October 20, 2006
it sucks that today was officially the last day of secondary four.which also mean the last day of our secondary school life.well, sorta.it's sad.im sure everyone else felt that way.i already felt really sad last night.i mean, i cant bear to part with those ppl who left a great impact in my life.they're such loving and most caring people i've ever known.and to think bout it, it is during these four years that i really knew the meaning of true friendship and that i went through thick and thin with them.tears were shed.there were laughters.and everything, everything has ended.from boring physics lesson to the most exciting chem practicals.goshh.just thinking bout it is gonna make me cryy.it's not only sec 4.there were some funn moments in sec 2 tooo.i think the feeling is the same when i had to leave 2dee.the crazee-ist class ever.but to me, sec 4 means that you're leaving everyone.not only those in your class.and that farking sad.english lesson was pretty emotional when mrs koh made her farewell speech.i mean, you'll never ever meet teachers like these again.they're soo dedicated.they put in their 110%.esp mrs chee.she made chemistry funn.and she never fails to be there for you in times of need.haiizz!ok so, physics was pretty slack cos mrs quek left halfway and the whole class was basically taking pics and chilling.i didnt go for malay.was in the library.writing farewell msgs.ohh, divya gave me a cardd for my bdaY.and guess what!she made this whole page thingiee full of PAUL TWOHILL.im so in love with it.heehee.cuteeee.i loiike!ok ya so anyway.we had to go to the audi.had some talk.then went back to class.saddest moment everr.got our report books.before i left, i hugged fatin.damn, she made me cry.i didnt want to let go.it's pretty sad.i mean really.i hugged shermaine.she's so cute la.she was crying too.then i hugged divya.cant imagine where we'd be next year.and kavinaa.she cried and cried.goosh.so emotional.but it really was sad.jitrui was walking around distributing tissues.haha.but i guess, good things come to an end.and this is the end of secondary school.but that doesnt mean we'll lose touch right?never ever ever.but the good and the bad times will be missed.hmphh.okay to those people(you know who you are) we'll partay after o's.never lose touch cos if you do, i'll haunt you in my sleep or smthg.ok random.you've made a great impact in my life and i dont wanna ever lose y'all.precious love.mwahh.mwaahhh!Friends Forever.
HER SCREAMS BEING HEARD AT [ 9:28 PM ]
October 19, 2006
Hurt
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you.....
HER SCREAMS BEING HEARD AT [ 4:03 PM ]
October 17, 2006
im bored.sometimes too much of studying can kill you.but i havent really3 been studying.just here and there.today's tuesday.it doesnt feel like, really.i dont know mann.it kinda suck that time is flying soo fast.before we know it, o's will be over.i dont want to to actually.in fact, i dont even want it to start.i need like, a month or two more before i can actually sit down in the examination hall and do the papers.gosh.im bullshitting too much.sorry.must be the haze.and im sick cos of that!how pissing off.my throat hurts!my tongue hurts!(dont ask!)haha..so yeah..im hungrryyy.one more week till hari raya..goshh..im waiting man..i cant study with the haze..with 12hrs without fooood..now i know and understand how ppl in africa or wherever third world country are like feeling and all..i went for the mj open house last friday..i didnt see much hot guys..until divya pointed out like one or two..haha..but still..the guys there are shortt..un-funn..ok whatever..that is not why i went for the open house okay..i wanted to see the school..(riteeee..) saw a few tksians..tkgians..and a whole lot from other schools..it's making me think that mj is like another tk..in a way, i want it to be that way but then again..it's soo manjan-fied..haha..and to think bout it, i dont even know i can get like below 15 pts..will blog some other time..probably after o's..or in the middle when im truly truly stressed..till then..Good Luck for the O's people!Loves!
HER SCREAMS BEING HEARD AT [ 4:52 PM ]
October 9, 2006
soo..i just turned 16..feels great..haha..though not much of a difference..hehe..but anyways..friday was the best day of my life..okay not exactly but i think it's the bestest bday..i woke up around nine..didnt want to go sch..haha..then i met fatin, emilla and shermaine at marine parade lib around 12 smthg..she actually had to go home..but thanks to me..i forced her to come..so all three came..but anyways we did out work till around three smthg and emilla realised that she had to buy some milk for her kitty..haha..okkk..so erm..we went parkway.that was when i decided to have a haircut..so then the rest went to mph while i went to the Xtreme salon to trim my hair and then straightened it..turned out niceee..my girls patiently waited..haha.cmon, it's the bdaY girl man..haha..then it was getting late..was already around 5 smthg..so they went to meet suhailah and i went to alisa's house to get dressed there..she took damnn long okay!and i realised my slippers were at glorie's house..so i had to walk bare footed to the bridge..grrr...i was all dressed and BARE FOOTED..so unglam..haha..met gloria there and we raced to meet those who were waiting for mee at the turkish restaurant..fatin, emilla, suhailah, ahmad, imran, henry and arron were there..was kinda surprised that the guys actually turned up..then erm, we had to rearrange the tables so that all of us could sit together..had dinner..toook pics and stuff..was nicee..then sandhya and henna camee..took more pics..then we were off to the beach..wheee..oh oh..while walking there..we passed the turkish restaurant..so the girls dared me..or some sort to wave at the turkish dude in that restaurant..hahaha..i gave that cheeky smile and waveedd!haha..was so embarrassing!!i couldnt look at him..gosshh..according to them, he was blushinggg..ehehehee..i made a guy blush..thats one accomplishment..haha..so we went to the beach and the guys were somewhere..henna and i decided to get fire crackers!haha..was fuuunn!my sisters and mahmud came..they gave me myy prezzie..hugged..haha..then the guys came back and my sisters and mud went to eat..we played with the fire crackers thingiie..it was quite a success cos we couldnt light the freaking thing at first..thenn..those evil blondiess decided to give me my bday bash which was sooo not needed okay!haha..i started running when they were about to pour water on me..like hello?MY HAIR!hahaha..so i ran..and made a turn at the turkish restaurant..saw the guy again..was totaallyyy embarrassed!haha..but anyways then fatin called..she told me they werent gonna mess with me..LIAR!!i went there..and guess what?they were actually holding me and i was struggling..i felt so helpless okay..then ahmad(grrrrrrr!!) poured a cup filled with water on me..i was soaking wet..but nooooo..that wasnt it..gloria came with a cup filled with salt water and sand and all those disgusting shit..she splashed it on me..is this your revenge for the 24th may 2004 gloriieeee??????haha..then faizal came with coke..that was the worst okay..haha..ermm..then after awhile some had to leave..ppl like..suhailah, chayana, fatin and emilla..yep..so it was left with me, gloria, henna, ahmad, imran faizal..sandhya and alisa went somewhere..so then..ahmad, faizal, gloria and imran were sitting down under some tree..and the guys were playing some lame game..ahmad taught me how to play so i decided to join..haha..it was funn..ok not exactly but ya..haha..then..henna had to leave..i sent her in the bicycle..i almost hit a baby in a stroller..haha..then i went back there..and all of us decided to play dognbone at the beachh..the remaining ppl were me, glorie, sandhya, alisa, imran, ahmad and faezal..alisa was the so called judge..at first it was guys against girls but they were soo pathetic..i decided to join them and faezal joined my group..omggg..hahahaha..funny stuff happened..it was embarrassing though!gosshh..i shan elaborate..hahhahaa..so anyways we had to leave..mahmud fetched me..i went home, shagged..but it was worth it..freakinng fun ness!we'll do it more often..let's all go sentosa after o's..hows that sound??okay anywayy..i'd like to thank....(in random order)1. gloriiee-my chembabyyy!bond-er!love yaa loaaddssss.thanks for making this happen..2. fatin- my half evil sistorr..thanks for being there and making it all fun and crappy..dont know where i'd be without you meanoo!3. henna- for being there..and entertaining my crapness..we bitch together aiteee..muuacks!4. sandhya- i dont know why but she's my bitttchh.haha..the blondeee..one and only person who is lingerie obsessed!5. alisa- myy crashh partner..haha..thanks for the housee..if u know what i mean..lovee yaa..6. emilla- thanks for making the guys coorperate..you're one hell of a partyy person actually..ohh and guess what?she knowss a loottt of stuff......heh heh..7. suhailah- my malay buddy..she's the one i crap with..damn, i love to crap..okay whatever..8. imran- for actually inviting the guys..didnt know you would actually..haha..9. ahmad- sorry for the fall..sorry for the toe..is it broken?nyahahaha..thanks for cominggg!so there!my sweet sixteen just passed..will be waiting for those who are still fifteen..your bdaY bash is coming aiteeee..so likeee..yaaa..i realised i dont need people who doesnt actually appreciate my presence..they're such nuisance..on my Bday i realised how great my friends are..they're my world..muuaaackks!those who werent invited or couldnt come..im sorry..but you guys didnt miss much...ya right!!
HER SCREAMS BEING HEARD AT [ 2:08 PM ]
October 2, 2006
my uncle was featured in the sunday times.he's the terminal cancer patient.sad stuff.but i've been accompanying my mum with him to the cancer centre.i thought he was finee.he sounds fine.he acknowledges my presence.=).when you're around him, you can feel his sincerity.you know how much he loves and appreciates the people around you.for him, it's like as if his life is hanging on a thread.once it snaps, it's gone.but insyallah, he'll recover.he has the determination.i could see when i saw him the other day.i hope that whoever who's reading this, pray for his recovery.thank you.this is where they would show his video every fortnight to keep track of how he feels at this very last stage.http://lifebeforedeath.org.sg/
HER SCREAMS BEING HEARD AT [ 8:38 PM ]
