it's really early in the morning.i didnt sleep well last night.been thinking bout stuff.awful stuff.it's just so sad.i have no idea why this is happening to me.of all people.anyway.i found out something last night.i cried like there's no tomorrow.i was seriously hurt.haiiz.and today morning then i found out the truth.my sister didnt wanna give him my no.how pathetic is that.a part of me is telling me that it's totall bullshit.but the other part is telling me that she loves me.hmpph.ya right.but they should have at least told me bout it.why does she always hafta get the guys and leave me.depressed.i know im not suppose to be in love with him.i tink im not anyway.infactuation.goshh.and i better tell my cousin that he has a gf.before she starts flirting.going gaga.and everything else.my life is just so sad.i wanna get a new phone.haiiz.i hate my mum.i dunnoo laah.who cares?