uurgh.giving me goosebumps.yuuckk.anyway.there wont be chem remedial!yay!haha.dunno why im happy bout it.feel so goooddyy.heehhee.after school.i was in total lost.had english enrichment.lasted until 5.quite fun la.despite the fact that i had a gay behind muua.ok.im mean.so ANYWAAY.went straight home.booriinng.and i didnt even noe he was behind me.i was in total shock k.there were many many butterflies in my stomach.haha.haizz.but he left so sooon.cos...ehheeemmmz....so yea.and btw................

HAPPYY BIRTTHHDAY GLOORIIEEE!!!haha.im so nice k.haha.love yaaa~
ok then.im so tired.my body's aching.haiish.byyyeeeee.nitey nitee.
miss ya.when will be the next time we talk in person?i wonder..................




waaaah~so long never post anything.haha.havent been using the comp much.i've been going out.and my bro has been home.that lazy bum.heehz.let's update on what happened a few days ago.hmmm.
friday.
went to sch!didnt felt like going but ya.first two periods suppose to have bio but we had ft admin period.so we missed bio.and today no school.miss bio again.and friday there's parent teacher meeting.so AGAIN!no bio.fuun!haha.anyway.after school.had guides.boring kays.cos im not part of the dance group.so i didnt even do anything.they should have said sth like those who's not in the dance no need to come or what.stoopid.so i basically didnt do nithing.waste my time.but the dancers were GREAT!anyway.after taps.they still continued practising.i was with divya.then she realised that she didnt have the conductor's file.so she searched for mr wee.then went to the erm.dunno what room.it's so isolated.i mean that area.sppoookay.haha.then waited for them until like so laate!!my gawd.so then.they came down.and suhailah realised that someone stole her hp.she was like crying and screaming.so poor thing.then we managed to calm her down and stuff.then i called singtel for her.and everything ended like 645 i tink.so then we went out of the school.i was totally rushing.cos i had to go home and pack my stuff.cos i was gonna go msia.that's what i thought anyway.then the bus came super late.ryan was totally pissing gloria off.so funny.haha.we were actually laughing instead of siding gloria.ahahaha.he can really make someone go crazeeeee.haha.then in the bus.after divya left.suhailah came and sit wimme.then she was like saying so nicely.like.erm she was thanking me for what i did for her and all.so sshwwweeeeet.hhaha.what are friends for right?hee.so i went interchange.surayya called.she's also going msia.[btw my aunts.cousin.dad. are the ones going.] so i talked to her for quite some time.errm.then came home at 830.i was so blooody tired k.i couldnt do anything.took my bath.was thinking whether to go or not.i didnt feel like going.cos i came home so late.imso tired.i haven pack my bag.and im suppose to wake up the next day at 4am.what kind of retardedness.i hate waking up early.and i planned to use the weekend to catch up on my sleeping time.hrrmmpph.so guess what.i didnt go.yepz!
saturday.
woke up late.haaaaa.nice feeling.haha.didnt have any plans to go out.then my mum asked whether i wanted to go ikea.so fun.haha.she wanted to buy furnitures.so then.my bro came with us.cos he's the one driving and he knows the place.i didnt tink that my bro could be that fun.haha.he irritate the hell out of me.haha.but he's so fun to go out with!haha.so then we bought furniture.lamp.niceeee!haha.wanted to buy more stuff but my bro couldnt wait any longer cos we were taking too much time.haaissh.then in the car.my aunt called.and asked us to meet her in tm.so we went ar.went shopping!!my bro dropped us there btw.so i bought shoesss.haha.clothes.it's really nice to go out with someone who has money.muaahahha.haha.then came home at around.erm.10 plus.i tink.oh yea.saw akhil.dont tink he saw me tho.then.my mum asked whether i wanted to go johor that night.which means.like around 11.i was okay with it ar.but we are going johor the next day oso.so decided not to.
sunday.
my mum was bugging me at 7!!!what the hell????!i was trying to sleep.she wanted me to wake up.cos going kota tinggi in johor.i dont lyke.didnt wanna go.but my fucked up older sis.fakely said that she was going.so i was like okay la.i shall go.so when my younger sis heard that i was gonna go.she wanted to go oso.so everyone was gonna go.UNTIL.my mum.younger sis and me.went down.cos my aunt was already waiting.and when i went in the car.i asked where my older sis was.she was like.she's not coming!!!i freaked out k.how was i suppose to survive with my younger sis.i seriously felt like a loser.my gawd.and my older sis did that because she wanted to teach me a lesson.fuck her lesson laaaa!blardy biatch.urrgh.so anyway.went kota tinggi.so boring k.i wasnt even gonna soak in the water.no point coming.kota tinggi is the place where there's the air terjun.erm.waterfall la.the big big one.but who cares.there were like lotsa ppl.half of them were sporeans.haiish.i hate to go msia.the ppl like to stare.what's their prob man.never see a girl before or what.losers.hrrmp.anyway.me and my younger sis were talking.[quite nice to talk to her.hehhe.]then there was 3 guys.they came sat around us.and they were like.you'll from spore ar?gosh.i was like totally ignoring them.seriously freaaakayy.and they didnt stop.i was gonna cry.haha.so anyway.we left at around thrreeee.then went to city square.sucha nice place.went to do abit of shopping.ate there.i ate chicken chopp.yummmmmy.haha.then we went to pray.then walk2 around.then went home.reached home at around 9.me and my younger sis wanted to get back at my sis.that bitch.so i went to my mum and asked her whether she was gonna tell my dad bout her bf.and my bro also came along and we were sorta like discussing stuff.so my mum's gonna tell.oh goody!ha.she'll die.my dad's coming home tonight i tink.cant wait.woohoo.that bitch gotta suffer.but im scared if she try to get back at me by telling my dad that i've been talking to ehheeeem.then surely diieeee.=/.but i told ehheeemm.that i didnt wanna talk to him nimore.so annoying.gossh.so yea.i went to sleep early.soo tired kay.today got despo housewives.yay.haha.hafta memorise that geog crapshit.hopefully mrs choi doesnt come tmr.dont wanna memorise!!!haaiz.okok.i took so long to blog.haha.gootta go.ciaaoo.
smile like you mean it.




good morning ppl!!~haha.i didnt go school today.yay.haha.i woke up late.and i couldnt be bothered.cos there're only 2 toilets andmy bro has to werk.so we'll be rushing.i dont like to rush.so yea.i told my mum there's nothing in school.haha.so i slept.then woke up again at 11.heehe.i didnt know it was already so late.then i msged kavina.she's having free period now.so i'll be going school at 230.haaish.that's cos i have the erm.dunno what leadership thingy.kinda crap.i noe.so pathetic.and it's until 6.it starts at 4.hrmmph.
anyway yest was kinda boring.tuessdayy.in the morning i could get my hair into place even though it was messy.heeehz.then had english.it was more of like free period.cos we didnt have to do anything.i was scribbling on my organiser.pretty!hahaa.hmm.then i had pe.didnt do anything either.went to be gym.had fun!haha.and after that was goeg elec.mrs choi didnt come.so again it was free period.how niccee~hmmmz.then recess.after recess.had ss.went through our paper.i passed!then at the same time got our geog elec back.didnt do too well.haaaiz.then had physics.another disappointment.then it was chem.so yea.
i hate it when ppl brag.im not pointing at anyone.but im saying it in general.i mean like.you dont hafta brag.esp when your friend or what did worse.then what would the other person feel.seriously.like if you're happy bout your marks.go home and scream at the top of ur voice lah.you shouldnt like talk bout it.or tell everyone.=/.urrgh!~so yea.
dissappointed.how could you not?i was expecting it to happen.




im so glad to be back in sch.not that i like getting back my shitty marks.just that i love to see my frenz again.after the so called 'long holiday'.but then again.i'd love to wake up late.sleep late.that kinda thing.hmm.today is just a bad day for me.i woke up 5 mins late.then i was a bit late.cos my hair was terribly screwed.i could get it in place.then i combed my hair in the car.no mirror.in total darkness.sheesh.then when i came to school.went straight to the toilet.saw maira there.urm.then i gave up so i changed my parting.lol.no wonder i looked like a clown.so it was raining so heavily.the wind obviously spoilt my hair.i totally give up man.i didnt care.so in the morning.before assembly.went 3c.divya.shermaine.n maria was there.before i knew it.he was behind me.bad bad day.im starting to hate him now.no.i dont hate him.more like dislike him.haha.after what happened.i still dont know whether it's true or not.i hope not.it'll be too disgusting.haha.you know what i mean.anyway.got back my e maths.so bloody shitty.so disappointed.sheeeeesh!i just hate myself.i tot i was gonna make my mum proud for like the first time.haiz.so then after that was class photo taking.haaaaiiizzz.my hair was already screw.i didnt know how it looked like k.sucky.the fun shot was sorta sweet.that's what i tink.cos i was with hennzie and kaviwavi.haha.after that was english.i was gonna cry when i got back.it's like if i really fail the whole thing.ya'll wont see me next year man.haiz.after english was bio.my gawd.i screwed it up too!damm la.i hate myself.hmmph.errrrrm.then after recess was a maths lecture.when i got back a maths.i wasnt suprised ar.cos i know i was gonna fail anyway.at least not an f9.so glad.haha.hmm.then got back malay.i actually got what i expected.but my karangan sorta suck.and my bina ayat oso.darn it la.i cant wait for jc.then can drop.yay!~haha.seriously.i hate malay.after malay was chem.got back oso.1 more mark k.it's so annoying.but then again.i didnt expect to get that kinda marks.i expected to get lower.cos it was the last paper and i couldnt be bothered to really study.so anyways after school.waited for maria.with divya and shermaine.when she came we went straight out.i couldnt be bothered to even look at him.hrrrmph.anyway we got the bus on time.then went to make divya's ic.so fast.then we went bk.i ate hershey's pie.sure to get fat.no wait.im already fat.i seriously hafta do sth bout it.heehez.anyway around 415 we went back.took 197 to interchange.in the bus i was damn sleepy k.haha.we were deciding on what name to give divya's teddy.we wanted harold.but divya wanted harvey.maria was being her crazee self.she wanted mr norman.pathetic la.i was already sleepy.haha.
yest.sundaaay.was sorta nice.woke up at 10.ate ate.watch tv.then took bath.everything la.blah.blah.then watch tv.sheesh.i've never watched so much of tv.haha.then suddenly like my door bell rang.we werent expecting anyone.so me and my sis made our way to our room.haha.we do that all the time.so anyway.it turned out that my aunt jemput us for the wedding.that wedding in june.then my egoistic cousin was there.it was like whole family ah.her mum was staring at me like what se.idiot.she has something against me.seriously.maybe it was cos i was wearing this tight shirt.but cmon.u always have sth against me.and she's the reason for us not moving back to the old house.how unfair is that?i seriously hate her.on that wedding im gonna dress up prettyly and make sure her jaws drop until like what.bitch k.at first i salam her.but when she was gonna leave i couldnt be bothered.i mean if you cant treat me properly why should i even respect you.urrgghh.bloody bitch.whore.whatever.i cant believe i actually hate my aunt.but she just gets on my nerve.and she was the cause of everything.from me chatting with hashir to her ruining my mum's life.she's a wicked witch in every girl's nightmare.she doesnt treat her daughters well.she has so many of them.must have fucked alot.uurrggh.ok whatever.anyway surayya actually said that now im tembam and fat.i was like so hurt.but i didnt show it.how could she?she just wanna ruin my life.ass.hrrmmphh.so anyway when they left.i was seriously glad.then i watched malcom in the middle.lol.and miss match.then when my dad came home.he asked us whether we wanted to go to this syarahan at masjid alkaf.is that how u spell it?anyway it was really interesting ah.the speaker was this man.who used to be a priest.then he studied islam and all.and thought of converting to muslim.but the other monks or whatever u call them.didnt approve so he was sent to the mental hospital.so poor thing.haha.then after three mths.he went back to msia.then he asked the chief and stuff.or what laahh.then he converted.so cool right.esp when he's like nigro.haha.he's sorta like from south africa.or what la!he speaks german.so when he gave the talk he was speaking in english.ahahkz.so after the syarahan.i was outside waiting for my dad.and i saw mud and b.mud's so skinny k.btw mud's my sis's bf and b's her ex.haha.then i was msging mud.and he was layaning me.and my sis obviously saw.she got jealous.sorry la.but whatever right.she's so insecured.i cant stand it.anyways after that we went to bedok corner foodcourt.i used to go to that place last time.but it was like kampong type ar.now they renovate ready.so my mum ordered satay.and some other food.i didnt wanna eat after what surayya told me.hmmph.then my mum went to tell my dad what she told me.and he was like you sont listen to this kinda nonsense.i mean you're tall and stuff.he actually made me feel better.heehez.now i tink i talk more to my dad.i used to not communicate with him at all.niccee~anyway i reached home around 11.hmm.
i dont know whether i should continue loving you.




life sucks geddit??!!?!sheeeeeesh!why does it hafta suck so much?im suppose to be happy cos exam's finally over but it's more like im suffering.
anyway i had chem paper on wed.wasnt easy.it was okay.i just hope i'll pass.anyway after the chem paper.we hafta wait for si xuan.cos of some election thingy ar.then left sch at around 1035.then went bugis.we wanted to watch movie.but bugis so pathetic.got 3 movies only.crapness.then we ate in long john.the woman there is sorta like retarded.ok maybe that's a bad word.no i mean she's nice and all.but.urrgh.nehmind.so after eating.we went og.then had to pass this place arh.it's not really isolated.but damn freaky.i saw this woman.she was like praying or what ah.so i asked maria what she was doing.and it turned out that she was chanting.spooky.haha.urm.then went og.there were many many shoes!bags!clothes!haha.it's like paradise.no wait.it's not.mid valley mall in kl is paradise.it's so huge.ahahkz.but the price is same as sg ar.everything is ex.but i love that place!!heehex.erm.then after that we went bugis junction.then.took neoprints!wheezeee~haha.niceeee!im waiting for SOME ppl to scan it.haha.so anyway i saw my younger sis there.mrayap only se.urrm.then window shop.there were lotsa nice stuff.but i didnt have enough cash.ahakz.then we left at around 315 cos divya and shermaine and si xuan had to be home.we took 197.it was like so funny.ahhaha.we took pics in the bus.then divya had to sit with this indian guy.hahaha.so scary.cos he was smiling to himself.seriously.must be something wrong with him.hhaha.we were talking bout lotsa stuff.really nice.should have that kinda thing like more often.haha.then at night.i watched amazing race.my gawd.rob and amber didnt win.i was really expecting them to.retardedness laaaa!so sad.=(.haha.then i couldnt sleep.stayed up until around 1.was chatting with mud.and idris.idris has no life.freaking basturd.he has like dnt the next day and he stayed up.erm.mud asked me to change.i mean my attitude and stuff.do i really have a bad attitude.it's like sometimes i just want things my way.too bad for him and everyone else.sheeeesh.so sickening.hrrmph.

thursday~i woke up at around 10.haha.i had sucha nice time man.haha.then when i woke up.everyone was gone.no i mean my sisters.too bad they had sch.then my bro havent come home yet.cos night shift.my dad went to work.my mum went to the market.haha.then i ate breakfast.CLEANED my room.how nice.haha.i cleared my books.they were so messy.haha.then i got ready and stuff.then went out with ma mummy.SHOPPING!i cant bring anyone else cos she's the one with money.heehz.so like we went bugis.AGAIN.then went banquet to eat lunch.after that went og.SHOP!!bought quite a lot of stuff.not really la.but still.there were too many shoes.but not reeally my type.so i didnt buy shoes.so sad.erm.there werent like my proper kinda clothes oso.like duh.i wear tudung.ehemz.hehez.i bought a belt.and some other stuff.my mum wanted to buy a handbag.then changed her mind.cos she couldnt decided.that guess bag is soooo nice.haha.the levis one too.i'll just hafta save up.hmmph.then we went to the shops around there.disgusting man.haha.no really.it's more of like a cheena kinda shopping area.ew.haha.then my mum wanted to go arab street.cos she tinks my type of clothes are there.pathetic se.i got damn pissed.like hell no.urghh.then she wanted to drink this so called famous tea there.so we sat down.i didnt want la.then we were talking2.and she was asking me to change.pathetic sia.hey i dont need it.two days in a row.i dont see anything wrong wimme kay.hrmmph.then went to this shop.everything was so ex.then got this two datins who came.so cool.haha.so then went bugis juntion.walk2 around.i wanted to buy a wallet.went wallet shop.bought this wallet ah.niicee~haha.then came home.watched first mums.eh i want a baby bro!ahaha.i told my mum that and she was like so you're expecting me to get pregnant.ew.haha.i want her to adopt.now got so many teens like have sex.hahaha.lameee!but ya.i want a baby bro!so anyways i watched the oc and small part of one tree hill.niceeee.went to sleep crying.=/
today!!had some guides thingy.dance shitto.woke up at 8.while changing.eheemz.he called.basturdd.like whatever.early in the morning already im like so pissed.all your fault.should have just said her name.anyway i could figure out who.im not that stoppid.it was really heartbreaking.i was on the verge of crying.hrmmph.so that explains why my life sucks.partly.haiz.why does this hafta suck.it's always like this.why cant i love.admire.stare. at him in peace?this just sucks doesnt it.my life's already so fucked up.i just wanna cry.you dont expect me to cry everyday right.haiz.you may see me in sch.like so happy and stuff.but that's not who i am when i get home.ok i shall not continue on this or i'll start crying.anyways.after the guides thing.we were listening to cheryl's mp3.so cool.haha.chayana and maria were lovin the candy shop song.so disgusting.haha.i hate that song.erm.then we all went parkway.as in me maria suhailah chayana and gloria.chayana's just so funny la.we went ice lemon tee.i bought this a bracelet for myself.earrings for maria.and ehem*ehem for divvzzz~haha.then went banquet.just to realise that we arent hungry.haha.so we bought erm.ice kacang with blueberry thingy on top and the other one got strawberry.was huuggee.hahaha.shared among the 5 of us.it was seriously crappy kay.haha.then we walked2 ard.then went home.nice~
shattered.torned.heartbroken.hmph.




helloo...im so bored now.just had malay paper.wasnt that hard.wasnt that easy oso.was okay laaa.do-able.anyways a maths was a killer.it was quite tough and i lost 15 marks.retarded.and for those of you who didnt know yet.this is an official annoucement: s.h.M.d.s.rawks big time and it consists of si xuan.me.maria.divya.and shermaine.yep2.it's like two group of bestest buds merging.okay.maybe merging is not the word.haha.lameness.hmm.just now went home with shermaine n maria.imran's so stoopid.he put the.uhhh.that thingy u step on and it'll explode.lols.yep.and luckily i saw it man.and ahmad was nicely laughing.this is what i call retarded 2dEE guys.they never change.last night i watched desperate housewives.very funny.before that someone told me some good news.im so glad.but i shall not be too happy bout it.might not be true.today im like so happpyy!haha.some ppl shud noe why.i just realise something.i cant look at him straight in the face.haha.really k.it's like so wierd.i've never felt this way about someone before.seriously.it's really long huh.but still the sparks arent there.shit.i need tha clean my room.so crap.if i come home later.my mum would have made my bed and stuff.haiishh.but then again i shouldnt really make use of my mum.im going shopping with her on thurs.cant wait.then maybe friday i'll go out with han or what.no plans yet.just a thought.exams not over yet.i hafta realise that.look at what im doing now.haaaaaii.i just want chem to be over.there're so much to study.i haven started.tys oso never do.this blog is making me bored.btw our anniversary is on the 3rd.tt's like si xuan's and divya's bdae.
last friday we went out.as in s.h.M.d.s.went mac to eat.then went to buy maria's mom a mothers' day prezzie.so cute.then divya and shermaine had to leave.i seriously dont understand their mums.like must give abit of freedom right.but it's ok.anyway maria oso went la.si xuan didnt wanna go home yet so we walked around parkway for awhile.then decided to go bugis.she's so farnii la.i cant believe how close we are now.she's like my les partner.haha.we were laughing at almost everything.oh ya and i saw filza.she wasnt tt frenly.but at least i said hi.hmmmmz.then i had to top up my card.saw atiqah.so long nvr see her.her hair soo long!haha.she used to have such short hair.erm.then i persuaded si xuan to take train wimme.i used my sweet talking skills.ew.hhaha.then we dropped at eunos.i waited and waited for her bus with her.then waited for my bus.sucha long day.dont feel like studying.
the weekends i was sorta like studying.but nothing was going in.i wanna go shopping!!!!!so long never go.but i need money.any kind soul out there?care to gimme cash?ahakz.hafta ask frm my mummmyyy.i wanna go town tmr.so long never go.but dunno ar.the rest dont wanna go.haiz.i wanna watch movie.anyone wanna come?lols.im seriously bored right.k la.gotta go clean my roomie.alright.TAAAAAZ!~
cant live a day w/o you.how am i suppose to even try to forget you.hmmmmpphhhhh.