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June 7, 2005

am i a failure?i dont know.but what i know is that im turning into one.or maybe.im already one.this isnt right.seriously.ok firstly.i spolit my first week of hols.by not coming for the first aid test.i knew i should have come.and everyone passed.so now if ms ang wants me to take the test all over again.no i mean the course.i can.but i hafta pay again right?she's being selfish.i mean like she went yesterday.she should have asked me to come too.hai.but i guess.im the selfish one.i didnt go for the test.i wasnt feeling too good.cos i went for the party the night before.i could have been a good girl and stayed home and study for the test right.but i went cos i was determined to meet some ppl.hmph.so look at what's happening now.im just so disappointed with myself.am i a failure?i still dont know.yesterday ms ada tan called me to ask me to go for the cohort camp.it's a bit too late.i know.but i told her that i was gonna come too.but when i heard that kavina's not gonna go cos she is sick.i didnt feel like going.im so selfish arent i?i just think bout myself when ms tan already expect me to come.i let everyone down.seriously.why am i like this?i dont know!next is my results.how could i have done so badly.i got 29th in class.why do i hafta be so stoopid.why am i dumb?i tried so hard.i really did.why?why?why???!i dont deserve to do well?but why?i studied.i know i did.but why?why cant i do well.at least once.this is really terrible.i mean i've never done well in school.and im so disappointed.ok.i haf nothing to say bout this already.im just.hrmmph.im a screwed up girl.i tink life has no meaning for me.i have nothing to look forward to.seriously.IM SUCHA FAILURE!!!i hope that one day everything will change.for good.i hope.i dream.


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