heyya.hmm.i havent been blogging.kinda sick of everything thats happening.why do other people force you to love someone?then maybe it wont be called love.it's not fair.he's not talking to me.annoying.=(.there's sch tmr.urgh.ohh.he's suppose to go watch movie wimme!!
my happiness doesnt last does it?noo way.
i havent done malay homework.dont feel like doing.im so in the holiday mood.raye's coming!yay!ahaa.though im not really looking forward to it.cos a lot of things would be missed.dontcha think?yeahh.hrmpph.
i want you.




why does the truth hurts?why does things go the way you dont want it to?why is everyone so cruel?why do people keep things from you?
this sucks.it does.
why does wrong people fall for each other?okk.i shall just shut up.
i envy them.
i shouldnt right.
ok.whatever.
im talking shit.
urghh.gloria's gonna go in two days time.
hari raye's gonna be in about 11 days time.i tink.
i have no idea when sch's gonna end.
tk bazaar is in 3 days time and we have yet to plan a few stuff.

i miss the ol times.
they shouldnt have met.
LIARS
HYPOCRITE.
SICKOS.
MEANIES!!




heyy.im feeling kinda down right now.cos of the wonderful wonderful netball interclass.oh wow.
WE LOSTT!!!dammit.
but actually it's okay lahhh.i could see that we tried our best.esp when i played the second half of the 3d match.i was playing rough.couldnt take it la.i just cant face it.haha.we're losers.damn.and i was soo fucking pissed with clarisse.god.seriously.like what is her prob man.i just realised netball interclass always make ppl fight.tho they dont even noe each other.heeee.i guess.i shouldnt be so pissed.even tho just now i was sooo pissed with myself and clarisse that i cried.
ha!be proud girl.i cried cos of youu.urrghh.but i guess we didnt do that bad.it's just that 3d played rough.and they had good players.ashley fell twice.so unbelievable.but not fair oso arhh.im just pissed.
3ff got into the finals.quite surprisingly.but heck.cos i guess god is being fair and giving chances to those who have yet to win.so i guess.this yr isnt our luck.and that it's someone else's and that we shud be happy for them.yay!hehe.it's true.congrats 3DD and 3FF!!!you guys deserve it.
and also to keith.i tink.for making shermaine cry.haha.nono.cos of what he said and stuff which was so touching.haa.
im really tired right now.exhausted.dont tink i'll be coming sch tmr.aching all over.and i had my mum to rub my back.she thought i fell or sth.who cares!it's over now.
i was looking at the trophy we won last yr.2d'04.interclass netball.brought back those memories.nice ones.i miss you guys man!those who played.those who cheered.but most importantly.2dians.haha.if there's such a thing.lol.=)=).loovvee youuu!!
it doesnt matter whether we win or not.class spirit.=>most impt..ahaha.




im currently listening to this sad song.and thinking.haha.
do people really hate me?
haha.looks like im back to square one.and it sucks.but i dun wanna have this feeling.cos i was doing soo well.unfair.doing well as in.not doing.erm.that thing.shh.i wanna forget the past.and i started anew.ever since my bdae.but i dunno whether it will last.as in that feel i had.cos it seems like it's gonna fade away.preetttyy sooon.people have been asking me lately.whether or not im attached.when was the last time i've been attached.heeellooo!!like i wanna be detached.ahaha.actually i do arhh.dun wanna get myself involved in any rubbish stuff.ahhaha.i realised.as long as i have my girlfriends.i'd survive.but for my sis.she wont live.not even for a day.without her bf.that just means im more independent than her.haa!!i feel so BIG now.haha.big with pride that is.ahahaha.im feeling better.look at what blogging does to youu.it's good aint it.oowriight.im crapping!!!allootttt.
i've been lazing around at home.alone.i put myself to creativity.i had fun.ahaha.made stuff for some sweet people.heeeeee.
some people have become sombong.why must people change?i hate changes.it sucks.=(.i miss them.things are different.i really really miss them.hope things get back to normal after this fasting month.you dont know noe much im looking forward to that.haaa.

i'll always be right there.whenever you need me.
miss you guys.=(




it's three days after my bdae.haha.ok.whatever.i had such a nice time just now.besides the fact that the a maths paper was a killer.me.shermaine.sixuan.maria and divya.went parkway.walked around.went *eheemm*.yes.and after awhile sixuan and maria had to leave cos they had to study!!ahahaha.exams are over for us!how great is that?and the best thing is.i wont have anymore sch until next monday.haaa!though im kinda exhausted now.so anyway.after they left.me.sherr.and divya walked around.saw those ppl.eurrgh.we went mph and saw.kavina.henna.granz.sandhya and chayana.heez.so anyway.i had to kill time cos i was meeting surayya at 1255.hez.so then.after awhile we left.i cross over the bridge to wait for divya and shermaine's bus.ok.it wasnt exactly wait.i was practically holding on to them not letting them go.haha.so then.i met my beloved cuzz.LOTSA stories!we went paya lebar.singpost there.yep2.we had fun.we really did.went for clothes hunting.tried on some of those really nice ones.we looked HORT.haha.so after awhile.we decided to go east point.bought earrings!there was this woman.she was holding a persian cat in her arms.how annoying.i hate cats woman!!haha.so i didnt wanna go in the shop.stoopid!then.then.erm.we decided to go home.there was this creeepy guy.he had total white hair.with white eyebrows.im not sure bout the eyelashes.but he was totally freaking us out cos he was happily grinning at us!hahaha.so anyway he called.haha.he sounds gay!!!omg.hahahahaha.i laughed my head off.then i made conference with surayya.but we couldnt talk cos both of us were just laughing.seriously man.ur voice turned me off.SORRY!hahaha.okokok.after that i went home.on the phone with surayya.was planning for our day out again.as in buke puase together.hopefully!heeeee.she told me lotsa stuff.true stuff.geeeez.
i dont need a guy to make me happy.




heeellooo!!!hahaha.im so happy today.yes.hehe.cos why???it's my bdae!!!haha.ok.lame.but still!!hehe.i love today besides the fact that some stuff happened.ok.so lemme start with the early morning.
07.10.05
i couldnt sleep last night.i guess i was too happy.hahaha.so then gloria called me at 12 midnight.to wish me.she was the first!then mahmud msged me.the second.and then it was kavina.then md noor.all around midnight.=).then at around 2am some ppl had to call.hrmmph.but i was already sleeping.so i was just giving that tired and sleepie voice.but they didnt have a reason to.damn annoying.so then.i woke up as usual.didnt really feel like my bdae.but i went school.looking all sad.i wasnt sad.i didnt finish studying!i went to the canteen to see that everyone was already there.then i studied awhile.after that.they[sixuan.divya.maria.shermaine.] asked me to guess my present.so i took some time.then i said.necklace???hahaha.im sucha good guesser.yay.then they gave me this HUGE card.which was really nice.and divya was like.ok guess ur next present.i was like HUH!!!hahaha.they were saying it's a food.something nice.something that all of them would love.including me.and it's a box of chocolate!haha.then came out three stalks to roses.a red.yellow.and white one.thanks guys!!i really appreciate it.so so much!didnt know that it was gonna be that many stuff.and it was soo sweet oso.oohh.how can i forget?divya gave me this memory scrapbook.she did the diary for two months.as in write inside what we did together.and there were proofs for it.noe what i mean.hehe.

granz: thanks for bracelet and necklace.the bracelet rawks!haha.it's noice!! and that letter you wrote.it was really sweet and you touched my heart.i was gonna cry.hehe.and those words are priceless.nothing can replace the friendship we have for three years already.love youu!

fatin aka momma: thanks for the earrings.they're pretty!haha.and it's okay.it's the thought that counts.thanks for always crapping with me.and guiding me in malay class.hahaha.you malay-freak!haha.thanks for everything and we'll have great years ahead.ok.im being too formal.haha.love you darlling!!

okay.so after the malay paper.we ALL went bugis.ok.i dont feel like talking bout it.ok then.byeee!thanks for everything!!!!!!!!!!




dont wanna care.dont wanaa noe.i'll get my exams over and done with.by then.i wouldnt think about whatever im going through right now.it sucks.