disappointment after disappointment..i dont remember a time when i made my parents proud of me..and i wonder when that time will come but i know it wont come anytime soon..maybe this is not the time of my life when it's all so ever wonderful..maybe i didnt work hard..maybe theres a reason behind all these..maybe im made not to do well in life..maybe God is testing me..ive come up with so many reasons..but none seem to fit whatever im going through now..it's like i try to be happy but im reminded of it all and i'll sulk all over again..but why?i expected much more from myself..my parents didnt though..my mum thought i was gonna do worse..my dad's happy for me though, i guess..he's sweet..but hey, at least im going to some jc..and i should be happy right?anyways..im so freakin happy for gloriedearr!haha..she got freakin 9 pts(minus two, 7!)..it's so unbelievable..smartass shawty!haha..i lovveee you!oh and congrats to maria and sixuan for being the top 40!woooo!and also, divyadarl and suhailah and tooonbaby!, kavinaa shahi!, sandyyslut and others for doing well..muuuaks!so happy for you guys.
okay so friday went well..after the results..hehee..shan elaborate..but i somehow liked it=)
i sulked at home on saturday..it's crazee..cos i was suddenly reminded of 'stuff' and tears welled up in my eyes..retarded okay..not like as if i wanna cry..hmph..and sometimes i feel like i dont deserve to be happy..
i was off to jb on sunday with my mummy, granny, older sis and her other half..went tebrau city..came home before midnight..haha..
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this song has been stuck in my head!:
well you done done me and you better felt it
I tried to be chill but you so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks and i'm tryin to get back before the cool done run out
i'll be givin it my bestest and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait
i'm yours....
Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free l
ook into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music of the moment maybe seen with me
Ah, la peaceful melodie
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved
So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short this is our fate,
i'm yours..!