ok, ranting time! sheeesshhh.
am i a substitute? it's fucking annoying. and i dont even know why the hell it's affecting me this much. i mean i actually try not to care. but guess what? it's not happening! dammit. why is it so so difficult to let go? i really want to. ok maybe not. hahaha. but seriously! it all depends on her. shes the one who controls the tide for him. which i think is quite pathetic. but hey, they call it love. many many ppl have been telling me what i should really do but i just canttt. i dont wanna be too nice either! but it's him i think about. haiii. hahahhaa. i sound really pathetic and stupid right? i just pretend i can handle it myself but in actual fact, it's bottling up inside. and the feeling is so shitty. hmphhhh!
GET A GRIP SEEEENAH!
hahaha. im crazily in love!?

....so random.....