boo!havent been blogging.my brother has been home for the last god-knows how many days.and it's annoying cos other ppl wont be able to use the comp.hai.so erm, a lot of things has happened ever since i last blogged.uh.as usual right.lets see.it has been a tough week.had some misunderstandings with my dear granz.but nah.it didnt last.haha.that's US.we overcome things no matter what.i tink.haha.it didnt even last for a day.which was good.then there was nowrin's heaven.it is paradise!seriously.no kidding.the swimming pool is just great!and the clown.haha.the gym.the grass.the houses.the pond.the security guard!!!haha.that was funny stuff la.im so going back there!after our sentosa trip.but i'd rather go there.but if sandhya insist.sandy wants her sandy beach!haha.okk.we had the stewpidest games carnival.but it was kinda fun.there was the band.our class runners.there was some class spirit.even though we didnt manage to beat 4J, we were quite happy.anyway they're such rough players.so whatever.and fatin, chill!haha.she was cursing stephen(or whatever his name is) like crazee.i was quite shocked by the no of F words that came out.so now we know fatin's true colours.heh heh.=P.then after the whole thing.some 4E peeps took pics!the first one was okay.but the jumpin' one was quite retarded.haha.then this whole lot of girls went to buy bubble tea!there was fatin, shermaine, dora, gloria, sandhya, chayana, divya, maria, suhailah.the journey in the bus was soo freaking hilarious!haha.seriouss!!!fatin is a blonde.dora is a meaniee.shermaine and i are irritants.ok not really.we were just irritating fatin in a childish but FUN way.then i asking glors bout her baptising session or whatever you call that.tell me how it went glorrrss!hehe.=).we made so much of noise!damn.and when we got down some old hag were like shaking their heads.but whatever.haha.then again, our school's reputation!ahaa.i was walking when sandhya asked me to walk closer to her.so i was kinda confused.then she whacked my arrssee!!!!!hahaha.im still gonna get your bumm!=p.then after we bought, SCG went macs or sth.and the rest went to the bustop.i took a 15.went home.was reading while listening to my mp4.kinda productive right?ha.i finished reading the book!!gloria!it's nice la idiot.haha.even though it's full of sexual desires.and feelings, emotions.it just shows that you shouldnt fall deeply in love with someone.cos you wouldnt know when he'll leave.haii.thats sad.i didnt want the book to end.it's too nice.on friday, i didnt do anything much.had tuition.then lazed around.continued reading my book.then was too tired.so i slept.it didnt even occur to me to call or msg him.good.good.haha.

look, im trying to give you your space now.what do you mean by not letting you live your life?i still dont get it.why are you doing this?so now it's okay to lose a close friend?i didnt EVER faked my closeness with you.NEVER.maybe you felt that way.i didnt.i dont get this part.in the beginning, why didnt you talk to me?the way friends are supposed to open up.why did you just act it out?cos i was clueless bout the whole thing.i admit that it's my fault.but really, i didnt take it for granted.i just assumed you wanted to do all those.but hey, i was wrong.the least you could have done was to talk to me bout it.haii.nehmind.it's all over.im not asking for anything much.i just want us to start over.i know it's hard.esp with o levels and everything.but at least acknowledge my presence.im trying to accept facts now.but i dont tink it's impossible for us to be close again.really.it's just up to you whether you want to put all these behind and start anew.i know it's hard.damn right it is.but hey, no point keeping that feelings in you forever right?and it doesnt matter if you choose other ppl over me.but i just want to feel that sense of belonging again.cos right now, i feel lost.

you will never appreciate things until it's gone.

LOVES,




strength.
everything's changing.everyone's changing.yep.kinda sucky.esp when it's olevels this year.i dont know why im blogging.but heck.anyway had guides on friday.it was okay.considering the fact that we were released at 515.=).the sec 4s are gonna have this personal grooming course.how cool right?they're(or whoever.) are gonna teach us how to apply light make-ups, make-ups for certain occasions.ah.how fun.first time, im actually looking forward to sth that has to do with guides.haha.oh.i had malay oral.kinda like screw it upwadd`ya expect.it's MALAY!i was reading the passage halfway and stteewwpid mohd had to come and spoil everything!ugh.but i continued reading..after he left, cikgu ismail was like, "oh, finish ready ah?"..!!..=/..my mum just got her $600 from the gov or some shit.so she went shopping with my sisters.without me!not like as if we always go shopping.and they came home, telling me how it went.what they bought.i dont give a damn!hrmpph.then after awhile.i asked my mum how much is my budget.cos my sisters spent like ALOT.and my mum said.."i dunno..i spent quite a lot today." i stared at her.hard!..then just walked off.it's so annoying when you arent treated the same way.just cos im the middle child.get a freaking life k.but seriously, middle child is always deprived of the good things in life.so then my mum came up to me and she said,"we'll go shopping next week."..the damage is done mother!so ANYway..tmr is my dad's bdae..and my mum bought him this wallet.and a card.all of us are gonna write in it..i tink..then maybe later we're gonna have ice cream at swensens..or something!..orite then.ciao!
i like guys with a sexy voice!haha.that was so random!
smile like you mean it.