the girl's life

July 16, 2006

tears welled up in her eyes..
i've been crying since sat.this weekend has been a long and it all seems like a dream.someone pinch me please?seriously.whatever that happened seems like a movie, all the sequence put in place.maybe i can write a compo on this.haiz.orite.so here it goes,
i was in the toilet bathing on saturday morning cos i had english prelims oral.then i heard the phone rang.i hate it when the phone rings early in the morning.oh wait, the night before, i asked my dad to send me to school but he told me that he was going KL with my uncle, ustaz syed ahmad semait(if any of you know..), his second wife who is my aunt(my dad's younger sister), my other aunt(dad's older sis) and her husband and that he couldnt.i had a strong feeling that i thought maybe he shouldnt go.i dont know.instinct i guess.so anyway when i came out of the toilet, my mum told me that my dad called.he met with an accident.and that my unlce, the ustaz one, yeahh, he passed away.i was soo shocked that i just stood there, mouth open, staring at my mum.then my mum asked me to change and not think too much cos i was gonna have my oral exam.so i just went to school.still thinking bout the accident.and how my dad was.and the rest.but i thought i was between cars or something.i was wrong.so wrong.i kinda screwed up my oral.but, haizz.the moment i came home.my mum was like, i didnt tell you just now..your aunt passed away too.not the ustaz's wife.i felt like something sharp hit me right in the heart.i couldnt stand.i tried controlling my tears.i just went in my room.started crying and crying.she was a nice aunt.she was always there to show how much she cares.she was the nicest aunt.so anyway, i changed and everything and we left for my aunt's house.my dad and the rest was still stuck in batu pahat.somewhere in msia.ok so what really happened....(ask me personally)
ah, im not gonna continue.this kinda pisses me off.if there's anyone who read the berita harian today, the cover page.some of the info is bullshit.dont rely on stoopid sources.urghh.oh and just now this stewpid reporter wanted to interview my dad.cmon la.get a life k?he was actually waiting for him.he's not gonna be interview.that's it.go find some other sources.which are not even reliable and make up fucked up stories.yes.do just that.who cares anyway.what i care now is the truth.ugh.whatever.
my dad is badly traumatised.he keeps blaming himself.it's not his fault that all these happened.god already planned out all these for us.everytime i see him cry, i cry.it's sad.esp when he came back and hugged my aunt so tight.he's really important to me now.i didnt know this earlier but there are some stuffs that he told my aunt.it's sad.really..he needs our love and support.which was lacking.hmpph...
daddy, i love you.will always do.

HER SCREAMS BEING HEARD AT [ 9:11 PM ]

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