maybe now im starting to like school.ok.a teeny weeny bit.i dont know why.but ya.i just cant wait for tmr to end.seriously.i want my three days off.need to catch up on my sleeping.just now in the morning was really funny.ok now im trying to shake off my bad habit.i use too much of the word 'damn'.dont tink it's good.haha.im a good person okaay.so ANYWAY.just now i was walking past my corridor to go to the lift.then there was this black butterfly.it was flying here and there.it didnt look like a moth.so after some time it just stood at one corner.so me and my sister decided to past it.then when we ran past it.it started flying.i was screaming at the top of my lungs!haha.i tink the whole block can hear man.i just hate stuff like tt lah.insects scare the hell out of me.so yea.then me and my sister were like laughing like mad people.crazee i tell ya.hmm.something happened last night too.but i shall just keep my mouth shut.if not divya will start teasing.aint that right woman?urgh!haha.ohh.and astird is gonna bring me to the place where the sg idols are gonna act for their.emm.show.but i might have guides.hrrmph.suckss lah.i wanna go for good charlotte's concert!!it's not fairr!even if i ask my parents they wont let.so pathetic.they banned me.or any of my siblings from going to this kinda place.RETARDATION!haiiz.okkay lah.hafta go.im getting pretty bored.
where's my reply?you look like as if you dont even give a damn.bitch.




hey.urgh.have i told u how much i hate school?seriously.it sucks.to the max.it's so draggy k.i feel like today's wednesday.and i was all set to watch one tree hill when i realised that it's a tuesday.how retarded is tt???goodd.i hate it k.i cant live like this anymore.i tink im gonna migrate to some place where there isnt any education.sheeesh.but i like school expect for the study parts.haiisss.okk.went to school real early today.ok not quite but ya.my dad laa.so anyway i had english.i didnt bring tys.bloody hell.and im sitting right in front.ohh god.someone save me man.i shouldnt be sitting in front.im soo bloody tall.ahaha.no i mean really.goshh.thank god i didnt get scolding cos there were a whole lot of other people who didnt bring.those who brought were the ppl from 3a.of course la.what d'ya expect.so anyway we had pe.took height and weight.im TALL.hahaha.okk.then geog.wasnt that boring.and time flies.then it was recess.hmm.after that was social studies.i didnt bring anything.waahaha.i didnt know right.so than i had to stand at the back of the class with some other people.nani is soo annoying.i just hate her.she's.....urrgghhhhhh.soo.it was phy.again.i didnt bring anything for that and didnt get any scolding.mrs quek damn cute larr.she's pregnant.wooozz.haha.so cannot scold2.heeehe.divya told me that her husband follows her up the stairs to the staff room.aint that sweeeeet???haha.im deprived.sorry.hrrrmmm.then it was chem.it was really fun.haha.except the fact that i was daydreaming a few times and didnt catch what she was saying.so yeaap.after school.me.and the rest of my troop.ahaha.went day/night.we wanted to eat lunch there but it was too crowded.so we went caltex instead.ate cup noodles.typical us.talked.laughed.it was really fun.especially when everyone was there.it was niccee~heeee.then after we ate.left.saw DOG.ahahhaaha.we took a 31.saw tommy.we actually made him famous.wahhahaha.then went to the interchange.with divya and shermaine.sher had to go home.so i followed divya to money changer.she's rich man.urgh.haha.then she went to top up her card.so now i can sms her.at last man.hmm.then divya bought roti boy.at first i didnt want.but after tasting it.hmmm.it was nice.so i went to buy.we ate2.talked and stuff.she walked me to my bus lane thingie.what d'ya call that thing?hmm.so anyway.i saw abg pis oso.my bus came.i had to leave.sorryy darling.haha.so yeah.that was my day.and guess what?...................
s.h.M.d.s. made my day!




i just have this feeling of not wanting to go back to school.EVER.i dunno why.it's just so wierd.and i hate this feeling.but i had fun in school.teasing maria.haha.saw my girlfriends.so nice to see them after 3 weeks.anyway.i hate school.god.i cant wait for this madness to be over.seriously.3 more yrs.then university.hmm.6 yrs?ohh man.i wanna be a doctor baby.haha.ok.these are called dreams.and dreams dont normally come true.so yeaap.haha.anyway.saw alisa today.she's still a shortiiee.hahaha.i felt so tall.i am tall.sometimes i dont wish to be tall.haahaa.okok.im bored.obviously.im crapping.loads.byeeee baabbyyy.aahhaa.im nuts.ciao!




hey bloggiiee.haaaizz.i dont wanna go back to school.it's tmr.ohh mann.sucks k.i want school to end laaa.retardedness.haaiz.hate it understand?!!!urrgh.anyway i went for my cousin's wedding just now and it was nooice!haha.saw quite a lot of ppl i haven met for like ages.i saw uncle umar!he looks so different now.i kinda miss the old times.no.i reaallyy miss the old times.when mak tok was still alive.everyone else was still alive.my family has indeed lost a lot of people.two in the same year.but what can i do right?it's in the hands of god and he loves them more.so yaap.anyway.my aunt and cousin from penang came.that syukor guy.yaa.they're staying at my house tonight.hmm.just now we 'cousins' had a greeatt time man.haha.abg pis.fie.yazeed.maira.surayya.abg mat!haha.and my nices and nephew.they're so so adorable im telling ya.seriously.they're cuttiie!haaha.i dont feel like elaborating on the stuff that happened.im tired and lazyyy.haha.but i indeed had one hell of a time.oh ya.the last part.the WHHOOLLLEE biigggiiieee family took pictures with the pengantin.haaha.was so big.i tink the pelamin can roboh.haha.so we took.and the retarded cameraman asked us to wave.so everyone was like waving!!!haha.that was fun.but sad too.i miss my grannieee.haaiz.=(.okok.gotta get ready for tmr.hrrmph.somebody turn back the clock plllssss!!!
deprived!




heyy.the wedding is over.some time ago.and i still haven update.haha.ok.erm.
last friday.
woke up late.everything was like total slack cos the nikah isnt until 9pm.so ya.i didnt know what to wear.seriously.then.i got into this black suit.not suit la.haha.so anyway.i put on make up which was actually quite natural.and really nice.haaaa.my mum didnt wanna go early.like wth.i got damn pissed.so we only went after magrib.like i said.my bro drove us there.we came.kak ama looked so prettty.haha.she was actually quite stiff ar.cos cannot move and stuff.then i didnt wanna stay in the house.so went down.to the pelamin there.it's not under a block ya know.it's like just a big space.so it's better la.cos some wedding are held under the block.pathetic.i know.so anyway.we all stayed downstairs.talked.had fun.i saw him.yeah.he was alone.haaa.so anyway.we didnt get to see the nikah thingie.surayya was kinda depressed.like cmon.it's her sister's wedding.haa.poor thing.she didnt get to see.so at that time it was official lah.of course.waddaya expect right.we went home at around 11 i tink.my bro la.my guy cousins werent there so he got bored.and since he was driving we had to go home oso.it's sorta like funny.my dad didnt come.
oh yaaa.abg mekraj showed me sth.in his phone.pure grossiness.gosssh.i screamed when i saw it la.then i past him and we made eye contact.ahahha.
saturday
i woke up.my mum forced us to clean the house.that loser.urggh.if only i had a maid.but then again.i dont want any maids.blleaahh.erm.i got into my nicely custom made suit thingie.it was soooo nice.really!haha.put on make up.even nicer.then i put on my tudung.the latest trend one.was kinda cool.haha.then at around 3.we left.wait.i tink we left like later.cos my dad came with us.so like when i reached there.he wasnt around.he left.but whatever la.erm.saw surayya.she compliment on my baju.yay!haha.we were like so busy im telling ya.haha.walking here and there.oh.and btw.i hate it when ppl stare.everyone i went.there would be eyes on me.god.made me feel so pathetic.haha.then we girls went to a room.locked us up.took off our tudung.talk.aisyah was like the make up artist cos she was like touching up for everyone.haha.vain pots.btw sakeenah was there.haha.she's so adorable.aawww.we actually talked alloottt.haaa.ok.so then kak thalha came.scolded surayya for not helping out.then she had to go down and help2.she disappeared with kak muni.so i was with sakinah and aisyah.put on my tudung without the thingie.ok.whatever la.wont understand.ha.then went down.tolong2.eerrgh.gross la.then after a while.this woman pulled surayya away.so i was wth.then i was standing around when this woman.the groom's sister.came and asked me how old i was.and when surayya came back.she told me la.that this whole lots of ppl were asking her qtns.one of them was.'who's that girl in blue.'[me laa]so she said haseenah.then they asked how old.ok.here's the thing.these ppl wanna minang their kids like very fast.so they're trying to choose la.it's really lame arh.cos hey.we're still schooling.hmmpph.anyways.i took pics with the bride and groom.haaa.with surayya and kak munii la.then we left at around 11.abg zafir fetched us.was so tired k.but it was fun.it'll be years until another of this kinda thing will happen.heeehe.
sunday
we werent gonna go early for the wedding cos it's the guy's side and we're the bride's side.so anyway.i wore white.ha.i came.eyes on us again.and oh godD!!they guys were so hot im telling ya.there was this guy.her mum's eurasian.and dad malay i tink.he combed his hair like back.so he looked like a mafia!hahaha.so cutiieee.and there was surayya's bakal.haha.he's really hot.he's fair and stuff.and guess what.after surayya left.he asked for her no.how fun is that.urgh.not fair.ahaha.she's so lucky laaaa.nothing really happened la.we ate.took pics.talk.and left.but it was so soon.stoopid man.dress up so much for nothing.=/.ok.erm.so ya.after that we went home.next sunday's abg zahid's wedding.i dont lyke.cos school's starting and i must be like rushing for time.haiish.
saw yoooh.kinda cute.haaaaaa.




hie bloogiiee.haha.sooo long since i last blog.you shud be grateful gloria.haha.i dont intend to post anything on my holiday now.cos i simply dont feel like it.hmmm.today is zeee day of zee wedding.haha.im nuts.ok i cant wait to go.but then again.it's not like as if im getting married.haha.this is so annoying.the nikah is at 9pm.and my mum wants to go after magrib.but i dont wanna.i wanna go earlier.haha.ok let's talk bout yest.i woke up at 10.my mum asked me to take the baju from the tailor with my bro.since he has the car.so at around 1 we went.my bro was like rushing me.what a goonhead.so i went.and paid a huge sum of money to the woman.then went back.tried on my elegant.grand.kebaya.haha.i look so nice.not that im self praising.but it's so pretty.it's a pink satin silk with a black lace on top.how elegant.haha.so it looks like maroonish kinda thing.im so in love with it.but i wont wear THAT for the wedding.im wearing that pretty thing on abg zahid's wedding which is next sunday.the LAST day of holiday.oh mannn..=(.i hate school.haaiisshh.ok so anyway.i was slacking at home.watching this really really nice movie on hbo with a really cute guy in it.including adam brody.when my mum nicely came to me and asked me to take out the benang from her baju.the benang from the dart.ok.i dont tink anyone would understand what im talking.ahaha.k.so she asked me to take out the one in front.but me.being a day dreamer.enjoying the movie.i went to take out the one at the back.then i got one hell of a scolding.she was seriously screaming and shouting.god knows what bad words she used.haha.so then i had to go all the way to the tailor's house in pasir ris.so i went lah.cos i was gonna go surayya's house [my cuz's house.the one getting married today!].so i went with my younger sister.then after all that.i was suppose to meet my older sister at 8 but she was soo late.she came with mud.that irritating pest.haha.we waited at the bustop for his bus then went to her place.haaaaaa.the bride's room is sooooo nice.i thought i was dreaming.haha.they practically changed the whole room's setting.im sure they spent really a lot on this wedding man.then there was sakeenah!surayya's sister's daughter.she's 1 yr and 2 mths.she's so adorable.she really likes me you know.ahahaha.im good with kids you see.she looks at me with those pretty eyes and she'd just smile and laugh.giggle.whatever.so cute man.i cant wait to see her tooday.haha.and she wont cry when i carry her.hahahaha.she obviously likes me.ha.so cute la she....!!haha.so then we left the house at around 1045.my aunt sent us back.she was giving us a lecture on ugame in the car.ok.you see.she's an ustazah.she should be quite famous la.she married this man.not young.you know what i mean.he's ustat syed ahmed semait.so he's related to mee.haha.im nuts la.so crazeeeee.gosh.okok.im gonna do sth productive now.ciao!




heyy.it's midnight.haha.and im going bonkers!oh god.i have a feeling that i wont finish my hw in time.and.and.and.OH NOOO!!gosh.there's seriously sth wrong wimme.i need help.oh well.it's midnight.what d'ya expect.haha.booooo.lol.im cwazzzzee.i have done like 3 and 3/4 of the english thing.no im talking bout the newspapers.where do i get magazines man.hrmpph.stoopid laa.btw guess what.my dad postponed our bloody trip to kl.we're going on sat.five days. so i'll be back only on wednesday.and i hafta get everything really.i hafta dressed pretty-ly.hey i have pride k.haha.im nuts.it's not like as if im the one getting married.and he went to canada.he wont be there.haiz.the only reason i bought such expensive clothes for the wedding is cos of him.ok.maybe that's part of the reason.but still.ok whatever!hrmppphhh.i talked to him today.haha.like three lines only.i guess he must be tired.he'll talk to me tmr.....i hope.hmm.my bro did erm.whatever to his phone.now i hafta be the victim and lend him my phone.and today he has night shift.so like i dont have my blardy phone.=(.i wanna go shopiinngg dammit!it's the great singapore sale.and im missing half of it.cos i went on a shopping spree on the first day of the sale.wahahha.so kiasu.haha.not me kay.my mum.haha.okok.im dead tired.gonna get some sleep.then maybe go jogging in the morning.taaaaaz!nitez dearriieeesss.heehe.
loove ya.




am i a failure?i dont know.but what i know is that im turning into one.or maybe.im already one.this isnt right.seriously.ok firstly.i spolit my first week of hols.by not coming for the first aid test.i knew i should have come.and everyone passed.so now if ms ang wants me to take the test all over again.no i mean the course.i can.but i hafta pay again right?she's being selfish.i mean like she went yesterday.she should have asked me to come too.hai.but i guess.im the selfish one.i didnt go for the test.i wasnt feeling too good.cos i went for the party the night before.i could have been a good girl and stayed home and study for the test right.but i went cos i was determined to meet some ppl.hmph.so look at what's happening now.im just so disappointed with myself.am i a failure?i still dont know.yesterday ms ada tan called me to ask me to go for the cohort camp.it's a bit too late.i know.but i told her that i was gonna come too.but when i heard that kavina's not gonna go cos she is sick.i didnt feel like going.im so selfish arent i?i just think bout myself when ms tan already expect me to come.i let everyone down.seriously.why am i like this?i dont know!next is my results.how could i have done so badly.i got 29th in class.why do i hafta be so stoopid.why am i dumb?i tried so hard.i really did.why?why?why???!i dont deserve to do well?but why?i studied.i know i did.but why?why cant i do well.at least once.this is really terrible.i mean i've never done well in school.and im so disappointed.ok.i haf nothing to say bout this already.im just.hrmmph.im a screwed up girl.i tink life has no meaning for me.i have nothing to look forward to.seriously.IM SUCHA FAILURE!!!i hope that one day everything will change.for good.i hope.i dream.




hey.haha.im suddenly so hyper.i guess i dont hate him.im still in love with him.hehe.he's not exactly perfect but he's still cute.i mean he's sorta like sweet.haha.okok.i shall stop.haha.ok.ciao.love ya.heehe.




heyhey!im back.from that torture camp.or shall i say.boot camp!haha.okok.
friday
i left my hse at 1130.took a cab to the kcp bustop.then met gloria at the opp bustop.the bag was damn heavy k.i was like swaying and stuff.so when i met gloria.we just missed a 16.so we decided to take a cab.saw sophia.asked her whether she wanted to share a cab with us.but another 16 came before we could flag for a cab.so then took 16.went to school.met up with the rest of the guides.then they went to practise for their dance.i waited for divya.but she was no where to be seen.haha.then we went to 3d.to put the tables together and stuff.then divya came.she gave me some stuff.heehe.THANNKKSSS alot!!!!!really appreciate it.love ya~by 130 we went behind a-d block and assembled.had some bag check thingy.then we were practising as PLs.or whatever la.then ya.after allll that.we put our bags in 3d.and changed.most of ur were changing in class!haha.okkk.oh yea.we were separated into groups.and wei rong, qinyu and pearlyn were in my group.not fair.maria, erlina, suhailah were in the same group!haha.okk.so then we had.erm.rool call and horseshoe formation thingie.but we hafta do it ourself.without the maams.my group did with group 4.which is chayana's grp.and it consist of her, chun yin, zana, cheryl, tzu hui uhh.cant remember ready lah.so anyway.we did well.blahblah.okk.then after the whole thing.we were like so tired already.then had drills.it sucked.each of us had to be commander and timer like at least once.i didnt tink i was that soft.haaha.okk.i wasnt soft.i was like screaming.it was sorta like fun.haha.cos the whole company was divided into two.so yap.so after drills.we had sing a long.it was damn fun.haha.esp when we did the cheer.we were so united.haha.and we had to stand a few metres aways from the maams.so after we sang or cheered.if we did well.we got to move a few steps in front.so yeah.after that was dinner.thank god!i was starving.haha.but guess what.it was sucky.we sorta like had the same food as the committee.and we were about to eat when mrs tey wanted us to sit in the assembly plaza in a circle.like what the heck.so annoying right.and we had to sing.erm.some thingie song even though until now i still dont get how to sing it.haha.after that we had some attendance taking crap in 3b.i thought we were suppose to take our bath first.not fair.i was so sticky.urrghh.and that thing lasted for two hours.so after that we had supper but some of them went to take their bath first.and we had a nice chat with ms ang.she was telling us not to go on a diet cos if not then you'll become FLAT.haha.we didnt want to take our bath yet.cos there were too many ppl.esp the red cross.so irritating.then there was this girl from red cross.she was like.the guy's toilet is empty.so i took my bath there without having to queue up.so we saw all those stuffie inside.ahahha.okkk.so after that.we went back to our bunks.and had some fun.played some games.haha.fun!then we also played truth or truth.so all you hafta say is the truth.and now i know some of your secrets.but all the qtns were like who's ur first crush.or recent crush.hahah.i got that first crush.and i told then.shhhhhhh....hehe.then after a while.the maams came and asked us to sleep.i obviously couldnt sleep.so me, chayana and gloria sneaked out.we saw kavina.henna.and all those ppl lah.they were playing some games after watching shutters.haha.they were like so scared and stuff.boOoOo!!we all wanted to sneak out of sch.i didnt wanna.it was too risky.so anyway.we were talking2.we met with henna.kavina.sandhya.saira.we were sitting down at the toilet.talking and stuff.they had to go so we went back to our bunks.ate chocs.haha.and we told the rest of the peepz that we wanted to sneak out.and they[qinyu.sam.cheryl.weirong.both rachels.] wanted too!the others were nicely sleeping.so we all went to see ms ang.asked her for food cos we were hungry.haha.she gave us cookies.so we went canteen and we saw some red cross ppl sneaking out.no i mean they just came back.so we asked them how they did it.they climbed over.quite obvious lah.so we went there.chayana climbed over first.then gloria.i was next.but when i was about to climb.ms sri saw me.i was like OMMGGG!!!haha.so i came down.and everyone just ran.even chayana and gloria outside.i was gon die.haha.we were like some burglars.haha.so we went back canteen.gloria and chayana went ready ar.then we asked the red cross for coffee.and we drank.when gloria and chayana came back.we were sitting sround and stuff.it was already 3 in the morning.we decided to play street soccer!yay!hhaha.it was so tiring.we were making so much of noise k.screaming here and there.hah.by 4.we went to the canteen.took chocs.and went back to the street soccer court to talk2 and all.after awhile we went to take our bath.AGAIN.at 415 in the morning!!we got ready for pt and all.then packed our stuff.haish.then went to the canteen.talk2.but i was already damn tired k.my god.so me, gloria and chayana slept in the canteen.on the benches for half an hour.by 630.it was pt.i was so unenergize.i was gonna faint any moment.so after that was breakfast.and those ppl who were with us was halfway sleeping.zZz.we had bread for breakfast.drank milo.and after that we were going some flagpole shit.with the spas thingie.was quite fun.haha.and the drama ppl just woke up.it wasnt like camp for them.i should have joined drama.they were having so much of fun.it's not fair k.after that.we went 3c.for voting thing.for the next committee.then we had sing a long.seems like some pri 3 sing a long session.urggh.i was sleeping!!damn tired.so then.we had lunch.it was chicken rice.from the auntie from the stall.after that we had to clean up the canteen.only me.gloria.maria.suhailah and chayana.the rest cleaned the toilets and bunks.it was damn gross k.we saw henna.sandhya and saira.they were filling up bags for water bombs.it's so not fair!!!urrghh.k.then.the sec 3s went to the hal to practise dance.while practising.the sec 4s came.so they had to stop the whole thing.cos the dance was meant for sec 4s.heehe.then when sec 4s settled down.they daced.but halfway.forgot the steps!!they were doing so well.not fair.hrrmpph.so they just stopped.and they shouted.THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.waahahaha.it was sorta like sweet.hahhah.then we all sat in the hall.and it was prize presentation.the first 3 prizes were given out.i was like disppointed our group didnt win anything.then....the maam was like and the overall champ goes to group 1!!which is my group.woooohoo!haha.and by 130 we were dismissed!yayness!!!!so fun right.i was damn happiee.at last man.i was waiting for that moment.then i called my dad to fetch me.so he came.blah.blah.and i went home.the first thing i didn was to take my bath.and i slept.from 3 to 9 at night.that's like 6 hours right.haha.i wokeup so blurrr!!haha.then watched some teevee.by 10 i went to sleep again.and i woke up the next morning at 9.hhhhaaaaa.what a day!!camp suckks!