heyyyaa.i feel like blogging now.so might as well blog right.yep.i havent been blogging anyway.life has been great so far.ok.not exactly but im going to make it that way.i dont care how bad it can get.im leading my life.because im not gonna miss all the fun while it lasts.anyway.i had a talk with my mum.bout my relationship with her.how bad it's getting.but she made me cry.cos i said.my dad never ever show us his love for us.and she was like he always send u to sch.he cud have just come home and sleep.but that wasnt just it.then i said we dont ever go out as a family.then she was like.tt's cos when we go out you ppl always wanna go home.like we dont care how my dad feels la.she said my dad cant do anything.he wants us to be happy.so if going out with friends make us happy.so be it.i was like soo sad then.i didnt noe this was actually happening.and my mum told me our family secret.not really secret.but prob.and she said she didnt want to tell us so we wont be so worried.omg.it's just so sad.i cant believe this is actually happening.to MY family.so i've decided.maybe i should have a new self.like turn over a new leaf.if ya noe what i mean.heez.everyone has been lecturing me.and i guess it's time i forget the past and start to focus more on what i want.my goals.my dreams.nothing is gonna stop me.anyway i finished that book.it's soo sad.ok.im recommending all of you to read this book called Candy by Kevin Brooks.it's really nice.i almost cried.great impact on me.hahaa.didnt really expected the ending.haiish.my mum has been nice to me lately.ok.it's nice in my point of view.it might not be according to my sisters.cos my mum has been treating them fairly.but it's different for me.so yaa.i always feel like i dont belong in that family.my siblings are too perfect.does well in school and stuff.totally different from me.i did really badly for this common test.i ought to be really ashamed of myself.well.i am.i'll just hafta work towards doing well for this end of year.i better do well.i hafta pass my a maths.haiiz.can anyone help me?i really do need help.professional help that is.cos im already in such terrible state.even if i memorise the whole textbook.i wont be able to do well.helpp!!!hrmmpphh.ok.im tired.ciao!
im happy with myself.